Was being asked abt her lately.. Nothing much.. We are back as sweet as before. Recalled a few incidents from our days of work.. Maybe i had started to release a little.. Release doesn't mean give up, dun worry sweetie. I had ur words in mind since that day. I know u are working hard, so am i.. Let's work harder together. =)
Sales flopped this mth. Scary.. Imagine payout less than half of previous. Therefore, the thrifty goes on.. Haiz.. Wat to do.. Nothing in this world is perfect.. Perhaps it's time to manage myself before managing finance.. Earning 10k doesn't mean have to spend like machiam every mth earn 10k.. Management is hard..and tedious.. But no choice, for the future, i have to..
Met Jasmine and her husband Han lately when they came CP.. Han is in banking business thus i had learnt a little from him and had a little change in my future plans.. Afterall, career isn't too late to start even time goes by in 10yrs time.. Coz, there's no age in business. How old can a boss be? Well, mainly they are old.. Crap. Venturing out is an option not a risk. If everyone is afraid of risks, there will not be successful ppl less the unsuccessful ppl.. Wrong? Michael Jordan is famous for his basketball considered 1st, but who is second? And wat abt those who don't even get the fame? Fail means fail. There's no shame.
Even though i can play the game but i'm really sorry coz i'm attached and unavailable.. I may be cheeky and TK at times but well those are juz basic human instincts, perhaps man instincts.. Lolx.. Playing around with words mean no harm. But not fooling around until things go outta hand.. Tat's crazy. I dun said this to please anyone coz i blog to myself not to any readers.
Someone still does ask abt me on msn lately. I'm glad, at least she doesn't complain anymore like before.. Though both of us of different situation as before, one fact doesn't change, we are still friends.. That, i'm glad.. To rely on others to pick up ownself is useless. Maybe that's y i'm so attracted to those who got backbones who seldom rely on others.. Well, i mean seldom. Coz if u never share anything with me, there's no room for improvements, even as a friend.. I believe dawn still fits the criteria to be part of soul and body. Anytime even midnight if she calls and is crying, i'll be there in half an hr or less. Quite far lah, muz understand.. But i'm not juz anyone or rather any rider to any place anytime. Coz dawn is part of my life. Maybe she herself never expect that from me..
Well,
good friends never seen u cry. Best friends will be there when u cry.
good friends dare not disturb u when u are busy. Best friends simply pull u out for food.
If u ever did something and i object or pushover, mainly u are out of the category.. But afterall, still friends.. Best friends are not to be made use of but rather feel as part of life that they exist as VIP.. But sometimes, sad cases. U may treat me like one but i think otherwise. Pardon me but i'm not god. Coz i choose my own besties, not juz anyone. I'm shui bian but still not fan jian. That still stand firm ground..
Brandon's wed coming soon and i had to help out on that day.. Will be a real long day and maybe at nite i might have to juz sleep in the hotel.. Friday still gotta work.. But no issue, coz it's really an honor. For him only, i will forgo my sales for that day and the next. Not really a superb chap but ok lah really nice chap. Maybe his exposure not as much as Jason and i, thus a little of different category..
30 September, 2008
18 September, 2008
Surprised? Someone dun think so if she reads my mind..
Been really a long time from the last post. Actually had a lot up in my mind ever since then but juz lazy or rather dun feel like posting.. Happy moments, sad moments. I have it all. Being attached as some knew. Been to funerals, only a few knew. In fact, a lot happened.. To be frank, i juz dun wanna post those sad moments as it will all affect others who's reading a little..
Last post i'm still in Singapore Technology being a robot there. Working 12hrs/day, 7days/week, 28days/mth. Life's hell and mono. Lifeless though i'm able to earn more than double of my last pay.. All's not well, coz been clearing debts and getting my transport as well.. Yup, my yellow baby TZM.. When i left my company, debts cleared till 4/5 or rather 80%. I took up as sales retailing at Vivo as NEC promotor. Life's seems good as every colleagues there are friendly and most impt i had friends working there. But the pay-cut is extreme to me.. However, still bearable except for the more frequent of alcoholic... Then i gave up and entered my current at Causeway Point. Yes extremely far but i got my baby so everything's fine.. But the transition is tough.. Coz pay will be delayed for a mth. Crap. Almost back to square one but luckily i still only have to tahan for another 3 weeks and the storm will be over real soon.. Coz my pay gonna be double as compared to previous.. But to the shock of my life, i thot i earned a lot but one of my colleague there is earning 4 times of my August payout.. Gosh. I was really stunned that there are still ppl earning 5-digit salary as retail sales. He is not a manager and not even a supervisor but he is earning more than 2 times of my supervisor of vivo.. Crazy figures.. Goldmine indeed. Period.
Was attached to a MIC of ST. Former colleague. Older than me, bigger size than me, slightly taller than me. But overall, she's great. She really took good care of me on my down times.. It's really been hard on her.. Really the shy type that when i tried to kiss her and she will shy away.. Haha.. Been together at the beach before with a tent from night till daybreak.. Some says romantic. Erm.. Maybe..? I told her that i will bring her on a cable car but the day had yet to come.. She was so excited on that. She knew i dun like Veg and there's once that i was tricked into eating at Fei Chui Restaurant at Vivo.. Crap but sweet. Silly gal.. I had told many that this gal was great. Among all previous, she may not be the best but she's among the top. Even if were to settle down with her, i wouldn't mind. Even my best friend gave the thumbs-up signal. Now awaiting the other best friend for the signal. He's gone to sweden for a long time already.. Coming back real soon. I mentioned i was quite sharp on my instinct but sometimes that may be oversensitive. Whichever the case, i must admit that i do feel this way becoz there's love. If not, would i react this way? lolx..
Anyways,
1st time - Off day went to 'sister' place to do some collection as well as majong. Did called around late afternoon and chat for a while.. Call her around late evening and there's no answer. Nevermind.. Finished work, zoom home with my baby and call, hp off. That was around 11pm. Called every hour till 3am, to vain. Maybe hp low batt and reach home forgot to take out to charge. Call the next day 3pm, hp off. Call 4pm, hp off. Call 5pm, hp off. Close to 6pm she called back. Said was recalled by someone(not to mention unless u ask me personally) for late dinner with his mum so had to off hp..
2nd time -Off day said wanna go out but nothing discussed over the fone so i went to work rather than spending the time at home doing nothing. Called me at work and had a little fight despite telling her that i can leave anytime. Said will call me back but called after 5hrs. Too late for anything. Said was watching show over the net and forgot the time. Told her can meet for dinner or movie but said dun feel like coming out already. Set.
3rd time -Off day said wanna go for haircut with colleague but din mentioned wat time. Was supposed to meet up together with my best friend and go to Jurong to pick up a tv from my aunt. Called her around 4pm and she's already out on her way for haircut and urgently hang-up. Reached Jurong around 7pm but raining so stop-over for a cup of tea. Called her but no answer. Got the tv back home and sent my friend to his bike. Called again and no answer. Back home bathed and eaten dinner. Before bed at 11pm called again and no answer. Thinking of it, i dun even know where she's going for her haircut. Furious. Sleep.
4th time -Off day said wanna go ktv with Pauline and another pretty gal but i forgot name. Last min i call her and informed her that i had to report for work due to roadshow, unable to take off days for 2 weeks.. Called her 5pm no answer. half an hr later called back with her sleepy voice and said juz woke up. Said will be preparing coz later going hair-treatment. Called back around 8pm and said on her way down for the treatment and haircut. Chatted for around 30min before she reach. Told her to call back when she reach home, said that she dun wanna disturb my sleep. This means she will be going home late? No? Zoom home bathed and ate my dinner, called her at 11.30pm and no answer. Called back within 3min and said she's at home already and someone(not to mention unless u ask me personally) is next door and she's not to speak freely. Environment is quiet and she can't sleep without music.. When at home all she does is stick to the computer but her QQ(something like messenger) is not on. Period.
She's having an off day on 1 fortnight. That means i had not seen her for almost two months. Actually i'm not scared of anything neither losing. I can still flirt with my Diners meimei and disturb other gals working at my workplace. But i still did not do anything wrong to her till date. I can still go hug gals at some places with those guys. I can still go drinking without informing her.. I can still tok to other gals on the fone. But i still haven't do anything wrong..
Do i have to go to that extend? Money is coming in soon and when there's money, anything can happen. I'm still being the guai guai type coz i haven't lay my hands on the fortune that's rolling in.. $3.3k payout on my coming pay. And with her that tight work schedule, i can easily 2-times or 3-times or 4-times her without her knowing. Do i really wanna see that happen?
For now i really dunno and will see how things go. It's either gone wild or settle down. My heart yearns for the 1st path now. Tragic.
I'm still the ever-wanting-attention guy yet easily-satisfied-with-a-little-attention guy.. Maybe she really doesn’t knows me well enuff.. Trial of 6mths will be enuff to see everything? Nah. I gave it 2yrs. Too many marriages and divorces I’ve seen. One after another and one after another. Told someone that there’s no more love in this world. Well, I mean it. So, dun fall to prey coz I will still bare my teeth.
Someone said I was her left hand but I felt more like a hair.. Haha.. Maybe becoz of some things made her change her mindset but I’m no longer angry. No need to feel paiseh leh, anyhow u know how to feel paiseh one meh? Hehe.. U are once my life buoy, so am I to u if u ever needed one. But issit possible for u to be again my life buoy? Question mark. Even so, I’m still ur life buoy. Smile even if u dun feel like to. Becoz u have to. Everyone else too including me.. Parts of body are meant to support one another, not to forget to use to support one another, unless it’s not to be one in the 1st place if u know wat I mean. Ciao. Take care, sweetie.
Last post i'm still in Singapore Technology being a robot there. Working 12hrs/day, 7days/week, 28days/mth. Life's hell and mono. Lifeless though i'm able to earn more than double of my last pay.. All's not well, coz been clearing debts and getting my transport as well.. Yup, my yellow baby TZM.. When i left my company, debts cleared till 4/5 or rather 80%. I took up as sales retailing at Vivo as NEC promotor. Life's seems good as every colleagues there are friendly and most impt i had friends working there. But the pay-cut is extreme to me.. However, still bearable except for the more frequent of alcoholic... Then i gave up and entered my current at Causeway Point. Yes extremely far but i got my baby so everything's fine.. But the transition is tough.. Coz pay will be delayed for a mth. Crap. Almost back to square one but luckily i still only have to tahan for another 3 weeks and the storm will be over real soon.. Coz my pay gonna be double as compared to previous.. But to the shock of my life, i thot i earned a lot but one of my colleague there is earning 4 times of my August payout.. Gosh. I was really stunned that there are still ppl earning 5-digit salary as retail sales. He is not a manager and not even a supervisor but he is earning more than 2 times of my supervisor of vivo.. Crazy figures.. Goldmine indeed. Period.
Was attached to a MIC of ST. Former colleague. Older than me, bigger size than me, slightly taller than me. But overall, she's great. She really took good care of me on my down times.. It's really been hard on her.. Really the shy type that when i tried to kiss her and she will shy away.. Haha.. Been together at the beach before with a tent from night till daybreak.. Some says romantic. Erm.. Maybe..? I told her that i will bring her on a cable car but the day had yet to come.. She was so excited on that. She knew i dun like Veg and there's once that i was tricked into eating at Fei Chui Restaurant at Vivo.. Crap but sweet. Silly gal.. I had told many that this gal was great. Among all previous, she may not be the best but she's among the top. Even if were to settle down with her, i wouldn't mind. Even my best friend gave the thumbs-up signal. Now awaiting the other best friend for the signal. He's gone to sweden for a long time already.. Coming back real soon. I mentioned i was quite sharp on my instinct but sometimes that may be oversensitive. Whichever the case, i must admit that i do feel this way becoz there's love. If not, would i react this way? lolx..
Anyways,
1st time - Off day went to 'sister' place to do some collection as well as majong. Did called around late afternoon and chat for a while.. Call her around late evening and there's no answer. Nevermind.. Finished work, zoom home with my baby and call, hp off. That was around 11pm. Called every hour till 3am, to vain. Maybe hp low batt and reach home forgot to take out to charge. Call the next day 3pm, hp off. Call 4pm, hp off. Call 5pm, hp off. Close to 6pm she called back. Said was recalled by someone(not to mention unless u ask me personally) for late dinner with his mum so had to off hp..
2nd time -Off day said wanna go out but nothing discussed over the fone so i went to work rather than spending the time at home doing nothing. Called me at work and had a little fight despite telling her that i can leave anytime. Said will call me back but called after 5hrs. Too late for anything. Said was watching show over the net and forgot the time. Told her can meet for dinner or movie but said dun feel like coming out already. Set.
3rd time -Off day said wanna go for haircut with colleague but din mentioned wat time. Was supposed to meet up together with my best friend and go to Jurong to pick up a tv from my aunt. Called her around 4pm and she's already out on her way for haircut and urgently hang-up. Reached Jurong around 7pm but raining so stop-over for a cup of tea. Called her but no answer. Got the tv back home and sent my friend to his bike. Called again and no answer. Back home bathed and eaten dinner. Before bed at 11pm called again and no answer. Thinking of it, i dun even know where she's going for her haircut. Furious. Sleep.
4th time -Off day said wanna go ktv with Pauline and another pretty gal but i forgot name. Last min i call her and informed her that i had to report for work due to roadshow, unable to take off days for 2 weeks.. Called her 5pm no answer. half an hr later called back with her sleepy voice and said juz woke up. Said will be preparing coz later going hair-treatment. Called back around 8pm and said on her way down for the treatment and haircut. Chatted for around 30min before she reach. Told her to call back when she reach home, said that she dun wanna disturb my sleep. This means she will be going home late? No? Zoom home bathed and ate my dinner, called her at 11.30pm and no answer. Called back within 3min and said she's at home already and someone(not to mention unless u ask me personally) is next door and she's not to speak freely. Environment is quiet and she can't sleep without music.. When at home all she does is stick to the computer but her QQ(something like messenger) is not on. Period.
She's having an off day on 1 fortnight. That means i had not seen her for almost two months. Actually i'm not scared of anything neither losing. I can still flirt with my Diners meimei and disturb other gals working at my workplace. But i still did not do anything wrong to her till date. I can still go hug gals at some places with those guys. I can still go drinking without informing her.. I can still tok to other gals on the fone. But i still haven't do anything wrong..
Do i have to go to that extend? Money is coming in soon and when there's money, anything can happen. I'm still being the guai guai type coz i haven't lay my hands on the fortune that's rolling in.. $3.3k payout on my coming pay. And with her that tight work schedule, i can easily 2-times or 3-times or 4-times her without her knowing. Do i really wanna see that happen?
For now i really dunno and will see how things go. It's either gone wild or settle down. My heart yearns for the 1st path now. Tragic.
I'm still the ever-wanting-attention guy yet easily-satisfied-with-a-little-attention guy.. Maybe she really doesn’t knows me well enuff.. Trial of 6mths will be enuff to see everything? Nah. I gave it 2yrs. Too many marriages and divorces I’ve seen. One after another and one after another. Told someone that there’s no more love in this world. Well, I mean it. So, dun fall to prey coz I will still bare my teeth.
Someone said I was her left hand but I felt more like a hair.. Haha.. Maybe becoz of some things made her change her mindset but I’m no longer angry. No need to feel paiseh leh, anyhow u know how to feel paiseh one meh? Hehe.. U are once my life buoy, so am I to u if u ever needed one. But issit possible for u to be again my life buoy? Question mark. Even so, I’m still ur life buoy. Smile even if u dun feel like to. Becoz u have to. Everyone else too including me.. Parts of body are meant to support one another, not to forget to use to support one another, unless it’s not to be one in the 1st place if u know wat I mean. Ciao. Take care, sweetie.
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