Shag out.. Slept at 7.30am and yet wakey at 11am then tahan until now still do my blog.. =.=" I muz be siao or wat.. lol..
Yest went down to qb with BD group however switched over to Martin instead since xiaobudian asked... But brandon and his wife left first then followed by jason. Left me and jessie.. Later steven and qiang came down to look for me as they haven't got enuff alcohol in them.. Chatted a while and played a few games of pool then found something amusing.. Lolx.. That pinky guy seems interested in knowing Jessie but not sure who am i to her so dare not really approach but rather kept toking to me.. Then after the match between him and jessie they shaked hand. While shaking jessie's hand he looked at me for a while lolx.. Confirm leh.. =D When told jessie she still dun believe.. When i played pool with him, he already kept beo-ing liao lor.. Lolx.. Anyway, cyndi also there with her bf. Said she not working for a wk liao. =.=" If i'm the boss i also will not hire u lah. ZzZzZzZz.. Anyway, jess left early while i sent her down to take cab then as we sms-ing she complaining a bit on the uncle driving her a big round via orchard shaw.. Lolx.. That uncle sleepy lah mind not functioning well..
Left with the 3 of us.. Drink, sing, tok. All the way until 7am then the boss says he really need to close liao... LOLX! When we came down from Martin and down to the road, the whole sky is damn bright liao.. 1st time for all of us to be drinking till this EARLY! =.="
Went home wash up and did some sms. Then on my mininote and check mail then realised something... She posted a new photo.. Juz now after my work reached home and again another photo. She's not the usual cam-whore. Maybe less than 5 pics a year. =.="
Anyway, did some postings the other day on the QQ group asking ppl inside a question. Interesting...
"Hi ppl, may i know how can i remove my qq or rather entire account? Anyway, someone register for me last time but i din really use it. Then nowadays i've been online in this chat for like several mths liao, but i've never seen her online. Even though she's online, i'm juz a 'transparent', anyway i'm not important. I'm tired."
These were posted in chinese while i direct convert.. I knew she will see it. I posted it on sun morning 6am before i slept.. Sun evening 5pm she called, trying to tok abt it but i act busy trying to rush her with my words here and there.. Then she spur out asking wat FEI HUA i'm toking abt inside there. I juz say that's a fact. Then she tried teaching me on the process of removal. I was doing upgrading and installation for cust so listen half-hearted lor.. Then without much heart to do the toking, i told her to wait then i asked weihao some questions abt cust things then when back on her i told her i'm busy if later free then tok. Sounds cool as i can act, but pain.. Thereafter at downstairs, 3 sticks were burned..
Yea.. I was cold in my words.. When i posted those words in the chatroom, i removed my ring from my neck, name in my phonebook had been changed and pic had been detached from her ctc. I'm really tired. It's an obvious sign and there's NOTHING i shld say to her coz it's like there's nothing between us. As if we had never started, so there's no need for an end. No essential for a word called 'break'. Coz we ain't official in the 1st place.. Ya i'm juz a nobody. Not needed at all. I will not contact her again. There's a limit to everything.
Mon her off day and great, no news. Cfm i gave up liao. I dun even bother msg/call her since she dun even bother. 1 and a half day more to taiwan getaway. I really need a break.. Ya a break.. Maybe it's better that way.
21 April, 2009
19 April, 2009
Stumbled on a blog on a trip reminds me of an incident with a friend.. =.="
The conversation goes like this....
Wah i really need to take a break! I want to go Taiwan!
I also want to go!!
Huh...?
I want!!
=.= Hmmmmm.....
Come on..
Well, i will not book 2 rooms de wor.. *giggle in mischief*
Okie!
Well, i dun like to slp on single bed de wor...
Okie!!
=.="
Though i did not really bring her go but she's kind of naive.. =.=" Same age as me. ZzZzZzZz.. And she's juz a friend to me.. Well, juz one of the few gals that i actually bring to hang out with my group of best friends.. Though only once during ktv session.. My besty knew i will not anyhow bring friend along especially gals lol.. I think so far only a handful.. My ex Shan, friend Celena, friend Dawn, friend Ruyou, friend Xuehui & friend Joy. Well, my this group is the longest group alive coz it consists of only my primary school friends, some with spouse.
But as it goes, smaller and smaller it gets.. One after another getting more and more tired in maintaining the circle.. Celebrating one another bday as time comes.. Meeting up here and there for food or leisure.. Everyone got their own lifestyle and things to do.. Everyone can be busy.. It's juz about whether to put in effort to make things work or not.. It doesn't juz take one hand to clap.. Jiang Shan doesn't build up in a day.. It takes 108 ppl effort to make it happen.. Being a leader is tough i know.. But as a support there's nothing i can do to help her.. Helpless seeing and hearing her crying over bitterness and yet nothing can be done to make the group strong and bond like before.. Age goes up and everything can change as time passes by.. Reality is cruel but yet we still have to stand to face and accept rather than to try to change.. Jocelyn left with her bf.. Now Jinlun with his gf.. With JL not around, Jianhao also not joining.. Only left Jasmine, Wendy, Yuxiang and me.. Jasmine is married and yet she's still do organising for events.. Wendy is soon to ring the bell as well, heard they are looking for flat already.. Yuxiang still same as before.. Having no confidence due to the last incidence.. 5yrs, wat to do.. Me too hectic from my work and quite occupy at times with my game if not occasional pubbing for pools. Yeah i'm still a sucker for pool lol.. Wow that time i actually won 5 rounds in a row! >.<
Anyway, me yx and jas had been toking abt the situation.. Yea it's getting smaller now.. Everyone is like so busy.. As for me, can't blame me due to my work but of coz i do compromise if i really can.. Juz like that time i having PCshow so unable to go for majong at Jas's place... I wonder if that day i were to be there, things wun get that sour and bitter.. Haiz.. Sad.. All good things always come to an end..
1st time she was crying.. The only different is the other one i was there after that though not lending any shoulder but ears whereas this one was only lending ears thru the phone.. The other one i accompanied her till 7am, this one till 2am.. The other one i was single at that time, this one i was attached. Nonetheless, it still pain to see friends in pain.. Their sorrow are my sorrows.. =.=" There's no sorrow without happiness and there's no happiness without sorrow. All are part and parcel of life.. Juz like how living things eventually went on to the afterlife while the remains back to the earth.. Sad.. One door closes, the other opens.. The door opens, the other closes.. Never ending shits. We are really born to suffer aren't we not..? And yet we had to survive everyday juz like how african had to do to suvive.. Tragic as it can be, but that's life..
"Everyone can give up on u, but there's no way u can give up on urself. Juz like me, myself and i. When there's nothing but darkness around, i'm the only one who can bring myself up and be me again.."
That's a phrase that's in my head where no one ever told me the real morale of the "me, myself and i". No one truely understand why they are using it and how it really came from.. Anyway, that's MY LOGIC, which i've never said before. Juz like how a person understand the meaning of "me, myself and i", he/she assumed he/she will simply gets the meaning.. In fact, it's simple in complicated pyschology. U think u know, maybe not. U think u dunno, maybe yes. There's no right or wrong, juz move on coz planet earth doesn't stop juz for anyone..
If July 2009 were to be the last mth i gonna live, i would live as it is while it still last.. I will not fly off to another other safe spot, nor will i run away.. Everything had a start, got an end.. I dun wish for anyone beside on the day of ragnarok nor do yearn for any. I juz wish for eternal serenity. Was it a lie to panic the world? Or was it a prank to pull people's leg? Well, doesn't matter to me.. Even if i live on pass Aug 2009, who knows in 30-40yrs time? Juz come early and end my misery coz living itself is a misery.. But i can't juz end it anyhow.. For my family, for my love, for my dog, for my work, for my colleagues, my customers, for my relatives, for my besty, for my friends. I still have to play my part as Rick, as Weixing, as ahboy..
Some time back had already differenate the two. Both are entirely different. Juz somehow a bit nostalgic here and there.. But that will only brings back melancholy bad memories of my past.. I seek nothing of that since i'm already hitched(for now).. There's no desire at all but a nut that never understood wat felt inside.. =.=" J said i'm still the same as before that cling on the cliff and forever never says die till the day cliff says "please die". Well, that's me in the 1st place..
When he said he love u, the more u cried and hate urself.. I dun understand.....
When he never said "i love u", the more u yearn and wish for it.. I can understand.....
When i said "i love u", she replied "me too", the more uneasy i felt and wish for more.. I dun understand.....
What the hell is wrong among these situations.. Human are indeed unpredictable creatures with so many hell unlogical emotions. =.=" Juz like how i reject, juz u are a nice gal and i'm not ur standard. Any guys will cursed and swore at me for that. But, at that time how i yearn to tell her those actual words that are stucked in the throat.. =.="
Some things always the most beautiful when not being able to obtain.
Becoz of this sentence, the one rather choose the uncle.. Maybe she's right abt it..
All these ain't random but from bottom.. Like i said before, it's not everyone in my phonebook i would simply juz go find them juz to accompany them juz becoz they are sad or happy or lonely. I'm not a 'thing', nor am i an 'item'. If one doesn't hold any 'weight' in me, i rather choose my game or slumber. The 'weight' is not juz any 'weight'..
And btw, i'm not chim... I'm born Aquarius, water of mystery.. So, it's kinda normal.. =)
The conversation goes like this....
Wah i really need to take a break! I want to go Taiwan!
I also want to go!!
Huh...?
I want!!
=.= Hmmmmm.....
Come on..
Well, i will not book 2 rooms de wor.. *giggle in mischief*
Okie!
Well, i dun like to slp on single bed de wor...
Okie!!
=.="
Though i did not really bring her go but she's kind of naive.. =.=" Same age as me. ZzZzZzZz.. And she's juz a friend to me.. Well, juz one of the few gals that i actually bring to hang out with my group of best friends.. Though only once during ktv session.. My besty knew i will not anyhow bring friend along especially gals lol.. I think so far only a handful.. My ex Shan, friend Celena, friend Dawn, friend Ruyou, friend Xuehui & friend Joy. Well, my this group is the longest group alive coz it consists of only my primary school friends, some with spouse.
But as it goes, smaller and smaller it gets.. One after another getting more and more tired in maintaining the circle.. Celebrating one another bday as time comes.. Meeting up here and there for food or leisure.. Everyone got their own lifestyle and things to do.. Everyone can be busy.. It's juz about whether to put in effort to make things work or not.. It doesn't juz take one hand to clap.. Jiang Shan doesn't build up in a day.. It takes 108 ppl effort to make it happen.. Being a leader is tough i know.. But as a support there's nothing i can do to help her.. Helpless seeing and hearing her crying over bitterness and yet nothing can be done to make the group strong and bond like before.. Age goes up and everything can change as time passes by.. Reality is cruel but yet we still have to stand to face and accept rather than to try to change.. Jocelyn left with her bf.. Now Jinlun with his gf.. With JL not around, Jianhao also not joining.. Only left Jasmine, Wendy, Yuxiang and me.. Jasmine is married and yet she's still do organising for events.. Wendy is soon to ring the bell as well, heard they are looking for flat already.. Yuxiang still same as before.. Having no confidence due to the last incidence.. 5yrs, wat to do.. Me too hectic from my work and quite occupy at times with my game if not occasional pubbing for pools. Yeah i'm still a sucker for pool lol.. Wow that time i actually won 5 rounds in a row! >.<
Anyway, me yx and jas had been toking abt the situation.. Yea it's getting smaller now.. Everyone is like so busy.. As for me, can't blame me due to my work but of coz i do compromise if i really can.. Juz like that time i having PCshow so unable to go for majong at Jas's place... I wonder if that day i were to be there, things wun get that sour and bitter.. Haiz.. Sad.. All good things always come to an end..
1st time she was crying.. The only different is the other one i was there after that though not lending any shoulder but ears whereas this one was only lending ears thru the phone.. The other one i accompanied her till 7am, this one till 2am.. The other one i was single at that time, this one i was attached. Nonetheless, it still pain to see friends in pain.. Their sorrow are my sorrows.. =.=" There's no sorrow without happiness and there's no happiness without sorrow. All are part and parcel of life.. Juz like how living things eventually went on to the afterlife while the remains back to the earth.. Sad.. One door closes, the other opens.. The door opens, the other closes.. Never ending shits. We are really born to suffer aren't we not..? And yet we had to survive everyday juz like how african had to do to suvive.. Tragic as it can be, but that's life..
"Everyone can give up on u, but there's no way u can give up on urself. Juz like me, myself and i. When there's nothing but darkness around, i'm the only one who can bring myself up and be me again.."
That's a phrase that's in my head where no one ever told me the real morale of the "me, myself and i". No one truely understand why they are using it and how it really came from.. Anyway, that's MY LOGIC, which i've never said before. Juz like how a person understand the meaning of "me, myself and i", he/she assumed he/she will simply gets the meaning.. In fact, it's simple in complicated pyschology. U think u know, maybe not. U think u dunno, maybe yes. There's no right or wrong, juz move on coz planet earth doesn't stop juz for anyone..
If July 2009 were to be the last mth i gonna live, i would live as it is while it still last.. I will not fly off to another other safe spot, nor will i run away.. Everything had a start, got an end.. I dun wish for anyone beside on the day of ragnarok nor do yearn for any. I juz wish for eternal serenity. Was it a lie to panic the world? Or was it a prank to pull people's leg? Well, doesn't matter to me.. Even if i live on pass Aug 2009, who knows in 30-40yrs time? Juz come early and end my misery coz living itself is a misery.. But i can't juz end it anyhow.. For my family, for my love, for my dog, for my work, for my colleagues, my customers, for my relatives, for my besty, for my friends. I still have to play my part as Rick, as Weixing, as ahboy..
Some time back had already differenate the two. Both are entirely different. Juz somehow a bit nostalgic here and there.. But that will only brings back melancholy bad memories of my past.. I seek nothing of that since i'm already hitched(for now).. There's no desire at all but a nut that never understood wat felt inside.. =.=" J said i'm still the same as before that cling on the cliff and forever never says die till the day cliff says "please die". Well, that's me in the 1st place..
When he said he love u, the more u cried and hate urself.. I dun understand.....
When he never said "i love u", the more u yearn and wish for it.. I can understand.....
When i said "i love u", she replied "me too", the more uneasy i felt and wish for more.. I dun understand.....
What the hell is wrong among these situations.. Human are indeed unpredictable creatures with so many hell unlogical emotions. =.=" Juz like how i reject, juz u are a nice gal and i'm not ur standard. Any guys will cursed and swore at me for that. But, at that time how i yearn to tell her those actual words that are stucked in the throat.. =.="
Some things always the most beautiful when not being able to obtain.
Becoz of this sentence, the one rather choose the uncle.. Maybe she's right abt it..
All these ain't random but from bottom.. Like i said before, it's not everyone in my phonebook i would simply juz go find them juz to accompany them juz becoz they are sad or happy or lonely. I'm not a 'thing', nor am i an 'item'. If one doesn't hold any 'weight' in me, i rather choose my game or slumber. The 'weight' is not juz any 'weight'..
And btw, i'm not chim... I'm born Aquarius, water of mystery.. So, it's kinda normal.. =)
05 April, 2009
真的有点累了。。不知道要怎么说才好。。信任已减低了，疑问也多了。。刚得知是有人每天都会送她去上班，我就感到不自在。就算她说是要给钱的，我还是感到不安。我休假还特意说要送她去上班反而还会被拒绝。。以前上班时还会通电话，难道现在不方便了吗？一两个月见一次面，见面不到三小时，我们这样是快乐的吗？我又不是牛郎阿，干吗要这么痛苦与辛苦呢？花了一千块买了一架手机？还是别人送的？她休息的莫一天我还特地不睡觉，七点的时候打给她连听电话都不听，那么的不方便吗？休息一整天连给电话都没有，有时还关上了电话，玩失踪啊？好让我找不到也摸不清在设么啊？我撞车的时候，睡觉比看我还来的重要。。我看我得检讨一下我自己了。因为我觉得我真的不重要了。。已经不需要我了。。有我与没有我已经没有分别了。。以前每天都想见面，现在已经变得无所谓了吧？痛。。。还记得有一次和她去喝酒还说过后我们去别边，最后说要回家了。。但是呢，结果说自己一个人在咖啡店喝酒。。还说喝到很晚。。还是在等人放工..？我有太多太多的疑问了。。她每次有问题或是不开心的时候都不会跟我说。她说过，不想跟我说是因为不想让我担心。不跟我说难道跟‘他’说啊？不跟‘他’说难道还有另一个人吗？连这种事都不跟我说的话，那我算设么？我根本就一点都不被需要。那我还在这干嘛？
坦白说，我已看不清未来了。。你到底在想设么？可以告诉我吗？我真的很想知道你的全部。
可能是我想太多了吧。可能是我要求太多了吧。如果我根本都不爱你，我干吗浪费我的时间和精神呢？是不需要我的爱了吗？是不需要我这个人的存在了吗？我一点都不重要了吗？
我看我需要一些时间冷静吧.....我每天听到这首歌的歌词，我都很痛..里面就像是在流着血。。心如刀割。。
坦白说，我已看不清未来了。。你到底在想设么？可以告诉我吗？我真的很想知道你的全部。
可能是我想太多了吧。可能是我要求太多了吧。如果我根本都不爱你，我干吗浪费我的时间和精神呢？是不需要我的爱了吗？是不需要我这个人的存在了吗？我一点都不重要了吗？
我看我需要一些时间冷静吧.....我每天听到这首歌的歌词，我都很痛..里面就像是在流着血。。心如刀割。。
爱是这辈子的坟
一个人好孤独, 反正你也不在乎
我该如何你才能感到满足
你走的时候我用沉默代替挽留
是你对爱不认真,还是我没天分
他的唇更适合你想象的那个吻
冰冷的理由摧毁我的身
但看到你幸福眼神,我的泪不再冷
亲爱的能不能最后给我一个吻
能让我死后带走这余温
你说我不要再天真,
那是不可能我们没缘分
一个人好孤独,反正你也不在乎
我该如何你才能感到满足
你走的时候我用沉默代替挽留
是你对爱不认真,还是我没天分
他的唇更适合你想象的那个吻
冰冷的理由摧毁我的身
但看到你幸福眼神,我的泪不再冷
亲爱的能不能最后给我一个吻
能让我死后带走这余温
你说我不要再天真,那是不可能
我们没缘分
他的唇更适合你想象的那个吻
冰冷的理由摧毁我的身
但看到你幸福眼神,我的泪不再冷
亲爱的能不能最后给我一个吻
能让我死后带走这余温
你说我不要再天真,那是不可能
我们没缘分
爱是这辈子的坟
爱是这辈子的坟
03 April, 2009
Juz jail-break my iphone.. hack till 5am yest nite.. =.=" shag out lol.. Finally able to change the theme liao.. Now the next thing will be wanting to be able to forward sms which iphone cannot do.. ZzZzZzZzZz... Unable to find a free version.. lolx.. Realised something when i switched from pixon to iphone.. I lost 5 contacts.. Dawn, Dawn's home, Jessie, Darling, Darling home. =.=" Coz that time these 5 got pic profile so ctc were moved to phone from sim.. =.=" Then deleted all when selling off my pixon.. But lucky some numbers were in my brain. Sweat. Lolx.. I dun rmb house numbers.. =.="
Lately been tempted to keep going pub.. Maybe i shld learn from richard.. Go ktv alone with some beer.. Anyway, there's quite a few nearby my house.. Not being emo juz wanna sing and relax.. That shld be one of a few ways to enjoy life i guess..
Been looking at areas for new home and looking at loans for HDB.. Though still got 23mths but very soon de lor.. Still whether to get hitched or together with mummy's name to get house still a mystery.. Been quite a while since i had my own private dimension liao.. Had been a decade since i moved outta Jurong.. I only scared later too happening nia when i get my new home.. =.=" Anyway, job doesn't seems stable when i sees so many ppl clinging strong to their job despite the pay-cut and comm-cut.. No places are truely stable even if it's of my own.. Haiz..
There's no such thing as definite.
There's no such thing as confirm.
There's no such thing as trust.
There's no such thing as friendship.
There's no such thing as companionship.
There's no such thing as true love.
The whole world is fake!
Lolx i'm juz being random.. Well, i'm still attached. One yr one mth and still counting.. Knn dawn still like so surprised that we lasted so long already.. Shld be i'm the one saying that sentence to her lor.. But she claimed that she had changed le.. No longer the old dawn that i knew.. 江山易改，本性难移。Though i kept having that thot but she still holding strong.. And still wishes the best for me.. Haiz. Dun go against the will of nature.. Let nature takes its own course bah..
Cb fatty say i flop ever since i rode back my bike. =.=" Wah lao lazy to style lah.. Lolx.. At least i keep it short and not messy lor.. ZzZzZzZz.. Anyway, not as if i'm going to style to pian some xiaomeimei ah.. Lolx..
That day went Whiskey with ken, steven, chua, qiang and ken's wife. The day after QB session with brandon, brandon's wife, jessie, kelvin toh, jason and zhiwei. Both days also xiong.. Coz QB with denki ended at 1am but i super high, if that day continues onwards i'm in the mood lor.. When i'm in the mood, i'm a fun guy lolx.. That's how i got my 'NEMO' nick i think.. Lolx.. Whiskey with courts also jialat, all the way till pub closes and eat prata before home.. =.=" Think with Amy got chance.. Well in fact there's nothing good abt her, i juz like her lips.. Lolx perv! But really lah.. They are small and look tasty. LMAO!!
Both days also got a single person gave me a little gf feeling made me uneasy.. Coz mon is her off day and she din contact me.. Wed went down geylang to try to peep her and went wrong coffeeshop and saw the western store is closed then reached home called her and her phone is off.. Whole body warm up.. Long time no such feeling liao.. Almost had a thirst for alchohol.. Called abt 5 times.. After an hr tried again then got thru.. =.=" Her phone batt emptied. Had a nice chat and the cloud is cleared.. ^.^ I'm really hard to please de.. Haiz.. Uncertain and doubt will kill it as time goes on like that.. And she knew i was uncomfortable abt not being able to reach her.. She starting to lose it liao.. When i'm really gone, i'm gonna be gone for good...
Called Cyndi once when i'm at QB with denki.. Her mum picked up. =.=" Asked me who am i and where her daughter is working at. =.=" Lucky i'm quick to react and told her at parkway, shopping centre. =.=" Wat a big liar i am.. Lolx.. But bo bian lah, wan to get ppl's mother worried meh..? Sigh.. Then the next day spoke to Cyndi and we had a good laugh, with her mum of coz.. Her mum thot i'm her bf sia. wtf.. Then she also jialat one.. Act like one, in front of her mum.. Like asking me to bring her go see doc coz she sick.. Asking me whether wan to go visit her after work coz she's sick and will be at home.. Then ask if i'm gonna ta bao supper for her family. =.=" Then several questions shot me. Do i really look/sound like i'm interested in her? ZzZzZzZzZzZz..
In fact, i would treat almost every single gal the same way as i would treat my gal, except tat i would treat my gal much much better.. Occasionally for some close ones i will also go to the extend to give them the 'warm' needed.. And also, i shall repeat myself again though already said thousand times.. Me and Dawn are clean. There's nothing between except for the fact that we are really close last time juz like how me with celena, me with jasmine, me with carisa, me with vina, me with huiwen, me with connie, me with xuehui.
From keith, there's no best friends between a man and woman, normally it's either rejection then both become close to each other despite having no relation, purely as friends..
Every chapter had a story behind them. Anyway, there's nothing to hide. And btw, i'm not always the one who got rejected except by......... Hmmmm.. At first i did put name but i think it will not be right.. Lolx.. But ppl who are close to me can easily let me fly to their side whenever i hear sign of neccessary.. If again dawn needed someone to tok to her till daylight under her block, i would.. If any of the mentioned said that, i will be there too.. Even though i had to work for the roadshow or pcshow.. roadshows/pcshows can flop but i only have one individual unique friend that is non-replaceable..
If she wanted me to pick her up everyday 5am and send her home, i would.. Even if i were to die of exhaustion, i will grasp my last breath for her but not for my friends not even close friends..
If u really love the stars, even though i cannot get the stars but at least i would bring down the moon for u..
I once said those to someone of a 'friend'. If she still rmb abt the moon.. I believe she do, though quiet as always.. Always hiding in the back supporting me silently, till forever.. Forever i will rmb u too and silently too..
Lately been tempted to keep going pub.. Maybe i shld learn from richard.. Go ktv alone with some beer.. Anyway, there's quite a few nearby my house.. Not being emo juz wanna sing and relax.. That shld be one of a few ways to enjoy life i guess..
Been looking at areas for new home and looking at loans for HDB.. Though still got 23mths but very soon de lor.. Still whether to get hitched or together with mummy's name to get house still a mystery.. Been quite a while since i had my own private dimension liao.. Had been a decade since i moved outta Jurong.. I only scared later too happening nia when i get my new home.. =.=" Anyway, job doesn't seems stable when i sees so many ppl clinging strong to their job despite the pay-cut and comm-cut.. No places are truely stable even if it's of my own.. Haiz..
There's no such thing as definite.
There's no such thing as confirm.
There's no such thing as trust.
There's no such thing as friendship.
There's no such thing as companionship.
There's no such thing as true love.
The whole world is fake!
Lolx i'm juz being random.. Well, i'm still attached. One yr one mth and still counting.. Knn dawn still like so surprised that we lasted so long already.. Shld be i'm the one saying that sentence to her lor.. But she claimed that she had changed le.. No longer the old dawn that i knew.. 江山易改，本性难移。Though i kept having that thot but she still holding strong.. And still wishes the best for me.. Haiz. Dun go against the will of nature.. Let nature takes its own course bah..
Cb fatty say i flop ever since i rode back my bike. =.=" Wah lao lazy to style lah.. Lolx.. At least i keep it short and not messy lor.. ZzZzZzZz.. Anyway, not as if i'm going to style to pian some xiaomeimei ah.. Lolx..
That day went Whiskey with ken, steven, chua, qiang and ken's wife. The day after QB session with brandon, brandon's wife, jessie, kelvin toh, jason and zhiwei. Both days also xiong.. Coz QB with denki ended at 1am but i super high, if that day continues onwards i'm in the mood lor.. When i'm in the mood, i'm a fun guy lolx.. That's how i got my 'NEMO' nick i think.. Lolx.. Whiskey with courts also jialat, all the way till pub closes and eat prata before home.. =.=" Think with Amy got chance.. Well in fact there's nothing good abt her, i juz like her lips.. Lolx perv! But really lah.. They are small and look tasty. LMAO!!
Both days also got a single person gave me a little gf feeling made me uneasy.. Coz mon is her off day and she din contact me.. Wed went down geylang to try to peep her and went wrong coffeeshop and saw the western store is closed then reached home called her and her phone is off.. Whole body warm up.. Long time no such feeling liao.. Almost had a thirst for alchohol.. Called abt 5 times.. After an hr tried again then got thru.. =.=" Her phone batt emptied. Had a nice chat and the cloud is cleared.. ^.^ I'm really hard to please de.. Haiz.. Uncertain and doubt will kill it as time goes on like that.. And she knew i was uncomfortable abt not being able to reach her.. She starting to lose it liao.. When i'm really gone, i'm gonna be gone for good...
Called Cyndi once when i'm at QB with denki.. Her mum picked up. =.=" Asked me who am i and where her daughter is working at. =.=" Lucky i'm quick to react and told her at parkway, shopping centre. =.=" Wat a big liar i am.. Lolx.. But bo bian lah, wan to get ppl's mother worried meh..? Sigh.. Then the next day spoke to Cyndi and we had a good laugh, with her mum of coz.. Her mum thot i'm her bf sia. wtf.. Then she also jialat one.. Act like one, in front of her mum.. Like asking me to bring her go see doc coz she sick.. Asking me whether wan to go visit her after work coz she's sick and will be at home.. Then ask if i'm gonna ta bao supper for her family. =.=" Then several questions shot me. Do i really look/sound like i'm interested in her? ZzZzZzZzZzZz..
In fact, i would treat almost every single gal the same way as i would treat my gal, except tat i would treat my gal much much better.. Occasionally for some close ones i will also go to the extend to give them the 'warm' needed.. And also, i shall repeat myself again though already said thousand times.. Me and Dawn are clean. There's nothing between except for the fact that we are really close last time juz like how me with celena, me with jasmine, me with carisa, me with vina, me with huiwen, me with connie, me with xuehui.
From keith, there's no best friends between a man and woman, normally it's either rejection then both become close to each other despite having no relation, purely as friends..
Every chapter had a story behind them. Anyway, there's nothing to hide. And btw, i'm not always the one who got rejected except by......... Hmmmm.. At first i did put name but i think it will not be right.. Lolx.. But ppl who are close to me can easily let me fly to their side whenever i hear sign of neccessary.. If again dawn needed someone to tok to her till daylight under her block, i would.. If any of the mentioned said that, i will be there too.. Even though i had to work for the roadshow or pcshow.. roadshows/pcshows can flop but i only have one individual unique friend that is non-replaceable..
If she wanted me to pick her up everyday 5am and send her home, i would.. Even if i were to die of exhaustion, i will grasp my last breath for her but not for my friends not even close friends..
If u really love the stars, even though i cannot get the stars but at least i would bring down the moon for u..
I once said those to someone of a 'friend'. If she still rmb abt the moon.. I believe she do, though quiet as always.. Always hiding in the back supporting me silently, till forever.. Forever i will rmb u too and silently too..
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