As per the Title state, instead of Last Dance it shld be Last Entry. Couple of reasons for such.
Conclusion:
1. It's a total waste of time. As many know, i'm a person with not much time. The time taken for me to type this blog doesn't give me a single cent. It's not becoz i'm busy earning money. Earning money is a never-ending thing and it lead a person to become a slave. Have u ever ask urself this, do u 'live to work' or 'work to live'? A lot of people do not understand this. If u 'live to work', i can only say that it is a very sad case, coz living on juz for work and nothing else. If u 'work to live', good and i'm glad BUT, does it make your life any better ever since the day u stepped into the society? I'm not toking abt those who worked for few mths, but those who worked for years. Well, i started working when i'm 12 due to my family background. Till now it had been more than a decade, i'm 24 liao but life can't seems to be getting any better. Some people told me, "Work so hard for what?" Well, earning money is never-ending and i can wait. But i dun work that hard for myself but my family, my parents. My dad is 51 and my mum is 49 this yr and my mum is still working! I'm 24 this yr and what had i given them? Even though they DID NOT grow me up until age of 18 but afterall they are my parents. Without them, there will not be any Weixing today. If i'm not the one who's gonna give them good life, who will?
2. For people to read up about a person is kind of 'no meaning'. Firstly, am i really that fierce? No right? Then? Secondly, am i really that busy until i will reject you on the face? No right? Then? Thirdly, do u really feel it's a total waste of YOUR time to meet up a friend for a chat? Well, true friends dun tok abt time. For the first one, many people knew it that i'm a very friendly person. As for now, even worst! I also dunno why i'm smiling every single day! I'm not attached, i'm not rich, i'm not bo liao! Simply becoz I want everyone to stay happy and i have to be a living example! It's that simple! For the second one, yes i'm a very very busy person who always planned ahead a week schedule. But that doesn't mean i definitely DON'T have spare time! I love chatting with friends! I will never reject a friend request, at most postpone to fit into my schedule. That time becoz of meeting Jenny, i sacrifice a bit and yet what have i got in return? There's no benefit but more troubles and yet i still dun feel that it's a wasted trip. Becoz she is a great sis and she deserved a little morale-boosting for her vision. For the third one, meeting up with anyone is NOT a waste of time at all. Be it a good person or bad person, all are human. FRIENDS CAN HAVE A LOT OF THEM, BUT THERE IS ONLY ONE YOU. Each and every single friend i will treat them as good as i can. Becoz there will never be another you in ME, be it good friend or bad friend. Oh ya, if u got time to read this, let me tell u, we can chat more than u can imagine. You can get more absolute information i never mentioned.
3. On the net, a person can type anything they want or like without commitments. Do you dare to say a person BAD POINTS straight on the face of that person? Well, i'm a person who dare anyone to tell me straight on the face and i can confidently solve all your enquiries. Only if u are dare to say it out. I'm not a person who will return u with anger BUT reasons and logics. Try me and you will know. Well, if u all can remember, i did mentioned i'm a total changed person. On the net, u can ASSUME me as any expressions. Becoz you are the one who decide MY expressions. Think about it. I don't play violent, if u wanna play i call the police. Don't dirty my shirt. My shirt is for me to earn money not to fight. Oh ya, how well do u understand about the word 'ASSUME'? A lot of ppl told me crappy answers. There's only ONE answer. That is to break it up into 3 parts. "ASSUME = ASS - U - ME" This is not intimidating. Only Jenny understand this but not entirely though. However, she will get the picture due to the story i told her abt Zouk if she can recall.
I think these 3 reasons are more than enough for me to end this blog. I will not erase nor delete this blog as it still held memories of my past and how i had changed over the time. But if Blogger wanted to shut it down then it gonna be beyond my control. Nevertheless, my tagboard will still be up and running in this blog. So, sending a small sms to ask me something is that expensive, well i dun blame u all. But as for will i be replying in tagboard, that i can't say for sure. Coz my computer might breakdown anytime and i had already wanting to cut off my internet and cabletv, coz they are total waste of money by doing all non-constructive stuffs.
Let me explain a little how i had changed.
Let me talk abt moods. A lot of ppl told me they got mood-swings. Mood-swings are very common and easy to handle. Who dare to say they are so used to downs? Many people are being controlled by their emotions, their minds. In theory, there are Body, Soul and Mind. They are all linked up. If your thinking(mind) are negatives(downs), it will lead(actions) to you throwing-tantrums(body) and it might leads to someone then he/she will quarrel(demoralise) with you(soul). Let me ask you, if u suppressed your anger(mind) and smile(actions) a bit, and someone might be sensitive(actions) enough to give you encouragements(body) so as to cool your mood(soul). You may ask, who gonna be that someone? Well, i'm a super positive person. Made an appointment with me for a chat, free conselling. =) To many of my partners, when they see me they automatically UP liao. =P
When something happened, people tend to find excuses/problems and COMPLAIN and then nothing is done to resolve. It's a common thing, at least to me. Think of something constructive can or not? Instead of thinking "why this gonna happen on me? why am i so suay? why heaven treat me like that?", these we called it 'bo liao'. What can be done leh? You can do Auto-suggestions, "This thing had happened to me, how am i gonna prevent it next time from happening?", "I'm so unlucky, or is it becoz that something is/are wrong somewhere? What is/are the something?", "Why blame the heaven or pray to heaven? Results can only be rewarding when there are efforts shown and used in the right way." So, can i say complaining and crying do not solve anything? To solve something, gotta think abt solutions not think abt problems. It's more constructive this way and this skill can be apply to all kind of things, be it relationships or works or families or friends. It is juz whether you want to or not. There's no excuse for lazy to think. We are human, not animals. We can think and do things, animals think and can do nothing. Sometimes my dog think better than me, that i dare to admit. When it's hungry it not only bark but come and disturb me and pull me to kitchen.
This is a hard-to-live world. Since it is so short, why not live it as an optimist rather than a pessimist. Life is more colourful that way. =) Now i announce that i'm a super positive person so from today onwards whoever down or blue, just make an appointment with me and recharge yourself. Don't worry, i wun charged for anything unless u want me to. Anyway, everyday i'll be at Boat Quay. So if u near there and wanna charged up before a date, give me a ring and if i'm around i can spare some time. Each and every friend deserved not only 'some time' but depends on how much time u want from me. =D But, please do not approach me for discos or drinking sessions. These are seriously waste of my time and bad for my health. I'm already in real bad condition liao, please i beg you not to get me into any worser condition. Thanks a million, i would really appreciate that.
Hmmmm... What's my condition? I'm still kicking and running! =P Ask me face to face and i will tell you how serious it is. Don't worry, i do not have AIDS/HIV! I'm clean! =P Okie that's all liao. This post is so long sia.. Made me hungry.. =.=" Think of problem again! Ok i go buy my supper now! Bye all! Whoever wanna get my contact juz drop me a msg in friendster, i'm using 3rd-degree so anyone who are 3-degree from me can msg me.
16 February, 2006
12 February, 2006
Mis-communication is the root to all mis-understanding.
Well, i'm not someone who will take other people's credit for my own. It's not my merit at all, why should i took it? What's not meant to be will never be. I do not know how you got the impression that i took his credit.
Nope u did not said anything bad nor blamed me for it when the thing happened. Well, becoz of the trust of friendship you had in me.. I did not ask him to go approach you all. When doing a market analysis, i saw you and your sis name in it. Though i felt it's kinda weird or rather paranoid, afterall it's his path and thinking. "Why did he wanting to approach u all when he himself know that what kind of situation u all are in?" "Why did he wanting to go approach u all when he himself know that he might got into more misunderstandings?" Well, i even seen people approaching people who are bankrupt! We are not typical salesman as what all people see. I ask you one thing, nowadays how do u look at insurance? Imagine 20yrs back how ppl scold and scream at insurance agents. We are like going thru the same thing as them but at a different aspect..
You mentioned you are totally disappointed in me becoz i'm the one who ask him to join me and ask him to approach u all. Well, i've got nothing to defend. Since u all think so, ok lor.. I'm a bad guy afterall. Your younger sis knows the best. You can consult her lor.. And one thing, u said u are the last he approached and u are very sad abt that. Well, when u are going to get married, would he be the 1st one u asked to come for the wedding dinner? It's two different situation with the same emotional mindset. I dunno how many would dare to. Well, i seriously wanted to help him pick up his broken walking stick but he disapoint me and gave up after a short while. I told him, no matter how successful i would be, i still failed as a friend who can't helped a friend.
Why did the 3rd deadly blow happened to you? Well, it's becoz of communication. It's not totally your fault nor my fault but equally we shared the fault. 1st thing, i'm too busy to make any appointments with you and also got rejected a few times when i said i wanted to accompany u to work so that on the way i can explain a little bit to u. Well, u know what happen. My chances are shattered becoz of u not wanting me to wakey so early. But i kept telling myself, sleep so much for what? If something constructive had to be done, do it even if have to sacrifice! 2nd thing, u are not someone who will approach me directly and ask me out. You are feeling i'm a busy person and also "tao de dong si ni bu yao". I mean, what's wrong with a busy person? Dun he have to eat? Well, if u approach me, i can even practise my planning/organising skill! Everything got 2 sided, have to look at both sides.. You forgot that i told u that when u needed me, i will be there. Even though at the mid of something i can forgo it and went to find shan. Dun u think that i will do that for u too?
The fourth blow, i mass-sms to all my friends. I dun have the power to tell everyone abt it... When i was sms-ing u, i was replying to lotsa sms as well. And at that point of time, i was hoping u would ask me out and find out more.. i know "tao de dong si ni bu yao". So, i assume i'm not important. Or maybe a little bit important lah.. People who can helped me without asking me what happened, are not those who will accompany me till i die. Coz i dun expect much outta friends. I only wanted my future generations to accompany me till i die.
Yup u had clarified your stands and situations and emotions and thoughts. I had a clearer picture now. I felt good now as at least ur logic of "tao de dong si ni bu yao" is not here when i expected nothing will happen when i wrote my previous blog. "What done cannot be undone. What's hurt cannot be unhurt." Yes i totally agree. It may be some misunderstandings or mistakes. We can learn from them but we can't change them. I'm a stupid person, since u said i dun have to apologise to u juz like wat i did for Siti, then i respect ur view. Thus, i did not even mentioned ur name. As for ur request of sending that email to anyone who deserve to know, i felt a bit chim here. Why would u wan me to forward it while u dun wan me to post it in my blog? When i received that mail, i had the thoughts of putting the whole thing in my blog de. As for who will stand up for me, it's not important at all. I dun wish anyone to stand up for me anyway. Since it's my fault, why shld friends stand up for me? No meaning and waste of time. If there are people who will stand up for me, it's good BUT definitely there will be debates and stuffs. Bo liao lah. I as go study.
When you sent me that mail, i can feel that that was the edge of our friendship. I hate to admit but i had to. I've done so many stupid things. I'm a bad guy anyway. It's not important whether am i written in the 'book-of-life' in my friends. I only know i'm writing my own story and you are in it. No matter the past, the present or the future. What's etched can never be removed. I'm not someone who is so thick-skinned and go ask u to forget abt the incident and start all over again. As for the character called Weixing, in your book. Is he gonna be there or not, i leave it to you.
A character can be important or not, it's all up to the writer. No one can says he/she is important to another person.
Well, i'm not someone who will take other people's credit for my own. It's not my merit at all, why should i took it? What's not meant to be will never be. I do not know how you got the impression that i took his credit.
Nope u did not said anything bad nor blamed me for it when the thing happened. Well, becoz of the trust of friendship you had in me.. I did not ask him to go approach you all. When doing a market analysis, i saw you and your sis name in it. Though i felt it's kinda weird or rather paranoid, afterall it's his path and thinking. "Why did he wanting to approach u all when he himself know that what kind of situation u all are in?" "Why did he wanting to go approach u all when he himself know that he might got into more misunderstandings?" Well, i even seen people approaching people who are bankrupt! We are not typical salesman as what all people see. I ask you one thing, nowadays how do u look at insurance? Imagine 20yrs back how ppl scold and scream at insurance agents. We are like going thru the same thing as them but at a different aspect..
You mentioned you are totally disappointed in me becoz i'm the one who ask him to join me and ask him to approach u all. Well, i've got nothing to defend. Since u all think so, ok lor.. I'm a bad guy afterall. Your younger sis knows the best. You can consult her lor.. And one thing, u said u are the last he approached and u are very sad abt that. Well, when u are going to get married, would he be the 1st one u asked to come for the wedding dinner? It's two different situation with the same emotional mindset. I dunno how many would dare to. Well, i seriously wanted to help him pick up his broken walking stick but he disapoint me and gave up after a short while. I told him, no matter how successful i would be, i still failed as a friend who can't helped a friend.
Why did the 3rd deadly blow happened to you? Well, it's becoz of communication. It's not totally your fault nor my fault but equally we shared the fault. 1st thing, i'm too busy to make any appointments with you and also got rejected a few times when i said i wanted to accompany u to work so that on the way i can explain a little bit to u. Well, u know what happen. My chances are shattered becoz of u not wanting me to wakey so early. But i kept telling myself, sleep so much for what? If something constructive had to be done, do it even if have to sacrifice! 2nd thing, u are not someone who will approach me directly and ask me out. You are feeling i'm a busy person and also "tao de dong si ni bu yao". I mean, what's wrong with a busy person? Dun he have to eat? Well, if u approach me, i can even practise my planning/organising skill! Everything got 2 sided, have to look at both sides.. You forgot that i told u that when u needed me, i will be there. Even though at the mid of something i can forgo it and went to find shan. Dun u think that i will do that for u too?
The fourth blow, i mass-sms to all my friends. I dun have the power to tell everyone abt it... When i was sms-ing u, i was replying to lotsa sms as well. And at that point of time, i was hoping u would ask me out and find out more.. i know "tao de dong si ni bu yao". So, i assume i'm not important. Or maybe a little bit important lah.. People who can helped me without asking me what happened, are not those who will accompany me till i die. Coz i dun expect much outta friends. I only wanted my future generations to accompany me till i die.
Yup u had clarified your stands and situations and emotions and thoughts. I had a clearer picture now. I felt good now as at least ur logic of "tao de dong si ni bu yao" is not here when i expected nothing will happen when i wrote my previous blog. "What done cannot be undone. What's hurt cannot be unhurt." Yes i totally agree. It may be some misunderstandings or mistakes. We can learn from them but we can't change them. I'm a stupid person, since u said i dun have to apologise to u juz like wat i did for Siti, then i respect ur view. Thus, i did not even mentioned ur name. As for ur request of sending that email to anyone who deserve to know, i felt a bit chim here. Why would u wan me to forward it while u dun wan me to post it in my blog? When i received that mail, i had the thoughts of putting the whole thing in my blog de. As for who will stand up for me, it's not important at all. I dun wish anyone to stand up for me anyway. Since it's my fault, why shld friends stand up for me? No meaning and waste of time. If there are people who will stand up for me, it's good BUT definitely there will be debates and stuffs. Bo liao lah. I as go study.
When you sent me that mail, i can feel that that was the edge of our friendship. I hate to admit but i had to. I've done so many stupid things. I'm a bad guy anyway. It's not important whether am i written in the 'book-of-life' in my friends. I only know i'm writing my own story and you are in it. No matter the past, the present or the future. What's etched can never be removed. I'm not someone who is so thick-skinned and go ask u to forget abt the incident and start all over again. As for the character called Weixing, in your book. Is he gonna be there or not, i leave it to you.
A character can be important or not, it's all up to the writer. No one can says he/she is important to another person.
10 February, 2006
Finally?
Well, indeed it's been a long time. So much i wanted to blog but i can't afforf the time.. Time is plenty but i dun wish to spend such time on such uncontructive things but afterall i'm a human who need to blog at times. Few things to say. Think better make it short.
Firstly is to Carisa, that time when i said i had problems and the 1st thing u thought abt is my part-time job. I'm very sad abt that. Even though it's merely a casual remark but that really pierced thru me and made me change my point of u. It's not that great of an important but still i dunno how to say. Anyway, no matter how skeptical u are towards such things, pls kindly dun spread me negatives. Remember one thing, i did not do anything bad. This thing WILL DEFINITEKY HELP PEOPLE and not harm ppl. I can give u 100% sure that no one will complain to me abt this thing. And also, i did ask anything from u for this job as i will never ask for it. To share with u all, whether if u all wanted or not, it's all up to you. No matter what, pls dun spread me negatives stuffs abt it though everything will be to vain. If u wan me to beg you not to, i will. Think abt it this way, you wun lose a piece of meat whether u say or not. So, it's not important lor. Let's do something more constructive and meaning. Thanks..
Secondly is to shan, real sad abt ur way of doing things. Thought u said u mature liao. Can think liao. Know how to think liao. Remember that time at chalet u called me when u are crying and u asked me to go fetch u? At that time i juz finished my meeting at office and was abt to go for supper with my friends. After i received ur call, i immediately told them i need to go liao and immediately took a cab. It was past midnight and also on me i do not have much cash but those doesn't concern me coz at that time ur situation is the 1st thing on my mind. However, do u remember what happened? U called me when i'm half-way there and said nevermind liao coz u are going back to the chalet and tok things out. So i LL have to ask the driver and sent me back to the place where my friends having supper at. Total cab fare was almost $30. The main thing doesn't lies on the money but the effort..
2nd time was u called me saying u got no place to go. Sick and hungry. I told u to take a cab down to SLS to find me. I was waiting and worrying and yet i got a short-and-sharp reply from u. I was so disappointed. Coz i felt the 'i dun need u liao'. Well, it was very demoralising lor.. Makes me so sian for the day wondering if u are ok. Well, i did asked u to come my place if u wanna. Not that i wan something from u but not to let others got something from u. Well, not impt lah anyway it's not me. When i learnt that i'm oredi cracking my head on how to get a proper place for u to stay. But since u dun need me as a brother. Treat it as me wasting my time lor. I dun felt it as a waste for whatever i did. Nothing is a waste unless u think so yourself.
Well, i kept emphasising that GUYS cannot be trusted 100% but no one seems to learn. I look at my mum and i still wondering why the fark she wanted to carry on living with a man whom she had to work to support him. And i also dun understand why some gals had to depend on guys lor. I said liao, i've seen gals who are merely juz passed 20 and they knew wat is the meaning of independence. Well, think abt it that u are a house-wife and at abt age of mid 30, ur husband is rich and he got other flings outside. OR ur husband is not rich but lazy and in the end u had to come out and work and support the family. Who can tell the future? Who can predict the future? No one can!! BUT u can create ur future. Ur future lies in ur own hands.
Please lah, relationship is one thing i hated most now. Coz it's the root to many destruction. Though it's essential but at this early stage it is useless and waste of time. Many guys told me that they can't live without a gf. Well, the fact is they can't live without poking a hole. Many gals told me they can live without a bf. Well, the truth is they can't live without a guy supporting them, like giving them encouragements or emotion-support or physical-support or watever. Let's tok abt singapore. I dare to say that 95% of the populations are like that. I hope i'm the 5% who are abnormal/stupid/naive/special. Well, if i really can be totally different from normal ppl, i believe one day i'll be totally different from the 95% ppl in STATUS. That's what i'm asking for now. I used all my time on more constructive things in to create a better future for me and my family. The path is tough but think abt it, what path is not tough? Well, tough times do not last, tough ppl do.
Firstly is to Carisa, that time when i said i had problems and the 1st thing u thought abt is my part-time job. I'm very sad abt that. Even though it's merely a casual remark but that really pierced thru me and made me change my point of u. It's not that great of an important but still i dunno how to say. Anyway, no matter how skeptical u are towards such things, pls kindly dun spread me negatives. Remember one thing, i did not do anything bad. This thing WILL DEFINITEKY HELP PEOPLE and not harm ppl. I can give u 100% sure that no one will complain to me abt this thing. And also, i did ask anything from u for this job as i will never ask for it. To share with u all, whether if u all wanted or not, it's all up to you. No matter what, pls dun spread me negatives stuffs abt it though everything will be to vain. If u wan me to beg you not to, i will. Think abt it this way, you wun lose a piece of meat whether u say or not. So, it's not important lor. Let's do something more constructive and meaning. Thanks..
Secondly is to shan, real sad abt ur way of doing things. Thought u said u mature liao. Can think liao. Know how to think liao. Remember that time at chalet u called me when u are crying and u asked me to go fetch u? At that time i juz finished my meeting at office and was abt to go for supper with my friends. After i received ur call, i immediately told them i need to go liao and immediately took a cab. It was past midnight and also on me i do not have much cash but those doesn't concern me coz at that time ur situation is the 1st thing on my mind. However, do u remember what happened? U called me when i'm half-way there and said nevermind liao coz u are going back to the chalet and tok things out. So i LL have to ask the driver and sent me back to the place where my friends having supper at. Total cab fare was almost $30. The main thing doesn't lies on the money but the effort..
2nd time was u called me saying u got no place to go. Sick and hungry. I told u to take a cab down to SLS to find me. I was waiting and worrying and yet i got a short-and-sharp reply from u. I was so disappointed. Coz i felt the 'i dun need u liao'. Well, it was very demoralising lor.. Makes me so sian for the day wondering if u are ok. Well, i did asked u to come my place if u wanna. Not that i wan something from u but not to let others got something from u. Well, not impt lah anyway it's not me. When i learnt that i'm oredi cracking my head on how to get a proper place for u to stay. But since u dun need me as a brother. Treat it as me wasting my time lor. I dun felt it as a waste for whatever i did. Nothing is a waste unless u think so yourself.
Well, i kept emphasising that GUYS cannot be trusted 100% but no one seems to learn. I look at my mum and i still wondering why the fark she wanted to carry on living with a man whom she had to work to support him. And i also dun understand why some gals had to depend on guys lor. I said liao, i've seen gals who are merely juz passed 20 and they knew wat is the meaning of independence. Well, think abt it that u are a house-wife and at abt age of mid 30, ur husband is rich and he got other flings outside. OR ur husband is not rich but lazy and in the end u had to come out and work and support the family. Who can tell the future? Who can predict the future? No one can!! BUT u can create ur future. Ur future lies in ur own hands.
Please lah, relationship is one thing i hated most now. Coz it's the root to many destruction. Though it's essential but at this early stage it is useless and waste of time. Many guys told me that they can't live without a gf. Well, the fact is they can't live without poking a hole. Many gals told me they can live without a bf. Well, the truth is they can't live without a guy supporting them, like giving them encouragements or emotion-support or physical-support or watever. Let's tok abt singapore. I dare to say that 95% of the populations are like that. I hope i'm the 5% who are abnormal/stupid/naive/special. Well, if i really can be totally different from normal ppl, i believe one day i'll be totally different from the 95% ppl in STATUS. That's what i'm asking for now. I used all my time on more constructive things in to create a better future for me and my family. The path is tough but think abt it, what path is not tough? Well, tough times do not last, tough ppl do.
09 January, 2006
Haiz ...
Sian.. Gals really like to test.. Test this test that. Might be a simple pyschology question. But anything can be psychology questions.. Sian.. Test for wat. What u want juz tell us lah. We men are from Mars. Others may not wan to listen or obey or agree or watever fark. But not all lor. Anyway, what's the big deal in asking? shacks. You never ask you will never have the answer. Aiya, all these gotta blame myself. I told myself i dun need any liao. Freak. Ownself find troubles. But anyway, it's not important lah.
Shan heard abt me toking abt Zuoqi. She is really power but today i saw Panyue, she lagi power.. Not her looks, not her wealth, not her body but the way she carry herself. She doesn't look like she's the same age as me. Juz like i see Victoria doesn't look like she's 18 this yr.. Sen also power, she got a heart of a man but body of a lady.. These gals are the most matured bunch i had ever seen. They are far superior than Jasmine whom i long felt she's a very matured gal..
I'm not matured enuff but who can define mature when he/she are not matured at all. I take my dad as an example. He himself can't be successful, what rights he has to say that i cannot be successful? When u wanted to say something, think real hard and thorough before you say so. I'm not saying anyone but myself. I've said many times, i'm a bad guy. Stay away from me.
Shan heard abt me toking abt Zuoqi. She is really power but today i saw Panyue, she lagi power.. Not her looks, not her wealth, not her body but the way she carry herself. She doesn't look like she's the same age as me. Juz like i see Victoria doesn't look like she's 18 this yr.. Sen also power, she got a heart of a man but body of a lady.. These gals are the most matured bunch i had ever seen. They are far superior than Jasmine whom i long felt she's a very matured gal..
I'm not matured enuff but who can define mature when he/she are not matured at all. I take my dad as an example. He himself can't be successful, what rights he has to say that i cannot be successful? When u wanted to say something, think real hard and thorough before you say so. I'm not saying anyone but myself. I've said many times, i'm a bad guy. Stay away from me.
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