Wat a busy day yest.. Early morning supposed to go see chinese doc at Bras Basah then while in the cab trying to call Dawn Tan, TP ssgt who is in-charged of my accident case. Gana fucked by her, wtf. Say i give wrong number become uncontactable, asked me if i'm really uninterested in getting the claim. =.=" It's the freaking guy in the ambulance took down wrong number lor.. Then she said she's leaving at 1pm so i have to go down to TP immediately. Went down and settle the report then continued to the chi doc. Pain! Made me smell like walking medicine. Duh!
Head back home thereafter to get my bike insurance then head to police station to fax over to Dawn's office then after that go back home and took a short nap. Woke up at 7.30pm and head to BBDC for my class 2A theory lesson. Boring lesson but it's compulsory.
After the lesson i walked all the way back to Bukit Gombat MRT. At the station upstairs, i saw a gal with blue dress, quite short above knee. That's not the point. She's chatting on her mobile and while she's talking she's used the other hand to cover her mouth.. That action, in fact overall, looks exactly like HER! She stopped at Jurong East and changed to EW-Line but dropped off at Clementi.. Knn my heart almost stopped coz i kept looking at her to confirm that it's not her.. There's no way possible that she's still in singapore at this point of time.. But on the other hand i wished it was really her.. Complicated and confused..
I was thinking, if it's really her what would i do..? Go up to her and slapped her on the face..? Or go up to her and hug her tight..? Intriguing as it can be, i can't decide.. The more u love, the more u hate. I thought all along it was juz companionship coz afterall there's no future at all from what i can see.. shrugs.
My bike is ready for collection next week onwards.. Still dunno to take or not to take.. This accident is like a Deja Vu.. I had been thinking that if i were to meet with an accident, would she abandone her work immediately and rushed to hospital to see me..? And my instinct is correct, she will not. Juz a call and that's it.. Ever since she started working there, she's totally different from before.. I'm like no longer an impt piece in her life anymore.. She knew she neglected me but can't helped it other than apologising.. I mean, if apologise do works then there's no need for police.. I juz dun understand her anymore.. Aquarius are hard to please. Ya i'm hard to please.. So, stay away from me..
31 January, 2009
29 January, 2009
Madness
The fateful day of 22nd Jan 2009, also the bday of my best buddy, i met with an accident at Keppel Road while heading for the ECP at the last traffic light.. KNN. I was on my way to Changi Road to pay my installment for my bike and this happened... What a day.
I was entering Keppel Road and was stopped by the red light. A lorry on my left so i took the right lane, both turning left.. Ended up stopping at the next traffic light again but before that i already saw two big trucks parking after the traffic lights occupying the left lane so i stopped at the rightmost lane. There was a bike beside me and another behind him. The green showed and off we go. I wasn't speeding at all coz i'm not the type who speed thus the bike on my left zoom off then me follow then the third bike behind. Seeing the front traffic light(YES THE THIRD TRAFFIC LIGHT! DAMN!) in our favor we juz carry on. Since i'm on the rightmost lane, the bushes are blocking my right side. Upon passing the traffic light, a car came on from the right directly crossed our path! There's no way i can stop in time... So i crashed on the malaysian car.. For what i remembered, the 1st bike is safe. Me and the second bike gana.
The second bike merely braked, stopped and fell. Whereas for me, i crashed and fell. No i did not fly coz my speed is slow. However, all i can do is lying on the ground groaning in pain coz my back is pain. Think i landed on my butt and sprained my bloody back. I broke a tooth also. Nothing i can do but lie down there in the middle of the road and pressing my lowerback coz the pain is unbearable as if the spine is broken.. Many ppl came and shouting were heard everywhere. There were ppl toking to me, some toking abt the whole enactment. Nothing came in except for hoping that the ambulance come quick coz the pain is sickening.. A Civil Defence Ambulance came and took me to SGH immediately to the intensive care at the A&E.
In there lying on the bed the pain was truely unbearable and still cannot get the doc to see me. Knn still have to queue? >.< Tried to move a bit here and there but i found myself the more i move the more painful it gets. Finally the doc came and gave me an injection from behind trying to ease me of some pain.. Well, the needle was painful too. =.=" Wat to do, no pain no gain.. Went for X-ray for my spinal and pelvis. Waited like no tml for the freaking results. The pain doesn't goes off. Even i wanna go pee also difficult.. They offered me a wheelchair but i told them i cannot sit.. Limp all the way to the wrong gents then limp all the way to the other gents.. Freak day.. Results are out and doc said all's well, nothing broken. Hearing him saying so casually, i dun wanna stay in hospital despite the pain to walk.. Drag myself, my bag and my helmet to the cashier then head for a taxi home. CB.. That was the longest and toughest road i ever have had.
Reached home still gana KPKB. CB why i crashed onto the car and not the car crashed me? If he crashed me then there will be lesser nonsenses liao mah. Took the doc's given pain-killers and had two days MC. Tried going to work on the 3rd day but i was rather in bad shape to work.. Cannot stand long and walking damn slow like ah peh.. Thus, ended up going home early.. Anyway, no sales..
Before the accident i even went Genting with brandon, Joan, Jessie, Johnny, TT Tan. 1st trip there and the temperature is superb, cold. =.=" Though only like 16-18 degree but i was always purring like a kitten. =.=" Really cannot stand coldness but shiok, not the slightest sweat at all. We took a night bus there, 7hrs, 2 stopping breaks and arrived at Highland Hotel at around 5am+.. Unable to check in at all coz only can check in at 12.30pm. WTF. Whole night din slp much then no place to slp.. =.= Went directly to the casino coz that's the only 24/7. =.=" TT, Jess and Johnny straight go for the jackpot. The rest of us juz stare in blank.. Hungry, sleepy, tired.. =.=" Finally when we go further into the casino, there's a mini restaurant! Immediately Brandon, Joan and me went in for a bite. Ham, egg, bread, butter, jam, peas, coffee. The breakfast sux big time. =.= The coffee and tea are ultra sweet. wtf. U call this cafe? I think drink plain water better..
After the meal, we head on to find Jess and TT at the baracat tables. They are playing 'Player & Banker' game. The 3 of us who dun gamble juz watch how ppl play, some win some lose.. I also dunno wat i'm seeing coz too tired.. To keep myself awake, kept beo-ing gals.. Wow a lot of MICs... Lolx.. Quite a lot of C-cups and D-cups too.. lolx.. Nothing better to do. =.= Stood there, walk here and there for around 4hrs then i finally give up. I brought rm450 there but spent rm50 at the 1st stopping point for food and cigarettes and drinks. So, i took out a $100 note and change for some chips. I was thinking 100 can play for 4 games coz per bet minimal is 25. But the lady gave me two $50 chip. =.=" Lazy to change again. Thus, juz try my luck for 2 games.. From 100 become 500 then after that go up and down and up and down and up and down until i tulan. Neverending game. =.=" Thus, when i'm left with 500, i'm tired. I was thinking since my cost price is 100 so why not i juz bet everything in? At most i lose 100 nia mah. Ok bet and i won 500. Total chips 1000 and i stopped and went to cash out. WTF 20 pieces of $50 notes. =.= My Gucci wallet cannot be use liao.. Lolx.. So in the end, my pocket had 1.3k.
Later noon, all of us go check in our room then go for lunch around 1pm. Everyone is tired.. Went for Dim Sum. Ok lah the food. Advice from Cheryl, Do Not Eat At The Foodcourt! It's Dirty & Not Nice! Lolx.. Jess, brandon and Joan went back to their room to slp. Johnny and TT carry on their battle.. Me wanted to go walk walk coz i nv come genting before.. All here and there, nothing much leh.. Somemore weather outside so cold, wan to smoke also sian.. Nothing much there coz i dunno can go down many many many many escalators and will reach a super big place like a shopping paradise. =.=" Tired to walk also thus head back to my room. I share room with brandon while his wife share with jess. Brandon still wan to put either me or johnny same room as jess de. Lolx.. Not funny. =.= Though i dun really mind lah. Lolx.. Aiyo the room is for resting de lah nothing else. Gamble more impt..
When i was at my room door, i slotted in my card key. Red Light. =.=" Did i went to the wrong room? I rmb it was 26 ah 6th floor.. o.O Tried on 28, 30, 22, 36, 38. All cannot open.. Called Brandon, his fone cannot get thru. Wtf i'm locked out.. Called jessie, cannot get thru. =.= Lan lan go back casino to pass time. At that time i was extremely tired liao.. I only rmb i kept taking out money.. At the end of the day i think i lost everything i earned. Lolx... Then gave up and went to the lobby starbucks for a nice smoothing coffee. Dopod was unable to connect to internet. =.=" Smoked like chimney and drank my coffee then after tried my luck again to go back to my room around 6pm+. The cardkey still cannot work.. =.= Then suddenly saw brandon coming over from the lift side eating ice-cream leisurely.. Oh my hero.. Finally i can get some sleep.. Fell onto the bed and knocked out almost immediately.. Woke up around 8pm+ for dinner.. Still tired..
Met up with the gang and go to the chinese restaurant for some good food. Knn really went all the way down hill via escators. Lolx.. After our food, went for bowling there nearby. I sux at bowl coz really super long time no play liao. Kept washing the drains.. Lolx.. After that we went to another casino nearby. Again they continue their battle. I'm scared liao so i play jackpot with cigarettes in my mouth lolx.. So unglam.. A guy approached me and asked me to sign up for membership, i ignored him.. Mins later a gal approached me for the same thing. Then i told her i'm singaporean. She said can also juz need my passport so she will filled up for me while i carry on my jackpot.. Then after that signature then proceed to the counter to get my cards. Took photo also. Gotten two cards, one for slots and the other for tables. When i'm done, the gang is gone nowhere to be found lol.... Searched the whole casino up and down inside to outside. Nothing.. =.=" I was abandoned.. They muz be thinking i'm such a gambling freak and abandoned me.. =.=" Walked here and there trying to find my way back to highland. Took abt an hr+ then i reached.. In the end, jess & TT & johnny did came back juz to take money to continue battle.. =.=" Unable to tahan, took a quick bath then go sleep.. Actually seems energetic so i took out my psp to play.. Actually wanted to ask brandon if he wanna drink de but seeing him watch tv until eyes closed. I off the lights and knock out. Wat a long and tiring day.
Next day, went for breakfast then go back to casino again. Remaining around 200+ only. Juz wanna try my luck to win something but in the end lost everything.. Lolx.. Thinking that this is merely the second day and i was penniless.. Went to ATM and withdraw 400 from my credit card but not for gamble. After drawing went back to room to relax. Then took my laptop and went to starbucks with brandon while waiting for the two ladies to join us after their bath. After that went for dinner for western food then TT suggest going to VIP room. One amazing thing i did at the restaurant, i put salt into my coffee. LMAO! Anyway i cannot go into the VIP room with the white card. So, played jackpot and earn 1 point then proceed to change to green card. After that head on to the VIP area. Brandon and joan went back to their room coz they dun gamble at all.. VIP is scary coz everyone played so big.. Min 300 per bet. But shiok lah got waiter and waitress bring ginseng water for us.. Sat down at one table while johnny and jess played baracat, TT went around trying his luck. Me stand there like an idiot trying to enjoy the fun. Min 300 leh i only got 400, isn't this courting death? =.=" After a while i also cannot tahan so changed all 400 into chips.. But i dun play much juz on and off each round. Kept breaking even. It's all abt patience. Cannot keep playing de.. Sometimes muz endure.. lolx.. Suddenly i spotted something new.. Can place bet on 'TIE GAME' and the payout is 8times. Learnt something new. Then also got 'Player Pair' & 'Bank Pair', payout is 11times! O.O Looking at the scoreboard and the bets on the table. I put a 50 chip on the tie and i won 400. Then put again 50 on tie and i won again 400. In two games i won 800. =.= Started to spot here and there and trying out the pairs too. At the end of the session, won abt 1000. Think got total rm1500 in my pocket.. lolx..
At nite, went with brandon and joan to pub for a little drink and pool. Had a Long Island Tea and a bottle of beer. Quite tipsy liao lolx.. Then we head back to sleep. Next day was the last day had to check out 12.30pm and gather at 1.30pm then head to bus terminal for bus back home. Morning went for breakfast dim sum again then went back casino to play again. Again i keep spotting TIE and jess was quite stunned and amused by that.. Lolx.. Actually i dunno how to play de.. Juz that got feeling only then juz put in for the TIE lor.. Lose 50 only but win is 400 + the 50 back. Ok mah... But gambling is like that lah.. Not everyday is sunday.. Somemore TIE are hard to come by coz the possiblities are so small. Out of 60 games, maybe 8 or even less.. Some tables dun even have tie game at all.. It's all abt luck.. Then they called me TIE BOY. Wtf.. Is this for good or bad lol.. At the end of the day total money in pocket around rm2200. Actually had 3k+ but lost some of it due to greedy wanting to place 100 on tie and yet none of the 100 opened tie.. haha..
Ok lah overall quite a new experience and nice too. ^^ Will consider going again if got ppl jio lor.. If not i can booked myself also.. lolx.. But i'm not so daring lah.. Haha.. Sorry for such long post.. Type until my back start to ache also.. >.< Time to sleep liao..
I was entering Keppel Road and was stopped by the red light. A lorry on my left so i took the right lane, both turning left.. Ended up stopping at the next traffic light again but before that i already saw two big trucks parking after the traffic lights occupying the left lane so i stopped at the rightmost lane. There was a bike beside me and another behind him. The green showed and off we go. I wasn't speeding at all coz i'm not the type who speed thus the bike on my left zoom off then me follow then the third bike behind. Seeing the front traffic light(YES THE THIRD TRAFFIC LIGHT! DAMN!) in our favor we juz carry on. Since i'm on the rightmost lane, the bushes are blocking my right side. Upon passing the traffic light, a car came on from the right directly crossed our path! There's no way i can stop in time... So i crashed on the malaysian car.. For what i remembered, the 1st bike is safe. Me and the second bike gana.
The second bike merely braked, stopped and fell. Whereas for me, i crashed and fell. No i did not fly coz my speed is slow. However, all i can do is lying on the ground groaning in pain coz my back is pain. Think i landed on my butt and sprained my bloody back. I broke a tooth also. Nothing i can do but lie down there in the middle of the road and pressing my lowerback coz the pain is unbearable as if the spine is broken.. Many ppl came and shouting were heard everywhere. There were ppl toking to me, some toking abt the whole enactment. Nothing came in except for hoping that the ambulance come quick coz the pain is sickening.. A Civil Defence Ambulance came and took me to SGH immediately to the intensive care at the A&E.
In there lying on the bed the pain was truely unbearable and still cannot get the doc to see me. Knn still have to queue? >.< Tried to move a bit here and there but i found myself the more i move the more painful it gets. Finally the doc came and gave me an injection from behind trying to ease me of some pain.. Well, the needle was painful too. =.=" Wat to do, no pain no gain.. Went for X-ray for my spinal and pelvis. Waited like no tml for the freaking results. The pain doesn't goes off. Even i wanna go pee also difficult.. They offered me a wheelchair but i told them i cannot sit.. Limp all the way to the wrong gents then limp all the way to the other gents.. Freak day.. Results are out and doc said all's well, nothing broken. Hearing him saying so casually, i dun wanna stay in hospital despite the pain to walk.. Drag myself, my bag and my helmet to the cashier then head for a taxi home. CB.. That was the longest and toughest road i ever have had.
Reached home still gana KPKB. CB why i crashed onto the car and not the car crashed me? If he crashed me then there will be lesser nonsenses liao mah. Took the doc's given pain-killers and had two days MC. Tried going to work on the 3rd day but i was rather in bad shape to work.. Cannot stand long and walking damn slow like ah peh.. Thus, ended up going home early.. Anyway, no sales..
Before the accident i even went Genting with brandon, Joan, Jessie, Johnny, TT Tan. 1st trip there and the temperature is superb, cold. =.=" Though only like 16-18 degree but i was always purring like a kitten. =.=" Really cannot stand coldness but shiok, not the slightest sweat at all. We took a night bus there, 7hrs, 2 stopping breaks and arrived at Highland Hotel at around 5am+.. Unable to check in at all coz only can check in at 12.30pm. WTF. Whole night din slp much then no place to slp.. =.= Went directly to the casino coz that's the only 24/7. =.=" TT, Jess and Johnny straight go for the jackpot. The rest of us juz stare in blank.. Hungry, sleepy, tired.. =.=" Finally when we go further into the casino, there's a mini restaurant! Immediately Brandon, Joan and me went in for a bite. Ham, egg, bread, butter, jam, peas, coffee. The breakfast sux big time. =.= The coffee and tea are ultra sweet. wtf. U call this cafe? I think drink plain water better..
After the meal, we head on to find Jess and TT at the baracat tables. They are playing 'Player & Banker' game. The 3 of us who dun gamble juz watch how ppl play, some win some lose.. I also dunno wat i'm seeing coz too tired.. To keep myself awake, kept beo-ing gals.. Wow a lot of MICs... Lolx.. Quite a lot of C-cups and D-cups too.. lolx.. Nothing better to do. =.= Stood there, walk here and there for around 4hrs then i finally give up. I brought rm450 there but spent rm50 at the 1st stopping point for food and cigarettes and drinks. So, i took out a $100 note and change for some chips. I was thinking 100 can play for 4 games coz per bet minimal is 25. But the lady gave me two $50 chip. =.=" Lazy to change again. Thus, juz try my luck for 2 games.. From 100 become 500 then after that go up and down and up and down and up and down until i tulan. Neverending game. =.=" Thus, when i'm left with 500, i'm tired. I was thinking since my cost price is 100 so why not i juz bet everything in? At most i lose 100 nia mah. Ok bet and i won 500. Total chips 1000 and i stopped and went to cash out. WTF 20 pieces of $50 notes. =.= My Gucci wallet cannot be use liao.. Lolx.. So in the end, my pocket had 1.3k.
Later noon, all of us go check in our room then go for lunch around 1pm. Everyone is tired.. Went for Dim Sum. Ok lah the food. Advice from Cheryl, Do Not Eat At The Foodcourt! It's Dirty & Not Nice! Lolx.. Jess, brandon and Joan went back to their room to slp. Johnny and TT carry on their battle.. Me wanted to go walk walk coz i nv come genting before.. All here and there, nothing much leh.. Somemore weather outside so cold, wan to smoke also sian.. Nothing much there coz i dunno can go down many many many many escalators and will reach a super big place like a shopping paradise. =.=" Tired to walk also thus head back to my room. I share room with brandon while his wife share with jess. Brandon still wan to put either me or johnny same room as jess de. Lolx.. Not funny. =.= Though i dun really mind lah. Lolx.. Aiyo the room is for resting de lah nothing else. Gamble more impt..
When i was at my room door, i slotted in my card key. Red Light. =.=" Did i went to the wrong room? I rmb it was 26 ah 6th floor.. o.O Tried on 28, 30, 22, 36, 38. All cannot open.. Called Brandon, his fone cannot get thru. Wtf i'm locked out.. Called jessie, cannot get thru. =.= Lan lan go back casino to pass time. At that time i was extremely tired liao.. I only rmb i kept taking out money.. At the end of the day i think i lost everything i earned. Lolx... Then gave up and went to the lobby starbucks for a nice smoothing coffee. Dopod was unable to connect to internet. =.=" Smoked like chimney and drank my coffee then after tried my luck again to go back to my room around 6pm+. The cardkey still cannot work.. =.= Then suddenly saw brandon coming over from the lift side eating ice-cream leisurely.. Oh my hero.. Finally i can get some sleep.. Fell onto the bed and knocked out almost immediately.. Woke up around 8pm+ for dinner.. Still tired..
Met up with the gang and go to the chinese restaurant for some good food. Knn really went all the way down hill via escators. Lolx.. After our food, went for bowling there nearby. I sux at bowl coz really super long time no play liao. Kept washing the drains.. Lolx.. After that we went to another casino nearby. Again they continue their battle. I'm scared liao so i play jackpot with cigarettes in my mouth lolx.. So unglam.. A guy approached me and asked me to sign up for membership, i ignored him.. Mins later a gal approached me for the same thing. Then i told her i'm singaporean. She said can also juz need my passport so she will filled up for me while i carry on my jackpot.. Then after that signature then proceed to the counter to get my cards. Took photo also. Gotten two cards, one for slots and the other for tables. When i'm done, the gang is gone nowhere to be found lol.... Searched the whole casino up and down inside to outside. Nothing.. =.=" I was abandoned.. They muz be thinking i'm such a gambling freak and abandoned me.. =.=" Walked here and there trying to find my way back to highland. Took abt an hr+ then i reached.. In the end, jess & TT & johnny did came back juz to take money to continue battle.. =.=" Unable to tahan, took a quick bath then go sleep.. Actually seems energetic so i took out my psp to play.. Actually wanted to ask brandon if he wanna drink de but seeing him watch tv until eyes closed. I off the lights and knock out. Wat a long and tiring day.
Next day, went for breakfast then go back to casino again. Remaining around 200+ only. Juz wanna try my luck to win something but in the end lost everything.. Lolx.. Thinking that this is merely the second day and i was penniless.. Went to ATM and withdraw 400 from my credit card but not for gamble. After drawing went back to room to relax. Then took my laptop and went to starbucks with brandon while waiting for the two ladies to join us after their bath. After that went for dinner for western food then TT suggest going to VIP room. One amazing thing i did at the restaurant, i put salt into my coffee. LMAO! Anyway i cannot go into the VIP room with the white card. So, played jackpot and earn 1 point then proceed to change to green card. After that head on to the VIP area. Brandon and joan went back to their room coz they dun gamble at all.. VIP is scary coz everyone played so big.. Min 300 per bet. But shiok lah got waiter and waitress bring ginseng water for us.. Sat down at one table while johnny and jess played baracat, TT went around trying his luck. Me stand there like an idiot trying to enjoy the fun. Min 300 leh i only got 400, isn't this courting death? =.=" After a while i also cannot tahan so changed all 400 into chips.. But i dun play much juz on and off each round. Kept breaking even. It's all abt patience. Cannot keep playing de.. Sometimes muz endure.. lolx.. Suddenly i spotted something new.. Can place bet on 'TIE GAME' and the payout is 8times. Learnt something new. Then also got 'Player Pair' & 'Bank Pair', payout is 11times! O.O Looking at the scoreboard and the bets on the table. I put a 50 chip on the tie and i won 400. Then put again 50 on tie and i won again 400. In two games i won 800. =.= Started to spot here and there and trying out the pairs too. At the end of the session, won abt 1000. Think got total rm1500 in my pocket.. lolx..
At nite, went with brandon and joan to pub for a little drink and pool. Had a Long Island Tea and a bottle of beer. Quite tipsy liao lolx.. Then we head back to sleep. Next day was the last day had to check out 12.30pm and gather at 1.30pm then head to bus terminal for bus back home. Morning went for breakfast dim sum again then went back casino to play again. Again i keep spotting TIE and jess was quite stunned and amused by that.. Lolx.. Actually i dunno how to play de.. Juz that got feeling only then juz put in for the TIE lor.. Lose 50 only but win is 400 + the 50 back. Ok mah... But gambling is like that lah.. Not everyday is sunday.. Somemore TIE are hard to come by coz the possiblities are so small. Out of 60 games, maybe 8 or even less.. Some tables dun even have tie game at all.. It's all abt luck.. Then they called me TIE BOY. Wtf.. Is this for good or bad lol.. At the end of the day total money in pocket around rm2200. Actually had 3k+ but lost some of it due to greedy wanting to place 100 on tie and yet none of the 100 opened tie.. haha..
Ok lah overall quite a new experience and nice too. ^^ Will consider going again if got ppl jio lor.. If not i can booked myself also.. lolx.. But i'm not so daring lah.. Haha.. Sorry for such long post.. Type until my back start to ache also.. >.< Time to sleep liao..
16 January, 2009
Surprise
Hormone linked to infidelity
Women with high levels of a key sex hormone may be more inclined to cheat on their partners.
When tumbled upon yahoo mail saw this.. Wtf. =.= I said wtf is not becoz of anything but becoz of my ex. Was it for good or was it for bad? Confused. Coz current is the opposite. Does it mean i had wronged her? No idea.. Nor do i wanted sleepless nites.. God save me...
Juz passed my pract 2 yest nite.. Shiok.. Confident level came back liao.. Last pract + theory and i can go for my TP in feb liao...
Women with high levels of a key sex hormone may be more inclined to cheat on their partners.
When tumbled upon yahoo mail saw this.. Wtf. =.= I said wtf is not becoz of anything but becoz of my ex. Was it for good or was it for bad? Confused. Coz current is the opposite. Does it mean i had wronged her? No idea.. Nor do i wanted sleepless nites.. God save me...
Juz passed my pract 2 yest nite.. Shiok.. Confident level came back liao.. Last pract + theory and i can go for my TP in feb liao...
14 January, 2009
Emo-ing..
Been stuffy lately but got shuo bu chu lai de tong ku.. Damn sian... Actually been wanting to go drinking alone yet scared to go coz if going to drink i believe there will be like as the last, no end in gulping the VSOP.. Unstoppable till whole mind gone wild.. Yet, dun really wanna pull anyone go also.. Even though that would means at least someone there if i were to total lost control.. I juz dun wanna trouble anyone.. I'm that introvert sometimes.. Even rejected a few sessions from friends lately.. Rather indulged myself into my Cabal. In a world of my own..
Maybe i will be making my move first.. Silent killing is my tactic. I dun like noisy breakups.
Never liked nightlife gals. Never. Thus, i will not consider any gals who are working nightlife..
Going genting this sat night liao and still haven't prepare my stuffs. Haven't go change money also.. Haven't go change money for my mum to bao ang pow also.. Haven't go renew my insurance and road tax.. Haven't go cut hair.. Haven't go tidy up area at home.. Haven't buy cny stuffs for my granny also.. Haven't end my torment...
Think not going Taiwan for the time being.. Business is bad and economy is bad.. Best to keep for raining days.. Haiz.. I need to breathe.. Maybe i shld change my number already.. Life sux..
It's a routine. Same all over again and again. But enough is never enough. That's not all, the future had no lights for the path. Time for a new route.. Anyway, routine is just a routine.. Can be adapt to when time comes.. Every chapter of life starts and ends. These are all part and parcel of life..
It's time to venture out of the circle liao.. Seeking new chapters in life. But the first thing will be personal life not involving anyone else.. =)
Maybe i will be making my move first.. Silent killing is my tactic. I dun like noisy breakups.
Never liked nightlife gals. Never. Thus, i will not consider any gals who are working nightlife..
Going genting this sat night liao and still haven't prepare my stuffs. Haven't go change money also.. Haven't go change money for my mum to bao ang pow also.. Haven't go renew my insurance and road tax.. Haven't go cut hair.. Haven't go tidy up area at home.. Haven't buy cny stuffs for my granny also.. Haven't end my torment...
Think not going Taiwan for the time being.. Business is bad and economy is bad.. Best to keep for raining days.. Haiz.. I need to breathe.. Maybe i shld change my number already.. Life sux..
It's a routine. Same all over again and again. But enough is never enough. That's not all, the future had no lights for the path. Time for a new route.. Anyway, routine is just a routine.. Can be adapt to when time comes.. Every chapter of life starts and ends. These are all part and parcel of life..
It's time to venture out of the circle liao.. Seeking new chapters in life. But the first thing will be personal life not involving anyone else.. =)
04 January, 2009
Drunken me..
Damn sh!t!! Juz came back from QB bar.. Damn high liao.. Knn juz now outside whiskey smoking and finally that gal came out liao.. Did exchanged a few words liao lor.. Ccb my heart beat damn fast.. Dunno it's becoz of the liq or the gal.. Hardly can breathe.. So close almost leaning against one another liao.. Wtf.. In fact saw them a few times liao. Find that they are quite ok but kept going whiskey whereas we at QB.. She said juz now, "Wah u frequent here hor..?" And i got no reaction.. Not really that lah.. Actually another guy came out for smoke and knew her de.. Then they are playing 'wu gui wu gui tiao'. Wtf.. =.= Then as time goes i really cannot tahan liao coz the kick is coming in.. Therefore i made a move leaving my bro and friends there.. As well as the gal.. Knn haven't take number lor.. >.< Got mood liao yet like that.. Cb.. Dunno i down so many glasses for wat fuck.. Cb.. Not as if i'm really emo or wat. Kao.. VSOP somemore.. Once it's hard liq, i hardly can control myself it's seems.. But when it's really kicking in hard then i will be making myself scram liao.. If not i really can't stop and will knock out and not juz vomit.. That's y i always say i cannot vomit coz once i do, that's it for me.. Super duper fugly. There goes my chance... Sigh.. Anyway, she did mentioned she's also frequent Whiskey.. Time will tell..
Heart prob is always the case for letting a person emo.. Wtf.. Drinking is not the only solution leh.. Somehow even though i knew the logic but today i really cannot stop.. Izzit becoz of chionging the drink or i juz wanna let it down.. I let of signs of letting go and yet the response is good.. Damn the mind games, rick! =.= Even though attached but still not letting it be a secret.. Wat kind of game is this.. Like wat karman says, huh not even a together photo..? Yeah... Jian bu de guang.. Some things are beyond control.. Wat's meant to be will be, wat's not to be will not be.. But i still believe there's something out there for me.. I always dun like initiative.. Coz if i do, that's faking.. That's y when that gal tok to me, i was extremely excited though high liao.. Sigh.. Now say wat also no use liao..
Why dun u let her go? Why dun u juz let go since she already said she cannot make a decision? Is her husband more impt or u more impt? Well, even she herself cannot make up her freaking mind lor and yet why the hell are u still clinging to her when u jolly well know that there's not much hope since her husband is making a counter attack? Wtf. Go and die lah. It's not the fucking and it's juz a new begining and yet u are so hard-headed abt her. Knn. Not as if she's super good in bed or super good as a gf ah.. This kind of gal scared cannot find meh? Sigh!! Piff!! Dunno when u can wake up ur fucking ideas! Cb coming to 27 liao lor not 17 leh!! Even though she chose her husband she got nothing to lose lor and yet u gonna lose not only ur time but ur heart too!! WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Heart prob is always the case for letting a person emo.. Wtf.. Drinking is not the only solution leh.. Somehow even though i knew the logic but today i really cannot stop.. Izzit becoz of chionging the drink or i juz wanna let it down.. I let of signs of letting go and yet the response is good.. Damn the mind games, rick! =.= Even though attached but still not letting it be a secret.. Wat kind of game is this.. Like wat karman says, huh not even a together photo..? Yeah... Jian bu de guang.. Some things are beyond control.. Wat's meant to be will be, wat's not to be will not be.. But i still believe there's something out there for me.. I always dun like initiative.. Coz if i do, that's faking.. That's y when that gal tok to me, i was extremely excited though high liao.. Sigh.. Now say wat also no use liao..
Why dun u let her go? Why dun u juz let go since she already said she cannot make a decision? Is her husband more impt or u more impt? Well, even she herself cannot make up her freaking mind lor and yet why the hell are u still clinging to her when u jolly well know that there's not much hope since her husband is making a counter attack? Wtf. Go and die lah. It's not the fucking and it's juz a new begining and yet u are so hard-headed abt her. Knn. Not as if she's super good in bed or super good as a gf ah.. This kind of gal scared cannot find meh? Sigh!! Piff!! Dunno when u can wake up ur fucking ideas! Cb coming to 27 liao lor not 17 leh!! Even though she chose her husband she got nothing to lose lor and yet u gonna lose not only ur time but ur heart too!! WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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