It's been so long..

Actually i'm not that busy at all.. Juz dun have the urge to post.. Lolx.. Too many things to handle le bah... My hands are too full.. Fark.. Ownself find troubles. =.=" Gals will only spelt troubles.. Even though she din do anything wrong to me but she caused me to miss already..

Wtf.. Suddenly feel like time is so short.. Only if the time would stop forever at that moment she lie on my leg in my car.. Drunk, sleepy, tired and crying... Juz kept saying she hate singapore and she dun like singapore men... =.=" Nothing i can do but a shoulder to lean on, a companionship to accompany her and stay by her silently.. Kiss her to make her feel that it's not all men are like that, maybe i'm juz the exceptional abnormal one who gives and never ask for a return.. =.="

Sh!t man the oysters do work miracles. Knn. But i got my self-control lor.. Damn.

Life's a mess. Dunno what to do anymore.. Seems so tired.. 1yr and 6mths more to go.. Probably very soon bah will settle down already.. Haiz... She dun wanna come back singapore anymore le.. Will be her 1st time in sg and also her last time, she said.. Thus most probably will fly over in oct bah.. She's older than me. O.o Now then i realised.. Wtf..

Seems anyone younger no longer attracts the true me other than the wolf-eyed me if she wear scandalously... Tat's bad.. Duh, who cares... Dawn kept saying me, "Dun keep acting as if u care lor.." Well, maybe at times i do maybe at times i dun... I can't rmb the real feeling liao.. Too many fakes plus truths leads to ultimate confusion..

I juz want my new home.. Damn.

This coming mth is so full of schedules and packed until that i feel that i cannot breathe.. This wk roadshow at cwp from mon-sat then sun go genting liao till wed then thurs go pcshow at comex till sun then mon report camp at jurong till 13days later then most prob thailand trip thereafter.. Felt exhausted.. Were these really the life i wanted? Thot all along i juz wan a simple life like wakey liao go work then homed after work then slp then repeat.. No movies, no clubbings, no pubbings, no poolings, no ktv-ings, no spinnings, no companionships, no friends.. Duh.. Maybe the joining of IR is indeed the job for me.. Shift works plus no hp allowed, cut away everything, take away my life..

Here in sg is really a hectic world to live in.. No wonder my teerak dun like sg..

This sept pay jialat liao somemore got reservist.. Haiz... Sianz..

Weird

Sometimes juz dun understand how things work. =.= Maybe diff perspectives bah..

"Why do u want to set up ur own biz?"
"Well, interest is there mah.. Who dun wanna be own boss?"
"Do u know that u need to have a yr's capital to ensure everything running smooth, WITHOUT PROFITS?"
"Ah?"
"Do u know that the 1st 5yrs of biz is juz like a hobby with no spectacular earnings?"
"Hmmm..."
"So u still wan to go ahead?"
"Maybe not...."

That's so weak!! So damn freaking weak!! All in the mind is money, money and money. =.= Well, it's all juz like gambling, either u win or u lose. Anyway, if u are not ready to even commit and kept thinking on how to get money, the lesser money u will get.. What u focus will expand. Focusing on how poor u are, the more poorer u will get. Focusing on how bad u are, the worse u get.. Timeline and targets are more impt. Someone driving a BMW Z4 once told me, "The more u chase money, the more likely u wun get it. Instead, let money chase u. Do things right and do the right things."

Enuff of rambling of biz. Knn my phone got prob! Major prob that sms and calls not coming in. Then batt not charging!! =.= Trying to restore it back despite late for work... lolx....

Sianz.. Been bored with life lately.. Nothing much interesting except for an exceptional siam bu.. =.= But nothing much also coz she's going back soon for good, saying dun like singapore due to those guys that she saw, except for me lah of coz.. Hohoho.. But anyway, no future de lah, somemore not really gonna advancing somemore even though there's absolutely nothing going on between us.

Maybe getting an OPC instead of a normal plate. I rather have the extra cash every month and spend it on branded. LOLX! Quite big diff lor and anyway night is my life not day..

Word

How come that word juz spurred out from her? o.O She got read my blog de? O.o Thot all in her mind are juz the two, angel and devil. =.="

Been not drinking lately despite going down to BQ almost daily.. =.=" It's good and healthy.. Alcohol is evil!! =x Tml morning gotta wakey early to give that charbo a morning call.. Hope she did cried enuff liao bah.. Knn all gals think that all guys are craps while i still think all gals as gf are craps. Maybe i'm really a crab... Duh.. Anyway, dun really care much since not close at all.. She and dawn may be somehow getting closer but well, maybe juz for the time being bah.. Shed for wat sia... Waste water only.. Haiz..

Still lost..

Some things i juz simply dun understand no matter how.. I juz dun get it how i look at it.. Izzit really already dead..? I dun get it.. Coz it still hurts! Looking at her contact number aimlessly and mindlessly.. Call or not? Msg or not? See or not? Damn.. It's juz so messy.. I envy how everyone had a life buoy, something to hang on to, at least something till he/she reaches the shore... I know, there are some for me but i juz wan to be left alone.. Juz me myself and i.. I dun need anything nor anybody despite i really need it.. Can still drink sing play laugh smile like as if nothing happens.. Can even accompany ppl who were falling down one after another.. Juz trying to make sure everyone around me stands up but me.. Exhausting myself to the extreme as if me myself is not impt at all.. Well, maybe i'm juz fan jian.. Afterall, it's me myself and i who will walk the very path till the end of time.. Friends come and go like traffic, some stay for a while and some juz pass by.. Doesn't even care who is that michelle who born in 1985 still studying, though slight interest is there.. Info are all from gred. None of my business, as usual.. I believe the so-called 'walls' are so tough so high up and never to be crumble for anyone.. Thus, i'm 'complicated'. No point knowing too much of me, coz really no point.. Can't help much anyway.. Even when hit-on, i'll still smile my way thru.. How fake.. Damn weixing.. Damn rick.. Damn nemo.. Afterall, it's still me myself and i.. Shag.. Tired.. Exhausted.. Still got 1yr 7mths more to go.....