Hate is the best thing.

To you, every guys you mentioned "married". Got fucked means married i supposed. Big Fat Whore. Or maybe "Little Slut" will suit you well. I wonder why SHE abandons you that time despite ur explanation and calling her a bitch. I wonder who is the actually bitch calling another a bitch. I still prefer the 4-letter-word, SLUT.

Damn.
Period.

The Ghost of You

The ghost of you. Yeah, it never went away.. Never. I was on the bridge the other day. Thoughts came to me asking me, "What will u do if u were to see her at that very moment..?" Well, nothing. I played ur game, I paid the price, game over, full stop. 1st time in my life that I hate someone so badly other than my own dad. Sin can be forgiven by god but not me coz i'm not a god. I'm me, myself and I.

What's so intrigue abt waves? Why do these ppl get so fascinated by natural waves.. =.= The color is so natural. Yes, that's why it's my fave color ever since the 1st time I did it.. I fell in love easily and easily contented.. The smell is so nice.. Of coz lah, it's the Asience conditioner that attracts me to the unique and alluring smell.. Zzzzz.. I dun need those unwanted attentions. =.=

Don't u know that I used to proclaim guardian? Lolx.. I know I bhb lah but it's a fact.. That shows u know nuts abt me. =P Anyway, it's a small issue not even worth a mention. =) Take it easy, lady. And ur health is my concern.. I'm really worried abt you.. Take good care..

Damn fatigue. If without fatigue I might have done it.. Shitty helloads of fatigue. Darn.. So tired.. Been grinding this whole week.. The end is drawing near, I can see the light already.. It's really not a dream.. I need to Gambatte!!

Saw Xueying this morning. She and her sleepy look with an urgency to rush for the train to work. Afterall she still looks great. =) Everyone's busy with their own stuffs, busy with their life.. I wonder how's everyone else.. And I miss schooling at SP.. =/

Rest is for conditioning one to move on further.. How true.. I'm so tired.. Not that I want to hug u but I seriously needed someone for me to rest on.. I did mentioned, gals are the essential remedy/ingredients that I needed.. Juz like Dawn. That time she already broke up with her bf and was at JS. When I go see her, she was so happy that she gave me a big hug. Hugging is an action to show that one is happy/overjoy. On the other hand, that relieves some of my stress. Amazingly gals had such smoothing effects on me.. =) Anyway, need to catch some slp now though it's only 7pm.. This wk-end still gotta work..

Some think holding on is strong, sometimes it's letting go...

A phrase that i miss. Hopefully thursday u gonna make it. =.= U are the one who always whine abt us not meeting often and yet dunno who is love-drunken and being trapped in the love-web.. Bleahz. Life jacket doesn't really uses its function at times, or rather most of the time..? Maybe it's sinking itself already, maybe it had drift away to god-knows-where.. =X Where's our red wine session?!?!?!?!?!

Wee.. Finally i'm halfway there liao.. It can no longer be a dream. Nor am i gonna be giving up again.. =) The day is near.. I can't wait!!!

Lagging

7-Sept

Sweet-nothings dun work on me. I'm so sorry. =.= I'm unlike those who easily got 'clamped' by 'abalone'. I can eat abalone and pay the price, but not get clamped. Dream on, honey. =)

Come on. All of us are out to have a little fun. Why get so serious abt it? These gals are easily gotten and it's not challenging at all. Sian lor. Anyway, u dun have to boast around how good you are. The world is vast and the challenge is great. What u see as a great deed/achievement is merely peanuts. I'm not what u saw as before. Well, u know it urself, jollywell u knew it. Juz that u cannot take it. Well, too bad lor.

The world is turning dark once again. I felt disgusted once again. It's an ugly world afterall. Or shall I say Ugly Singaporeans. Haiz..

I dun have anymore pillar-support.. Nor am I anyone else pillar-support.. Even though the world is gone i'm still me, myself and I.. Well, I dun need nobody... No one gets my meaning I guess. Forget it.. Maybe i'm juz a little emotional after getting a little tipsy.. Felt outside the train, it's raining but actually it's not.

8-Sept

Too shag to post yesterday.. Lolx.. =P

Flirting around is fun. Yes I agree. This 60-yr-old uncle suddenly struck the question and pulled me to attention and pondering..

"Bringing out another is fun lah. Can go walk walk, can go shop shop, can go see see, can go sleep sleep. My children are big liao, imagine were to see them on the street while u are holding another woman."

Fooling around seems dangerous and unethical at certain stage of life.. From the above quote from an old man, I wonder your offspring will look at u. Be it a guy or a gal(well, it's a fair world. Who dare says all gals dun cheat. If u defend that, u are juz being naïve.), the same thing applies.

9-Sept

I'm back on Granado Espada. =.= I can live without gals but I cannot live without game/work.. Lolx.. Thus, yest been training Catherine the Summoner till I forgot to blog.. Lolx... Yes, i'm such a devotee.. =P Only if there's a chance for me to be like that in r/s.. Haha..

That time went Batam and found one perfume that smells real nice... I forgot it's CK or Hugo.. There's two versions and one of it caught my attention when I tested it.. But it's too cheap liao.. $50 only for the big bottle one... Well, I prefer Quality to Price. Afterall, i'm a QC Inspector. =P Haven't really go shopping yet.. =( Need to go hunt for that perfume.. It's been a long time since I last seek a perfume.. I rmb the 1st one I sought after is Polo Sport, then Swiss Army(the old version which already no longer in production), then Hugo Dark Blue, then Davidoff Cool Water.. Those that I liked but din get are Tommy(yellow & white box), Aqua(think it's Elements but now I dun like that due to some reasons), Eternity(pretty old brand by CK) & Kenzo(i forgot which series). I'm fusy over smells.. =.=

Chocolates..

I guess the shopping on 15^th is cancelled.. Lolx.. See how lah, coz I had bought a Cardigan for her as a bday present.. Today is rotting at home sia.. Still deciding whether to go out to see the pc show or not.. Very crowded leh.. Somemore tml will be long day for me.. After work still got motor practical lesson.. Finally starting subject 4.01 liao.. ^^ Took me two mths sia.. ZZZZZZZ.. Still got 4.02, 5.01, 5.02, 6, 7, 8 then can take TP. Hopefully I’m able to rush for the 29^th OCT test then I will have my veh liao.. After that I can go take my class 3 leh. Hehe..

I’m damn weird de lah.. Many told me straight go take class 3 and yet I told them I wanted my bike 1^st before taking class 3.. Not that I can’t get a car but I’m too lazy to go take the lessons.. Though it’s similar to that I’m taking class 2B, I dun have the drive leh.. Haha.. I hate taking something and give up halfway..

Yest’s massage is indeed shiok. =D Though legs a bit pain after that but walk and shop a bit, then the pain is gone. A pity there dun have sauna or Jacuzzi.. The Bali massage requires applying the Olive oil on body and leaving without bathing makes me uneasy.. =.= But ok lah, the massage was not bad. It’s addicting lol.. Yx said we are sadist, paying money for pain… LOLX.. Well, it’s to relax and enjoy.. =P

When I said about doing bad things, u see me as a bad guy but that idea on ur mind u felt that was fine. You are older than me doesn’t me u are better than me. Fuck you understand. You are juz being childish so dun act big. Let me see how u gonna fall as I speculated. Confirm I will see u in despair and desperation while I will be laughing my ass off seeing that happen. Yes I’m evil. I’m evil IF I NEVER GAVE U ANY ADVICES AND WARNINGS. Pls DO NOT wake up ur fucking ideas and DO drop into hell. I can’t wait to see and enjoy!! JUZ DO IT!! COME ON!! SHOW ME!! Duh. Dun waste my time pulling u.

Juz gotten what my sis wanted. Haha.. But seems she’s not satisfied yet.. Zzzzzz… She must be jealous of the Cardigan.. =.= Aiyo, ppl’s bday mah.. Haha.. U requested something and u got it. She did not request anything and she got it. Well, fair lah.. =P

The days are going fast, the days are going slow.. The time machine seems funny.. For good, for bad, I do not know.. Nor do I care.. Are the day numbered or is the end still far..? Yest nite on the boat I can see many stars in the sky with the blowing wind as the boat sets.. The smoke from the boat spoil the atmosphere.. =.=

“When I thought I found you, I’ve lost you entirely..” That’s life. Nothing is perfect. When you thought that u had finally got it, but least u know it, u are losing it.. Reality is cruelty but still life goes on coz the earth still spinning whether u like it or not.. There’s no turning back nor waiting.. Even though the whole world falls on u, there’s still me. Since I’m what u wanted me to be, I will be. =)

A broken mirror cannot be fixed anymore, no matter how u glued it up and put it back in one piece, u will still see ‘multi images’.

A broken glass cannot be fixed anymore, no matter how u glued it up and put it back in one piece, u will still see ‘crack lines’.

A broken heart cannot be fixed anymore, no matter how u glued it up and put it back in one piece, u will still see ‘wounds’.

Life’s sux, but life’s beautiful. Cannot have the best of both worlds, so enjoying the process is still the best way to live life. Do cherish before it’s gone, do cherish before it ends, do cherish before life ends. To live with light or to live with darkness, the choice is self, no one else.