Haiz.. Life is so full of ups and downs.. Bad times, good times, happy times, sad time, etc. Sometimes really dun understand life.. Y can it be so unfair..? Maybe i'm rite abt life.. We are borned to suffer in this world even though there's good times.. Sad of all, many good-life do not know wat's good for them.. Taking everything for granted.. Sigh..

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I've got a friend, X. Her family background is messy. As messy as mine but mine is much more jialat.. In her family are her parents and one elder brother and they live in a One-Room HDB Flat. She is 16 this yr and her bro i'm not sure but i know he is still studying, in a poly i think. She had quitted sch early this yr. Few factors detected.. 1stly, her mum is not working and she is not being normal. Pardon me for saying this but she told me that herself. Her dad is working though but i dunno as wat.. The father have to support the family with a peanut-pay. Everyday is trying to make ends meet. Her brother is studying with like not much concern as everything is covered.. No need to worry abt pocket-money, no need to worry abt sch fees, etc. X is sick of studying due to peer pressure.. Ancient ppl always think that for gals, they do not need to study much. Afterall, they got married off and live off their hubbies.. But in SG, it's diff.. Unless the guy is super rich. Any Average guy wun be able to support the high living standards.. Now, X quitted her sch to help out with the family burden.. Well, several things happened at these time.. X has to pay for the house utilities and give her parents a bit of money.. Despite that, her brother used the internet vigorously.. Well, that account was under her name.. So, she of coz have to pay for that.. Recently she lost her handphone and she did not manage to cut it off before the usage shot up.. The bill came and shows $500+.. To make things worst, her brother treated her very badly.. wat had she done to deserve such fate..? Now who can tell me?

When i knew her, she had got a bf and her bf is in DB(detention barrack). While she is staying at her bf's place with his parents.. Every mth, she would give his parents $100 for her staying or watsoever.. She doesn't like to go home due to those factors.. Even if it's me, i would do the same.. Now she had broken off with that bf and is with another. Same thing, she lives with him.. For any bad guys out will definitely seize the opportunity and advantage.. Well, all guys think alike. Maybe i'm wrong but 80% i'm right. Who got anything to say? Well, taking advantages of others misery to increase self happiness is something i hate. Coz this is wat i've been thru since i started work.. Ok i do not wish to talk abt my life. It may be nothing wrong for her but i juz can't stand it. I would always do wat i can to help her in the best of my ability.. However, my power is limited..

At 1st i was thinking of getting her a place to stay. At least she wun resort to find a guy to live with him in order to stay away from home.. Erica rent a room and she was paying abt $200 every mth for tat.. Tat was 25% of her monthly pay.. But she still can survive.. However, her character is diff from X. X is more demure and soft-spoken than Erica. As i had mention, Erica can slap me on the face for nothing. If u ask X to do the same to me, i dun think she would. Unless she is Very angry.. An introvert.. =.= So, this idea is also very dangerous.. 2nd idea, with some help, shld be able to rent a Ond-Room Flat for her but the procedure can be tedious and my side cannot help me at all.. Some more, who the hell will dare to rent a place in his/her name and let others stay..? =.= 3rd idea is hostel.. In SG, there are getting more and more FT(Foreign Talent) coming into SG. Some would rent a place to stay while some will go to hostel to stay.. Nearby my place had a new hostel set up.. But i dunno whether would she want.. But anyway, it will be extremely hard to contact her nowadays.. I can't possibly call her bf's place to look for her.. =.= Sigh..

Went to watch HITCH yesterday nite. It was quite a good show.. Lucky still manage to catch it before it is lifted.. Quite a good plot and story.. Few things realised after watching.. IE, a gal will not be attracted or will not notice an ugly guy if there's no created opportunities.. People only look at the pretty side. People is often blind by pretty stuffs. It's human nature. No one is to be blamed.. Ugly ppl do not wish to be born ugly. Well, it's their fate.. If ppl can't accept, so be it but dun discriminate.. It's bad. If really wanna say, juz say it in a joking matter.. Like wat i always used to suan ppl.. No hard feelings after bad words being spilled.. But still dun go too far, there's always a limit in everything..

I've got quite a few stuffs to blog.. But somehow after going thru wat Xuehui is going thru, my mind is in a blank and forgotten wat am i supposed to blog.. Feeling real tired now due to lack of sleep due to going clubbing yesterday and this morning still have to work... I go turn on my music player... Jay's songs.. =.= But ok lah.. Not too bad now..

Yesterday met up with Erica and i was late.. Got screamed off my head when i reach.. Her friend and her had been waiting for me for abt 20min. =P Oh, wat's her friend's name? *scratch head* Erm.. I dunno.. =.= Erica din intro and i din ask.. haha.. Afterall, i am a shy person. =P Her friend looks quite cute. Height abt 155+, weight abt 45+, long silky hair slight coloured in brown/gold, jeans with black spaghetti-stripe, slightly glossy small lips, natural-polish nails and decent-looking. When i was asked by Erica to guess how old is she, i reply 15.. lol.. Meant to be a joke, my actual guess was around 26. Wrong. She was 29. Well, she looks young, i mean her look. ^^ She was juz like another Sharon(Ruyou's friend). Look almost the same, as in the way they wear and walk. A bit ah lian but not exact. A bit Anti-social looking but friendly. When Erica and her were cracking some joke when we are on our way walking to Parklane, their laughters are scary.. haha.. Juz like some 'siao char bo'.. haha.. =P Sad to say, though she is abit scary but much better than Erica. At least i feel that i wun get slapped on the face for nothing. =.= Ya, Erica slapped me on the face that day at Devil's Bar for nothing.. Basically she's abit tipsy and down.. Oh my, it's been a long time since i last got slapped on the face.. That was abt 10 yrs ago when i misbehaved..

Me and Erica intend to go Plaza Singapura to catch a show at abt 9pm+.. We wanna watch Miss Congeniality 2 but somehow din managed to get the tickets.. =.= Then we went back to the lan shop at Parklane then after that decided to go Music Underground. Erica's friend's friend is working at there and we can have free entry.. Haha.. When we reach there i saw my two friends.. 1st time seeing these 2 husband and wife go clubbing.. Haha.. The music there damn sian lor.. PLaying 90's techno.. Super turn-off.. =.= But got quite a few gals with nice looking moves.. And a few pretty gals.. Overall, boredom. If i knew i rather go Devils.. sigh.. Then got slapped again. and this time i'm pissed. A pity i dun beat gals. darn. But anyway, to prevent any further conflicts, i better not stay so close to her from now onwards.. If i really cannot stand it anymore i scared i might do something against my will..

Rarely i see good gals being single.. =.= Some normal gals that i came across have showed me how good they can be.. Haiz.. But anyway, not that i really care.. heh.. =P Anyway i need to go get some slp liao.. tired..

For Xuehui if she were to see..

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Well, i told ya. i can't juz regard any1 as my close friend. Somemore we aren't really that close anymore.. =P Likewise, am i your close friend? Have you ask urself this? =D But anyway, i'm really a bad guy.

"When you are born, u cried while the world rejoiced. When you died, u smile while the world cried.."

I'm really that sure whether am i that kind of person or izzit the other way round. It no longer matters to me. I've been bad for the past 23 yrs. Some seen me as bad, some seen me as good. Bad guys dun live long. But most of the bad guys i seen live real long. One classic example is my dad. This i have not mentioned in my blog and i WILL NOT mentioned in my blog..

U dunno much abt my background. I also dunno how or shld i ever said these. There's only one phrase to describe..
"When he's born, he cried and the world rejoiced. When he died, he cried and the rejoiced".
Sad to say. 95% of the ppl who know him think this way.

Shutting myself up to ponder all these? No way, i rather get myself drunk and feel the headaches than to think abt it. My case is too complicated. Sometimes i would rather end my sufferings than to live with the sufferings but i'm not yet to give up. I've got 7 more yrs if possible. Hopefully less than that.

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I mention this not to gain any sympathy nor pity. I dun need any. Any who give it me, get ready to face some unsightful. I'm strict abt this. =)

Enuff liao. I'm deadbeat from work.. =.= gonna go eat then go enjoy liao. BB

Though xuehui's blog is using 'comments' instead of 'tagboard', it's still not enuff for me to reply.. lolx..

For Xuehui,
"'pretty much give up' but not 'totally given up'. As for that, it's enuff. I dun mean i stand a chance or wat coz it doesn't matter to me anymore. I AM not myself. Things changed, people changed, streets changed, buildings changed, government changed, even my dog changed.. Anyway, most impt is i accepted myself as a human, and behave like one. =) Me and James same? More or less lah, towards u. haha. Well, he recommand u to me, of coz i knew he had such a good friend to intro me so i muz treasured. However, guess maybe u are rite. U nid not protection. Afterall u had ended ur teens. U are a young adult who can think well wat's best for ya. Ya u are not my good friend but juz a friend. I got higher demand for a friend rather than gf. Whether has the rite one came along, i'm not sure abt that due to my ignorance. Dun really care that much. I wan to play juz play, wan to go out juz go out. There's no need for me to do any commitments. As for smoking and drinking, i'm sorry. I can't do anything abt it. And i HAD given up on giving up on those. My dreadful leisures. I can't live without them. Though i can, but i choose not to. I dun wish to change and i dun wish to be forced to change. I'm being forced to grow up like this in this cruel world. I've faecd the music. Pulling my ears is nothing. Celena can even bite me off when i dun listen to her. Well, even if i got a super pretty and caring gal there for me wanting me to quit, i would still rather quit the relationship than to waste anymore of one another's time. Life is short. Anyway, i give myself another 7yrs. I tied my fate to age of 30. That's why whether is smoking or drinking killing me or not, makes no diff. I will feel more happy if they were to take me away earlier to end my sufferings in this cruel world.. Dun worry too much abt me nor urself. Thinking too much is bad for health. I rather spent the time enjoying watever whenever whoever however i can. =)"

Too tired to do anything nowadays.. I found that i used to love shopping in the early days.. Always go Bras Basah with Jinlun to buy stationaries.. haha.. Now i kinda enjoy going shopping for new clothes.. =.= Seriously damaging my wallet though.. Luckily i dun have a credit card yet.. *phew* Yesterday juz bought a short sleeve shirt and a long sleeve shirt from Orchard Zara.. Short sleeve cost $75 and Long sleeve cost $60.. Then still go to Wisma G2000 to get another short sleeve shirt which Celena recommand and i also find it nice. This one not so bad.. $40+ i think.. Cel has got quite a good taste.. Good price for a nice shirt.. Maybe i shld ask her more offen for shopping.. As for this peanut-pay job i'm working, i've spent a lot...
Estimated:
Shoes - $60
Pants - Pending
Belt - $20+
Shirts - $48 + $42 + $75 + $60
Total = $300

More yet to come... I need abt 3 more tailor-made pants from Queensway which estimated to abt $30~$40 each.. And i need roughly abt 10 more shirts.. Well, i only have 3 shirts at home regardless of those i bought recently... One of them is over-sized even for now, another is too small too tight-fitting, another one is my fave my Benhur long sleeve gray shirt.. That one i still wearing but not for work i guess.. Coz too short, diff to tucked in.. =.=" Sigh.. Think nx mth's pay gonna throw them into buying shirts.. Seriously broke but ok lah.. Less clubbing shld do the trick.. Heh..

Oh ya forgot something.. Did i mention i really mind wat Xuehui's thoughts are? Hmm.. Got these from her blog..
"Top 10 things i dislike abt guys:
1.not keeping their promises
2.not calling when they say they would
3.smokers/drinkers..
4.flirts..
5.guys with a honeyed tongue..
6.guys who think they are god's gift to women
7.guys who take us for granted
8.guys who think we haf no life but to wait for them to 'summon' us
9.guys who like to play games with our hearts..expect us to noe wat they are thinkin..(sorrie but we dun mind read..)
10.guys who r not serious in relationships/unfaithful..
11.last, but not least, pple who lie to mi.."

Hmmm.. I got things to say according to the tops..
1.not keeping their promises. - Well, this is pretty common.. To err is human.. To err too much is no excuses..

2.not calling when they say they would. I'm like kinda like that sometimes.. Coz whenever i reach home i'm glued to my monitor.. Haha..

3.smokers/drinkers.. - Talking abt me? =P Dislike but dun hate. If hated, u would have ignored me long ago.. I dun consider this as an offenced though.. =P

4.flirts.. - Hmm.. Flirting is bad for relationships. Nothing to say abt this. I hate it when my gf flirts too.

5.guys with a honeyed tongue.. - Not all guys can 'honeyed' any gals. And not all guys who 'honeyed' are bad..I can 'honeyed' my friends to make them happy but not to bed them. It's totally two diff thingy. =)

6.guys who think they are god's gift to women - God my ass.

7.guys who take us for granted - Definitely. Anyone who takes anyone for granted are out to have his arse kicked. I've always being taken granted for. But well, this is a cruel world. Dun forget. =)

8.guys who think we haf no life but to wait for them to 'summon' us - Well well, if ppl love to 'summon', get a maid. It's easier to get her being 'summoned'.

9.guys who like to play games with our hearts..expect us to noe wat they are thinkin..(sorrie but we dun mind read..) - Well, if really that easy to know wat we are thinking, then do u know wat's 4D for Sat?

10.guys who r not serious in relationships/unfaithful.. - Talking abt me? =( Well, i'm NOT not serious but not too serious. I'm here to please not to get serious. And i'll still stay true. Juz like my xiaomao(ingame gf).. She is not around most of the time but i din fool around. =)

11.last, but not least, pple who lie to mi.." - Everybody do lie. Ppl who say they dun are hypocrites. Lying depends on which kind. For good or for bad. Of coz 'for bad' will ought to get condemn..


Phew.. Finally finished.. Haha.. Can go back to my game liao.. Hope to see someone in there but not too hopeful though. In that case i can get 10 times more happier if she's around and i wun get TOO disappointed if she is not around. =)

I'm always very particular abt xuehui's thinkings.. Coz she is a very innocent gal. I really dunno why i find her innocent. I juz feel that way. Not that i've liked her but that she give me the feeling of wanting to protect her or something. Her point of view of love is totally different from all my friends. As in ALL my friends.

Whoever that guy had been treating her bad now tells me that wat i used to do to Karen was wrong. And i had realised it long ago. It was bad.. Real bad.. That time after i had realised it, i've closed my door and not to open it. But due to circumstances, the door was opened(all thanks to Celena). I realised wat really friends are for, regardless of genders. I used to think that guys and guys can be friends. guys and gals only relationships. Even though guys and gals can be friends, wun be that close. hahaha.. Now i've got 2 very close guys who are my best friends and 2 very close gals who are my best friends. For guys are definitely my 10-yrs friends, yuxiang and jinlun. For gals are Celena and Jasmine.

Ever since i finish army, i've got a few encounters. I've got a few gals friends who wanna be with me. One of them is so persistance who can direct ask me those questions.. And ask me every nites.. This is something to sweat abt.. It's not abt the looks, the wealth, the time, the location, or watsoever. I juz dun wan to get into a relationship. It's that easy. Well, these gals make me realise how it can be if someone were to push themselves to u. So, i've decided not to court any gals in such a harsh way if the day were to come for me to really falls for a gal.. =)

My special thoughts, "It's easy to find someone who love u, it's easier to love someone, it's almost impossible to find someone who love u and u love that someone". This thought makes me 'shui bian'. But still not 'fan jian'. =P Hahaha.. But anyway, i doesn't think of these so offen coz i dun really need one to survive. I hate it when ppl keep asking me to find a gf. It's all becoz they do not know my mindset in getting a gf.. watever for..? =.= Love can be sweet, love can be bitter. It's such a weird thing. I rather take it easy than to getting hurt if i'm in too deep. I've got a gf now. But it's ingame only. Although virtual but i'm fine. Not that serious but i'm still treating her good. Afterall it's juz a companionship. =)

Need to go work liao.. Haiz...

Oh man.. Now then i know shopping spree is not an easy job.. Lolx.. Though not much stuffs but also quite a damage to me who juz started working.. >_<

My hairdye from Loreal


My Mousse from Loreal


Clean and Clear Facial Wash


Plasters from Watson for my foot..


My new Full Cream Milk Powder..

Actually there are more but i din mention.. Hair-spray from Gatsby, hair-cut from Q-Cut, Polynesian Noni C-Plex from Nature's Gate(Facial cream), Cigarettes box,Pearl Drops toothpaste from Watson, new shirt from G2000, new leather shoes from watever, new leather belt from Giordano, etc.. I'm super duper broke.. and i've yet to buy finish all my essential needs for work.. =.= Tml will be meeting Celena go Orchard. Let's see how's her taste.. Hehe..

Xuehui read my blog and written on her blog wat's on her mind.. For a gal like her, guess it's pretty normal for her to react this way.. Anyway, i'm no longer thinking so much on such.. More on my work. As for leisure, all i can think of are clubbing and cigarettes.. Cigarettes are luxury items.. Clubbings are destressing habits.. Love is no longer an item for me. Have or not, makes no diff to me.. I've got good friends who are there for me when i'm down, i dun need a gf. I've got friends who are there to go out with me, i dun need a gf. I've got friends who have fun with me, i dun need a gf. =) But if really given one, i also dun mind. Coz have or dun have, makes no diff to me. ^_^ i can be 'shui bian' but still i'm not 'fan jian'. Of coz, i will still choose and not letting anyone who pounce at me will get me pinned.. Heh..

Nite everyone, i'm going back to my virtual world. =P

I'm officially being hired as a Sales Executive by my ex-boss.. Yesterday is the 1st day of work and today is the 2nd day... However, tml is then the day. My virgin try-out as a Sales Executive.. How am i different from before? Last time i'm working in a retail shop as a salesman. People will come to me to buy things and also ask for consult. Whereas now i have to go out and find people to buy my stuffs.. Selling selling and selling. Looks pretty easy eh..? Yup, it's that simple.

Think twice. Wat i'm doing now is totally different from the past. Last time i juz sell and get payment upon purchase.. Now is that, i have to sell the stuffs and press for payments.. Selling the products is piece of cake coz those products are wat i used to sell in my last retail shop.. I know my products inside out. Usage, specification, technical support, reliability, etc. Main thing is payments. We will be giving either 7days or 14days term to dealers out there. That means i will sell and deliver the products and collect the money for buying my products after 7days or 14days.. Some ppl love to drag payments.. Due to reasons and stuffs lah.. This can't be helped.. This is life.. Wat to do.. Haiz.. But anyway, i've got my own target to reach.. I've to hit my goal in sales.. My pay now is peanuts.. Pathetic.. Cannot make it..

For a O-Level cert, of coz i wun expect much. However, i'm still expect more than that.. Even if he dun wan me, there are still few shops out there who wanted to hire me.. But anyway, due to gratitude, i need to help my boss to get him up and running.. I will do my best to give it all i can to help me though salary isn't high.. For the time being, i guess..

Today meeting up with carisa, yuxiang's gf. I wanted to get something for her as a present but really dunno wat to get for her.. And yet she kept saying dun need.. Haiz.. So, i say i bring her go shopping and if she sees wat she like and the price is reasonable i can buy for her as a bday present.. Anyway, this is my bday present for her.. Lol.. And i also need to buy new clothings for work.. I can no longer wear T-shirt and Jeans to work anymore.. I need to be more presentable.. Aiya, ma fan lah.. But anyway, for the company, i have to dig my own pockets and get those new clothings.. For work, for my future as well..

Think my best friend, yuxiang, is thinking that we two are up to no good.. Insecurity is the main problem bah.. I myself also worry abt this.. Sigh.. I better not go disturb the two of them though i am pretty worry.. I really dun wish yx to think me as a third-party and quarrel with carisa.. >_< i think i better less go chiong with the gals.. More and more misunderstandings will be revealling if i carry on like that.. Like that i will be having one lesser chiong group liao.. Anyway, it's fine lah.. Next mth Jason's gf will be going back home to stay.. Hehehe.. He will be going chiong with me of coz.. Go clubbing with him is the best and most fun..

I've got quite a few friends who dunno why going clubbing can be so fun.. I can explain a bit.. There are several types of ppl out there..
Main types are those who go and sees pretty gals or handsome guys and mainly courtship..
Some go there for drinks and sight-seeing..
Some go there to drink, dance and enjoy the music..
Some go there juz becoz they got nothing to do, so gather some friends for chat and drinks..

Since i was born till the begining of last year, i dun like to go such places.. Or i shld say i hate these places.. Too smokey which makes my eyes very painful. Too many ppl which makes walking, dancing difficult.. Too loud the music makes my ears hurt.. Too much drinks make my head spinned till it hurt a lot..

However, ever since i enter the previous company and finished my NS, i can take these more easily.. I'm used to the smoke and my eyes wun hurt anymore.. I can still dance and walk though it's too cramp.. Music is not a problem coz i need more bass to enjoy the nice music.. My ears are oredi used to the loudness so these considered normal liao.. I need enuff alcohol to make my head spin a bit and my whole body to relax then i can dance.. lolx.. Anyway, go clubbing is indeed a fun thing. It all depends the music and company. If going out with shy ppl, it of coz wun be fun.. Btw, i used to be a VERY shy ppl to those whom i do not know VERY well.. But once i got a little gin in my head and some music, i can get well with basically anyone. heh..

K lah, need to stop liao.. Tml still need energy to go work.. Nite everyone..

Finally it's over.. The darn 4 days pc show at Suntec! I hate shows even though we are not the one who own the booth. Coz we still have to be labours.. But that is not an issue. The main issue is the amount paid out to me. I'm so damn fed-up.

Before the show starts, me and jason(my ex-colleague) were asked to choose. Whether do we want $70/day pay or 60%/40% share of profits.. The thing is this. We being partners with that guy(the guy who book the booth) as he is selling casings whereas we bring in harddisks and writers to do the combo hit to end-users. As a package, things can sell for the better rather than selling individual products. So, he gave us a choose. IE, if the profit made for him is $1000 then me and jason will get $200 ea. While daily pay we ea will get $280 by the end of the show.. The products can get us at least 7% margin per sale except for the products we bring in. As the products we bring in are for bundle, so the price have to be damn cheap in order to goes well with his products. Our product margin is abt 1%-2% only. On the 1st day, sales was so farking bad. Our cash sales book reflects that we only made $80 profit. If were to continue till the last day, we ea will only get ($80 x 4 = $320 / 2 = $160). Jason was demoralising. Coz we have had accepted the deal of 60%/40% profit split and we 2 get 40%. He is so unpaitence and reluctant abt making that choice.. I did mentioned, if things goes well, the pay can be damn good, otherwise peanuts will be paid to us. It is a gamble, and he say anything. Now he's complaining.. on the 1st day.. I was calm but due to his complaining and reasoning, i was fine to suit watever he wanted to tell that guy.

He was too rush. He complain to that guy that with this kind of sales, me and him will not be paid enuff. So, he requested that we go back our words and choose daily pay instead. Otherwise, juz pay us for the 1st day pay and we fark off. There are still a few booths whom we knew wanted to pull us in to help them anyway. If we two were to go, that guy is gonna be in deep shit. Coz he know nuts abt the bundle and his knowledge is not powerful enuff to handle the explainations and processes. In such short time given, there's absolutely no way he can find another 2 replacement. Therefore, he is like being threatened. That's jason's idea. Before jason said that i told him that things can be improved. I've oredi got my floor-plan and ideas of how to handle and get more sales for the next few days and i believe we can make it. Nothing is impossible, it's juz the effort to try and the risk to take. Risk as in IF we were to not able to get good profits, we 2 are gonna eat grass. Dun 4get that the 2 of us had been retrenched and we are not working at the moment.. So, basically any jobs can be our rice bowl for the time being. But jason think otherwise that if were to carry this kind of sales for the next few days, it's not worth our effort to work. Even though it's juz slacking off, he say he rather spend the time at home playing game.

After work that day, my whole had been thinking real hard and considering all factors that have been the cause for the day's bad sales.. With that kind of margin, it's impossible not to hit the minimal target.. Somemore with my plans and ideas, we can maybe make at least $300 ea.. Then jason called me when he reach home and told me that that guy was complaining to him that we are making things too difficult for him.. And we are like 'playing bastards'.. And jason was damn angry when he heard that. He wanted to tell him that 'Fark lah, juz 4get abt our pay and we dun need to go anymore from tml onwards'.. I was like huh? nothing wat.. He is telling the fact.. Watever on my mind is that, we keep our words and face the music. 'Yi ren zhuo shi yi ren dang'. We shld be man of honour and shld keep our promises.. So i told jason abt my thinking and asked for that guy's contact and tell him we carry on the 60%/40% deal also meant to keep our words. But jason say reluctantly and say that really wan meh..? Then he say 'anything' in a reluctant tone and say that we shld tell him tml instead of now.. haiz.. Given my character, i will not tell anything when i'm not in the mood the next day.. Haiz, in the end i really din say anything to him.. Today is the last day of the show and this morning we calculated that our side had made a total profit of close to $3000.. If include today's sales might shoot up to a total of maybe $5000.. Imagine how $200 profit can turn in $3000 profit in 2 days only... OMFG.. And in the end we are paid daily. So, how to say that i cannot get fed-up with jason.. It's all becoz of his hot-headed temper and unwillingness to take risk.. Imagine if we got $4000 profit, we will be getting $1600 which is $800 ea for 4 days!!! and now we are gotten merely $280!! Different of $520 leh!!! FARK!!!!! Haiz suan le..

During these few days of pc show, the booth adjacent of us have 2 gals.. hehe.. One taller and one normal height.. Both also normal looking only. Not chio not ugly not pretty not cute. But the one with normal height seems quite ok to me coz i notice her kept taking glances at me. lolx.. Not my skin thick ah.. Really.. And juz now she wanted to get my number.. Haiz.. Not in the mood for relationship but companionship is fine with me.. However, i think better not.. Scarli machiam that gal who work at Sim Lim Sq who woo me that one.. *Sweat* Though this gal looks more decent. Much more decent than most of my friends.. Haha.. But really not at the moment for such.. I need more time for my works and stuffs.. My online gaming had oredi took up a lot of my time... If i were to get a gf, i will have to give up my game(as well as my online gf) and readjust my schedule and plan to cope with my life.. As u know, gals like companion.. If i were to ignore or forgo most of it, i dun think it will work out well.. Somemore i'm jobless now. Going out will mean spending more... haiz.. Women will only invite more problem than joy.. At least that's wat i think.. However, there are some i wun mind but those are impossible.. coz i rather have them as my friends. heh.. Oh ya.. Next show is at September. If fated to see that gal again, i might give her a chance. lol.. I mean 'might' lah.. See how lor.. =P I'm tired liao. nite all..

Dunno wat am i doing for the past few days.. Ever since i'm no longer working, i'm like changed into another person again.. This month and next mth life might be quite tough for me.. I haven't plan on how to get it over my crisis.. Too many things in the little brain of mine and too little time to think them all thru.. Well, i've forgot wat i've done for the past few days.. That's quite ususual of me.. But more or less at least a bit of images lah..

Ok, ever since my last post, i feel a bit weird abt that someone. Think she read my post already. Coz, i noticed something. She no longer called or msg me(since that day, which is abt 7 days liao) and when in game or msn, she never call me even if she sees me. Dunno if that's a good sign for me or not. I'm juz feeling weird inside me.. But anyway, time will reveal everything.. I'm not saying she's hindering me in any way, juz make it clear wat the hell i'm thinking. I dun mind ppl taking advantages of me but not too much.. Sigh..

Yesterday was a bad day. =.= Went to meet up with yx they all go Chill Room at Boat Quay. It's a ktv pub. As u know i dun sing. I dun quite like such places.. Think they juz want me to go see Joanne while they enjoy their singings. Before going there, one of my new friend ask me go Chinablack. She say her friend not free and she's alone. Somemore she's a chiongster so she wanted to go even though if she goes alone.. However, i've oredi promised yx they all that i'm going to meet them.. So, i go there and ask if they wanna go or not.. I was going there with a reluctant heart.. Whenever i dun like a thing, i dun like to be force to like. Example is vegi. I dun like to eat vegi but ppl kept asking me to eat. Well, it's not as if i will die if i dun eat. Same goes for yest situation. Even if i'm not there with yx they all also nvm de ah.. sigh.. I reach there liao and asked them if they wanted to go but seems no one is interested and somemore yx is wearing slippers.. But when they know that i'm not staying long, they dun wan to let me leave.. One of them still confiscate my cigarettes and hp.. When she took them i was like a bit uneasy liao.. But anyway, entertain them a bit lor, so i went on and ordered a jur of drink. Then no one is drinking except me. So that is to say, i ordered 1 jur for myself. =.=" then later, i tried to snatch back my hp and cigarettes from my friend. At that moment i was stepping on the edge of the high-chair. Never expect her to stop me coz i know she is juz playing and will not get too far. Little would i know that she indeed stopped me and i lost balance.. The high chair was tilted and the floor was smooth. So, backward i fell down with 2 high-chairs.. My spine & right arm was hit against the chair's edge.. My ripcage was hurt too but i duno how.. When i was back to my seat, i felt that the whole of my right hand is numb.. And my back ache.. And i can't laugh hard coz my chest pain.. Well, fun eh? Last time i met an accident in a rover wasn't that bad though the whole vehichle fell on its side with trememdous force.. Dun think i got any prob.. Some bruises on my arm and my back only. Now still pain lah but not as bad as before.. Anyway, i've lost my mood liao so i quickly drink up the whole jur and make a move.

I was a bit tipsy liao when i reach the ent of Black. Then i met her liao. At 1st i thought she was alone but not. One of her friend is there too. But doesn't matter lah. No different anyway. This is the 1st time i see her. Looks totally different from how she look like in the pic in friendster.. haha.. Then when she spoke, i know she's a malaysian and her friend is china. Woah. 3 diff species. haha.. Overall the impression she gave me is that, she's violent.. =.=" Gotten a punch on my chest(where my injury is..) and also got a pull on my ears. =.=" But anyway, ok lah.. The only thing i dun like is her friend. It's not that i'm racist or wat but i juz find him not any good. He dun have any money and he dare go chiong with us.. Living off a gal is good? I wonder. Both of them are equally jialat but the guy can like.. Aiya dunno lah. =.="

Think i gonna go get somemore rest though i juz woke up not long ago.. Still feeling tired and my body is aching.. Nite all..