It's been such a long week.. Time is so hard to pass.. So many things to do... =.= Yet at work so little to be done with such low amount of stocks.. I'm left with mainly display sets... Wtf..

Went for my motor prac 2 this morning.. Wakey so early at 6.30am.. =.= During the lesson on bumpy course, lost control and fell down. The metal guard press right on my right leg, to be precise, my toes.. My shoe is a soft type not safety boots.. Damn 3 toes swollen. Damn pain lor. Stupid bike so heavy lol.. But i'm not giving up yet. The next time i will pass my stage 2. Hmpf!

Went to vicom to have my bike checked, passed liao.. No more smokey bike. Went over to Queensway and have my valve checked coz bike is maxed out at 70km/h. Diao.. The screw came out again.. This time my technician use a rubber tube to block it off.. Saying if it doesn't help then i gotta change valve liao.. Another hundred odds. Then the fairing i haven't change also.. Also a hundred plus.. wtf almost 1k liao if i count this way.. Juz for servicing.. =.= He advise me to go for a trade-up.. Think maybe i will get a 'little lamp' or wave or sparks or x1.. Small is good.. Juz like how i always prefer small gals.. lolx.. Perv..

Juz for her only. Went to Orchard yest nite and did some shooting and filming.. Though to singaporeans this is a bo liao thing to do, but not for the case of foreigners.. Anyway, she dun have the time to go down to snap so i do it on her behalf so that when she's going back to china, she can show her family members on the season in sg.. Reached Orchard and it's so crowded there.. Unable to really film while walking.. Needed a handycam instead.. Sigh.. Did many shots along the way and several videos all the way to Plaza Singapura then from there walk home coz no more public transport other than taxi.. Did not ride coz Orchard had been sealed off so juz walk lor.. This is at least something little that i can do.. Well yeah, i still dote on her.. When on the way home, she accompany me on the fone till i walked home. Despite she's cycling and doing delivery.. So dangerous for her.. I told her that special events are nothing much unless there's someone there beside to share the joy.. She felt my neglect.. Kept apologise but well, there's nothing we can do.. Maybe if i burn down the shop she's working at? Lolx... I'm not that unreasonable.

Mon and tue will be my off day.. Think mon will go see if i can change bike as well as settle my installment.. Hopefully my fone also ready for collection.. Think tue will meet up with her bah.. Long time no be with her liao.. Somemore this coming wed which is her off day, she still have to work coz her aunt got open shop.. Still thinking of bring her to mount faber and maybe a trip of cablecar also.. ZzZzZzZzZzZz.. Bo bian lor.. Think meet her liao then when she go work, i go home play game bah.. Need to chiong more wars... Yup i'm back into my game.. More healthy also lol.. But i dun mind going for a few glasses since Pamela kept msg me to go down support her.. Can lah think can support even if she's on top.. Oops! =X Time to go work. Sian. Go work to stand not to sell coz nothing to sell.. Waste time.. But still got to go.. Integrity problem. =.=

A new resolution?

2009 is coming.. Isn't it time for a new resolution..?

Been thru her friendster yesterday.. She indeed become fatter and fatter.. Lolx.. Juz like wat jason described.. Her face almost bloated.. But when looking thru all the pics, a painful sensual running thru my veins.. The good old days and the bad old days.. I really dun deserved such a bitch.. Sigh..

It's complicated. That day went drinking with jason and her at Millions then after that went over to Raining.. Unable to finish up the balance despite her kept wanting to drink more.. We chatted a lot that day.. Surprisingly.. And she gave me a new vision also.. Told me that if there's really another nice gal, told me to go ahead.. Coz she felt it was unfair for me since she's unable to make a decision and commit herself.. It's neither this nor that for her.. Complications leading to nowhere.. Like Carisa always says that i'm the mr nice guy but well, i'm juz bad at rejecting unless i really dun like.. Juz like wat i did that time at Nana where she almost got me and plus those words from her ringing into me.. The more she advises, the more reluctant i'm to end the relation with my gf.. Though deep in there i wish i can, without any hesitation.. In fact, u might be the one who can release me.. But well, i'm again being sealed with a passionate kiss after the raining bar session.. Lolx..

This mth is so broke.. And yet sales so bad.. Worse still, low on stocks made me mad.. But afterall, xmas shld be a joyous occasion.. But wallet had quite a big hole.. lolx.. My sis bought me a Gucci Wallet with clip-function.. In return, i had ordered her an Ipod Nano 8gb limited edition Red. Got a Canon digital camera for my gf, short of the memory card though.. Will be going sls to get her a 8gb for the cam. She's going back to her country juz before my bday and she needed one for the holiday trip.. Bought myself a new specs finally.. Damn broke now..

Went to enrol for my class 2A liao and booked TP on the 18th Feb. Went for stage 1 and cleared with one try. WTF lor. =.= Unexpected. Coz the 2A bike is totally diff from my TZM.. Much more powerful but the bike that i gotten is awfully lousy with bitting point so far off. Not used to it. The body is much bigger than my bike. The weight is so much heavier than my bike. Hopefully i dun break my record of 1-time-pass for all tests. Lolx.. Going to enrol for my class 3 when next yr comes. Afterall, car is much better and more comfy.. Less danger..

My bike is finally settled. =.= Waste so much of my time and money.. Think will be selling it off or by trading in for 2A bike. Think will get S4.. But spec 1 will do i guess.. I dun need so good since i intend to change to car..

Sales been real bad lately and stocks had been reduced to dust today. Knn. She said since i dun wanna go show, she as well STN all stocks out. Wtf lor. Since when i said that. He called me and ask if my side got stocks or not only lor, not ordering me to go expo. If he ordered me to go, would i say a NO to that order? Think this time is gana framed and words are being put in my mouth. Freaking this superstore is not the only one that i can work at. Bastard and Bitch. A bastard who thinks with his cock and talks with his balls. A bitch who listens with her CB and talks with big hole. Pui. I dun have to be under your account. Precisely, i dun take the fucking bitch salary, less the fucking bastard. Wonder when they getting retrenched. Think pretty soon bah. Old liao shld rest at home or clean the toilet. Shld not waste on company's money. Piss.

Genting trip in Jan. =D In fact, really waiting for it coz can go overseas.. Lolx.. Though i dun gamble and i hate gamble, i dun mind going for exploration. So excited that i immediately did my passport online but got a feeling that i will still need to go down to ICA for photo.. =.= Anyway, spending money like nobody business. ZzZzZzZzZzZzZz. Still haven't settle my bills yet lolx.. Hope they dun cut me out so fast..

Really feeling very tired.. When the tension is too great to handle, it might juz snapped.. Even a rubberband had got its limit, less said a human. Been quite tolerant already.. Guess it's really time for me to say goodbye to my TZM.. A bad choice at the start.. Indeed bikes are like computers, similar to human.. One illness cured, another came then followed by another.. Never-ending shits, pile after another then another.. Regarding the other, i'm also growing tired.. Maybe it's time soon. Wo ye ke yi yi xi guan yi ge ren shen huo.. Though i dun need nobody but i'm fine with nobody either.

Some things had to be resolved before i start being unfaithful, coz that can be addictive.. Afterall, i haven't had enuff fun yet, not juz yet.. Bah, water flows surely to the sea. What comes around goes around. It's not the end yet it's juz another begining to start with. Anyway, it's far end that matters and not juz the near future. Still, my mindset of locals is still the same. None can be trusted. lolx..

Today Adam says how two-faced i am. Well, i juz need to cater myself to the world juz to make a simple living by earning meanie $700 per mth. Stop! Dun suan me! I'm really earning $700 basic pay per mth mah!! >.< I'm not lying!!

Talking abt two-faced, i can still rmb Dawn's face on how she can change that so quickly.. I kinda miss those days where i always disturb her from opposite when we are working at Suntec.. I still waiting for her to intro that cute gal to me. Neck long long liao lor. ZzZzZzZzZz.. Anyway, good things are worth waiting. I wonder.. Coz that's a MIS.. Oops!

So fake everyday.. That smiling face is nothing but a fake. So tiring.. Someone did mentioned that i'm good at acting innocent.. =.= Aiyo i may look blur while i know what's going on but that doesn't mean i have to get myself into quicksand.. Even though i dun get involved, nothing's gonna change a thing. Even if getting involved does that mean it will really change something? I'm not the kind who will waste meaningless time on trival matters which doesn't even concern my life..

If i feel something's gonna worth my effort, i wun even think for a moment to help out. I know i wun die even if i'm alone coz the world is too big, not to even mention small fly. Some things what u meant to see may not be what u think u had seen. More than to meet the eyes. Because reality itself is not as simple as ABC. Juz like how someone spur out however much more the someone earning, that someone still ended up with nothing. Juz like how someone spur out however much the someone saving, that someone still ended up with nothing in the end. This is quite confusing coz i have to be careful with what's posted here. There are eyes all around and i may mean no harm but harm might juz come anytime anywhere. Not that i really care nor it concern me. But i feel that both are neither right nor wrong. There's no such thing as a definite...

Some says it's a wastage for holiday trips..
Some says it's a wastage for good food..
Some says it's a wastage for pampering others..
Some says it's a wastage for gambling off..
Some says it's a wastage for being thrifty..
Some says it's a wastage for drinking while deteriotating body..
Some says it's a wastage for DIAO HUA..

There's so much wastage logically known by many but how come there are still ppl doing so?

Juz like how i never believed in 4D and yet once in a blue moon i still do buy $1..?
Juz like how i detest my own dad in wasting money on beer and cigerettes yet i'm doing it as well..?
Juz like how i hate ppl who gamble and yet i used to try it..?
Juz like how i hate ppl who took drugs and yet i still got friends who are like that..?

Juz like how i hate myself for being myself. Why was i born in the 1st place.. Damn.

Dun get me wrong. I dun need any sympathy nor do i need anyone. I'm fine with myself becoz i did, for 26yrs. Can't wait till March. Damn.

When in that state of mind where nothing goes in, that's where life buoy comes in. It's no longer there.. Not juz any life buoy will do, coz 'life buoy' do have an 'expiry'.. And yes i'm very fussy on that though can be easily satisfied and pleased on most occasions. Unfortunately, not.

Well, i guess i'm on my own. Ya, all along.. It's gonna be me, myself and i.
X'mas, New yr, CNY, Bday, Valen, Holi.. Even though already got events but inside still alone. Nothing's gonna change a thing for that.. But it's ok...

That day went to do bike and saw Huining there collecting her phantom with her friend.. She's wearing her uniform, like a dress, and yet she's riding.. =.= Power.. Lolx.. She still looks the same except that she had her teeth done already.. Been so many yrs liao of coz done liao lah.. Duh.. Still as attractive as before but she saw me and cannot recognised me.. =.= When i sms her then she know it was me, still thought which ah beng looking at her.. lol.. Please leh.. I so guai where got beng..? ZzZzZzZzZzZz.. And she's still on P-plate? Weird. Think she did not remove lah..

The excessive white smoke from my bike is driving me crazy lol.. Need to go put more cotton into the exhaust, heard from one colleague.

Sales going pretty normal as usual.. Ppl saying i 'cannot eat finish'.. =.= Dun have lor.. Can't even reach my target.. Sigh..

Pretty laid back lately.. Laying low on drinking also.. Good good.. Healthy lifestyle.. Lolx.. Botak din come work for quite a few days liao. Dunno what happened.. Hope he's ok..

Asked my sis to check for the flight to Taiwan in March.. When dad heard that, he was surprised that i was going alone. =.= I mean, what's there to be surprising.. Though in a foreign land, but still that place ain't indonesia nor thailand neither malaysia. That place shld be safe for solo-ing.. Not the least scared but more of looking forward to it. Something new ready for a little exploration.. Thrill. This is what they so-called adventure..? Free and easy, backpacked everything and go.

Lazy to do much posting lately.. Tired of taking trains. Duh.. But there's so much to see on the train. Lolx.. See no evil mah.. Touch then evil lor.. =P

Been much into beer lately, all thanks to mr richard.. lolx.. But i'm still controlling myself. So refrain.. Yest went QB with richard only.. The table next to us came two ladies and immediately i spotted one who looks familiar but yet i juz cannot figure how where when. This Veron very very familiar lor and she also thought so but we aren't in the same sec sch leh. This ain't Deja Vu coz there's a little memories in her seeing me before. What the heck is going on? Anyway, richard hooked up that Regina while i did nothing. Yup nothing again.. At 1st was having the mood but the last 'bottoms up' got me outta mood entirely with no interest in anything except for wanting to go home that badly. Yeah, that's the bad point of me getting drunk.. When ppl drunk, they can go around vomiting here and there then can make joke outta it. Whereas i can't vomit, coz if i did, i'm as good as a dead fish.

And great, now almost everywhere in BQ know me as Nemo. =.=" ZZZZZZ.. The point is why am i in such a high profile state. Anyway, time to ration. Finally got my baby back to health with several IVs.. lolx.. Yeah, bikes also can be IVed. Next would be washing and polishing it back to clean clean.. Then finally would be going for changing of parts and maybe a little spraying for touch up..

Heard comments on my singing. It's been a while since i last heard that.. Bad sign.. Coz when that happens, bad things cropping up one after another.. This mth is a bad mth with so many bad things happening.. Juz gana caught for my visor for being too dark.. $50 fine. Wtf. I guess it's time to get full-face with no visor then get my specs and sunglass..

Finally sent my dopod for repairs.. They are unable to give me a 1-to-1 exchange policy due to it's repairable. Duh.. Anyway, it's still under warranty. Can't wait to have it back... Life's so miserable without it..

Sis said she will be booking the tix for Bangkok next mth for Feb trip.. I still wanna go Taiwan leh.. Maybe i shld go alone... Go there alone and no matter what i do, no one there to disturb. Like, shopping with my own sweet time, makan with my own sweet time, explore with my own sweet time.. Life's too hectic that one must enjoy once a while with a little pampering in the right area.. I dun need any materials to satisfy my needs, emo and soul.. It's the pleasure that satisfy my thirst for serenity.. WTF am i toking abt? Argh. I juz wan a break.

Guess it's time to clear the rest of my bad debts in the near future.. Never-ending shits. How i wish i got wings to fly away or if not juz stopped breathing in my sleep. Anyway, it's not important anymore whether if i exist. I yearn ceased to exist..


I think i still prefer short hair..

What's with that sour feeling in there..?

Shld i still stay at Causeway Point..?

Maybe i shld not get a car any sooner..

I wonder what lies in the future..

I think i need my med back too...

Afterall, it's me, myself and i..