Today is Christmas. So, Merry Christmas to all who read. =) I rarely got time to come post nowadays.. Friday slept at 5am, went ktv with friends. Sat slept at 6am, went for two celebrations.. shag.. Luckily today got nothing on after work.. =D

Almost everyday i slept late, earliest was 3am.. >_< But no choice lah.. You all stop guessing lah. Some thought i'm in a relationship.. Coz i have been meeting Vic almost everyday for the past 2wks. =.=" Well, let me declare. The nothing between the two of us. Just pure friends, maybe close friends. Am i rite, sis? =P Yup, that's wat i've been calling her thru sms. And of coz, i gotten a 'bro' from her. =)

Well, i seriously have to clarify.
I have got no time for relationships.
I have got no time for gaming. (i gave up RF Online)
I have got no time for movies.
I have got no time for tv shows.
I have got no time for blogging.
I have got no time for studying.
I have got no time for playing.
I have got no time for working.
I have got no time for chats after work.
I have got no time for chill-outs after work.
I have got no time for getting my car license.
I have got no time for packing my field-pack for army.
I have got no time for arranging my desktop.
I have got no time for comics.
I have got no time for novels.
I have got no time for organising things i wanna organise.
I have got no time for updating my palm with all my contacts and appointments and tasks and programmes.
I have got no time for waste. My time is getting precious and stress is getting to me but i simply love this feeling. (thanks, sis vic ^o^)

Too many things to be done, too little time left.. Too many things to plan, too useless in doing planning. Too many problems to handle, too little time to solve. Too many things to learn, too little time to master. Too many things to coordinate, too little to concentrate. Well, this is life? Hell, yes! Everyday is a brand new day! =) No matter how tough or hard or harsh is the path, i must not give up! When a person realised the important of TIME, he/she starts to mature, gradually.

There are ppl who asked me go clubbing, i told them off: No time.
There are ppl who asked me go sentosa sun-tanning on my off-day, i told them off: No time.
There are ppl who asked me go for dinner after work, i told them 'no time leh'.
There are ppl who asked me go for movie after work, i told them 'no time lah'.
There are ppl who asked me wat's wrong with me lately, i told them 'no time to tok'.
There are ppl who asked me to come back play RF, i told them off: Waste my time only.
There are ppl who asked me to go back school to study, i told them off: Waste my time & money only.

Hmm, why do i say study is waste of time? Well, it is a very very blow to those who are still studying but they will not understand. Traditional mindset is 'Study more can get more salary'. Yup, that's true. How much can u go? Is FOUR THOUSAND SINGAPORE DOLLARS enough? Ok lah, make it S$5000 a mth lah, for a degree holder. Well, when i'm getting $500 a mth i say i wan savings but i got none. When i'm getting $1000 a mth i say i wan savings and i got none. When i'm getting $1500 a mth i say i wan savings, in the end still none. The more you get, the more you spend. For my case is becoz of my family and i ain't got a choice. Anyone wanna try support a family of 4 ppl and a pet? So, pls dun come tok crap to me. Oh ya, back to main point. S$5000 a mth with a family of 4. Savings = $1000 a mth? Living standards will definitely rise, properties & transports. The 2 killers in singapore. Heard of retrenchment? Heard of companies being closed down? I give u an example. You are getting S$5000/mth and is a GM(General Manager) of this company called Ma*tor. This company is quite big. Lately, another company called Se*gate buy over the whole of Ma*tor. So, is there any chances that you will be retrenched if Se*gate were to get a lower-pay GM over to Ma*tor? Think abt it. No one can predict the future, nor can anyone prevent the uncomings.

Aiya, all these too chim liao lah. In this world, there's two categories. 95% and 5%. All of us, all ppl i knew are in the 95% category(including those above average-income-families, even some rich ppl like my current boss). I wanna be the 5%. It's extreme but it's not impossible. To be that, one have to sacrifice. Jasmine told me she wanted to retire at age of 30. Lemme see if she can really hang in there until 50 with that mindset. University-student being able to do is not surprising. What if there's a O-Level student AKA Poly-Halfway-Dropout did that? I've seen a few walking towards the path of 5% and i have to catch up. Cert is a piece of useless sh!t if one know how to success. In chinese ppl always say "Tian1 Li3, Di4 Li3, Ren2 He2". Everything have to be swee swee in order to success. Example, bubble tea business. It's a total failure. Anyone who thinking of opening one now please let me know, coz i rather u give me the money.

My words seems too profound and different from what i, Weixing, ought to be. Well, people changes as time pass. I only wanted my very first goal which is a car of my own, i'm targetting Subaru or Integra or whichever EVO that is appealling to me. Second goal will be Mitsubishi Eclipse. Shiok! It's not a dream, it's an aim in life. However, i still dun understand. Can anyone enlighten me? "Do u live life to aim, or aim to live life?" I still haven't had an answer. When i gotten my first goal, i shall try to answer that.. As for when, ppl surely think 2-5yrs. Well, i had set 6mths. =) Even though by then i din get it, i will not give up. That is my belief. Remember hor, "Tian Li, Di Li, Ren He" lor. =) Okie, gotta go liao. Guess the next update will be in wks. =)

Utterly Disappointed..

Sian.. Damn sian.. Totally, utterly disappointed in myself. Totally disgusted by myself.. Fark! Where the fark are all my courage and bravery?! I felt like a chicken juz now. A freaking pussy sissy! You ppl know how the feeling gonna be?! Example, approaching a gal and asking for her number! This is freaking MALE EGO restricting me!! Fark it! >_<

Ok dun get me wrong. I wanted my courage is not for such small matters. Women are nothing. I dun need them to survive. I'm looking upon my colleagues Sen and Yingfen and Jess. They are the toughest women i had ever seen. Knn i need to change myself. I MUST change! Gotta go all out!! Fark the male ego. Fark the mian zi issue! Since FT(Foreign Talent) can do it, I Weixing can too! There is little different in people but that little defferent makes a big different. The little different is attitude and big different is whether it is Positive or Negative! I'm convinced that i'm totally Positive now! I want to be a totally new Weixing to face the world! I want to go Shanghai with everyone in Feb! I want my license by JUNE! I want my own personal car by next year before my bday in 2007! I want my new home in 2007! I want to meet more positive thinking new friends! I want to mix around more with succesful people! I want everyone to stay healthy and never give up!

Imagine a dustbin about 10m away infront of u. If u were to throw in succesfully a paper ball, u will be rewarded with a million dollar at no conditions! WILL YOU TRY? Yes! I WILL! If were to be given 100 chances to throw and you kept missing till 99th, WILL YOU GIVE UP EVEN THE LAST TRY? NO! I WILL NOT! Well, this is part of what i had learnt lately. This is not even 1%. This is not enuff. I want to learn more!

I wanna go sleep liao, so that tml i'm recharged to perform better! Good Nite All!! ^o^

Another day

Again it's getting towards the end of this yr.. Time flies without any mercy. Soon in a mth plus, i'm turning 24 liao.. Looking back, i had finished my NS 3yrs ago, quitted poly 6yrs ago, graduated from secondary 8yrs ago.. I think so.. Paiseh i'm too tired and lazy to count.. >_< Come to think abt it, i've changed ever since i left army too. That time i was botak then to short hair then to forced-centered-window then to messy spike then to messy-outta-bed. =.=" Wat's next? i've got no idea.. Well, when i go chapter 2 then i'll know. ^o^

Another thing that had seems to change is my attitude to gals? Most assumed.. Well, not that. I've not change much, juz a little change. I'm still the traditional Weixing with a bit more out-going and a bit more socialable nowadays.. I'm still the guai Weixing with a little bit of bad and a little bit of notti.. ^o^ Anyway, i'm juz being me of what my friends SEE in me and not in words. =) Well, words can be deceiving and yet some truth that are not easily revealed by me personally. Well, i juz looked back at my posts last mth.. I can't believe i wrote those.. Anyway, i'm easily influenced by ppl.. I rather be a bad a*s to be shown to others rather than doing nothing that can at least aid a bit to some in their lives. Hope me being a bad guy in here did help a bit. But anyway, i've got no control in what others gonna think.. I can only try to do it the bad way. 'It's good to be bad, and yet psychologically implement the opposite effects..' It doesn't matter how others gonna look at me or how others gonna get disgusted by my posts. Well, afterall, these are juz but words.. Wah, i can be story teller for the bad liao.. lolx.. =P

Wah sian.. Juz now my hp beep and gotten a sms from Vic.. My fone was covered by my bag thus i din hear/see it till more than an hr later.. Replied her and got no reply.. Guess i was too late.. Think she is juz bored and wanted a little chatting on sms.. Sian.. >_< Only if my pillow isn't that big. =.=" Sigh.. Tml see how bah..

I really miss sashimi! >_<>_< But i dun mind as long not too hard though. =P I'm shui bian but i'm not fan jian lor! ^o^ Hmmm.. Tml see how bah.. If i were to ask Michelle out for dinner, Edmund surely not happy de. All he know is i'm snatching from him. Aiya, kids wun understand de lah.. He sees me getting close to either Joan or Michelle, he got jealous. He sees me getting close to Vic(he knew abt her as i told him), he develop 'green-eyes'. Then i told him abt Vic's friend Peishan taking my number before we three parted that time, he again turn green-eyed. =.=" Seeing me meeting two pretty gals alone, accused me say got gals no share. wtf sia. He really wan me to play the hard way? I would use psychology ways to make him ben-kui lor.. Make him totally lose confident and ability in himself. I'm sure i stand a better chance in getting Michelle or Joan. But if i really wanna play, i would want him to get together with either 1st, then i go 'gua-chia' snatch his gf made him tulan and ditch the gal and tell him to take back. But fighting with a kid is no fun. No excitment at all. Anyway, he will give up in a while if he can't get Michelle. Lemme put a little poison and watch the fun going.. Muahahahaha! *evil grinz* =D =E =P

Was supposed to go Devil's Bar but in the end it was cancelled.. Think shld be comfirm going on Tues due to the special invitation cards.. Only those invited can go in. There will be free-flow till 11pm and Andrew got one 3/4 full bottle for us free.. ^o^ Gonna drink till we drop! =D Then on Wed there's a gathering for our company. Guess we will be going for dinner after work then drink a bit then go ktv.. With Santos around, i bound to drink a lot due to force.. Santos is good with psychology and he was a very good talker that can 'force' ppl into drinking.. Mike ganna before liao.. Haha.. And Santos is a VERY GOOD drinker. =.=" Then on friday maybe going clubbing at Momo with Jason and Mike and maybe Ken.. Sat got a gathering with my poly friends. Though dinner i wun be able to make it but might be going clubbing thereafter.. This coming week i'm so bz.. >_< Still thinking of meeting shan for prata and Vic for dinner leh and Peishan also and of coz not forgetting Ruyou's ice-cream. ^^ Last but not least, Celena's movie trip to Chicken Little. ^o^ Unless she watched it liao lah.. sigh.. =P

Shag shag.. i wanna go slp liao.. Nite all.. ^^

ShAg-OuT

Lately had been feeling fatigue despite the min 7-hrs of slp... =.=" Am i turning pig? >.<>.< I gotta bear with it somemore den.. I need some de-stress i guess. The best de-stress for me is having someone close to me. =.= Well, it's weird but she would calm me down really amazingly fast. Recharged also immediately.. =.= Anyway, dun have also like that.. At worst, tahan for 2-3 more mths lor.. =P

I met Vic and Peishan yesterday at Liang Court. At first, we meeting at BQ's Coffeebean then Vic says she prefer Starbucks so choose location.. She din tell me she was meeting me with a friend and i assume she is alone. I called a cab immediately after work as i was late liao then when i reached, she was doing a little shopping for clothings. Well, that's wat i expected outta her though. =) Anyway, within minutes she came out and called me. 1st meeting, stunned. Coz she din tell me got a friend with her. *pengz* But i got over it soon after. So unlike me.. =.=" There was a change of plan again as Vic complained that she's hungry thus we walked over to MS and eat Bah Kut Teh. They eat, i see. Coz i oredi eaten at work then somemore i go home still got supper awaiting me.. >.< Upon the chat, i found that Vic was from the same school as me. We were both from Nan Chiau but at different levels as i'm studying secondary while she study primary. It is kind of ironic.. lolx.. So qiao. =P Then she asked me got see her before or not. =.=" Walao how to tell sia.. Somemore, my secondary was not a vivid experience for me.. Both Vic and Peishan are very friendly. Actually both of them are 18 this yr. I wonder why i say 17. Maybe Vic's bday juz over when i knew her bah.. Anyway, the three of us bound to have a 2nd meeting. The next one might be going clubbing with them liao.. Maybe not, coz peishan says she dun club de.. BUT, she says she might goes. =.=" Next wk see how bah..

Overall, these two young gals are cute and friendly. ^^ Vic says she went for 3 Make-overs liao.. No wonder so many pic in there.. =.=" Peishan teased Vic saying she is craze over purple.. Purple nail polish, purple skirt, etc. Haha.. Like that more girly mah. Can amuse more guys. All my colleague surely eyes on her if they were to see her.. Juz like that time Shan that time come interview like that. Okok, a bit too exegerating.. =P

Why do ppl send fancy sms? I will send to the person if i though of her when i wanted to send sms.. Even if i dun send, it doesn't mean i dun care.. Whenever i received a sms from a friend, i would have the urge to pass it around to those whoever came across my mind when i'm pressing for names to be sent.. That time when i'm in reservist i happen to experience a painful moment.. A painful moment of not wanting to msg someone even though my heart kept telling me to.. Those 5days are a rael torture to me as i can calculate how many sms i received from that someone.. When she wakes up and goes to work on the bus, i receive one. When she goes for lunch, i receive one. When she goes to bed i receive one.. During the mid of my reservist, i suddenly stop my sms to her.. Normally when i received her msg, i would definitely reply her or send a new sms back to her.. I stopped my msg for 3 days and the 3 days are so unbearable.. Almost had a system breakdown.. The feeling of suppressing/opposing feelings is so tong ku.. Then somemore with the stress of wanting to quit the previous job adds on the pressure.. I almost ended myself rite there.. Luckily, a little mischievious piggy came along and brought me up. That was the time i realised actually she wasn't that bad IF she came on early.. But, she came juz in time to save me from agony and depression.. That earned her a place in me.. Well, she is still my good friend(not yet a best friend though.. =P). But anyway, cheers. =)

Things are getting better between me and Joanne but somehow i find it weird with Michelle. O.o Do i look like i'm out to get them? =.=" When i tok to one, the other kind of giving me the cold shoulder. Cannot do casual chats lah? =.=" Really dun understand gals.. >.<>.<> Game -> Chiong -> Sleep -> Eat -> Drink. Oh well, i've forgot how life's gonna be ever since WE made a decision.. When i had her, i had the thoughts of going movies with her, go chill-out at BQ there with her, go eat dinner with her, going clubbing with her, send her to work, etc.. Now, i dun have anything, thus, it's all abt the usual stuffs. Life still goes on with regular basis.. =) So, dun think of me as desperate coz i still will reject ppl. Muahahahaha! =X

Jason says me choosy. "You know how to choose ppl, ppl also know how to choose leh.." Thus, i never choose anymore. Whoever will come will come, whoever will go will go. It's not a choice nor an obligation, i leave it to the feelings of the hearts. If both can linkup, there shall be sparks. Some things are better left untold and understood rather than face the music and felt the pinch. Thus, i've given up and i'll never say. By using feeling, thy shall feel the flow.. Thru my actions, thru my words, thru my expressions. It's not as easy like ABC but it could be as easy as 123. There can only be one key to the mystery. Once seized, no one can break free unless owner gives up. Well, i'm that 'guai pi'. I'm being brought up this way. =)

My blog is getting shorter.. =.=" niway, that's all for day. Nite all.

demoralising..

That was from work.. Heard some things that i shld not have heard.. Anyway, so be it.. Work only mah.. Scared can't find meh? chey. There are still a handful of them awaiting me. Some are even much higher pay than what i'm getting now. Juz that i wun be that relax as before. Anyway, i'm off work liao. Let's not tok abt it anymore. Working 7days a week is more than a killer oredi. shacks.

Last wk got to know this gal called Vic thru wholivesnearyou and gotten her friendster, msn, blog and hp number. Seems too easy.. Kinda weird. =.=" Anyway, she's cute in all her pics. Juz like Michelle, she looks pretty mature for a young gal. She is only 17 this yr studying at MDIS. Juz known her for a few days and we are like about to meet up liao. And she dare to meet me alone at Boat Quay(That's wat she requested). Well, afterall i'm an introvert. =P Okok, it's normal for her to act this way. =P She stays quite near to my area though.. ^^ Was supposed to meet her for dinner few days back but in the end got called off.. Well, i was like 'want and dun want mood' lah.. And now i regretted. =.=" Oh well, i blame it on the nature of my work though.. >_< Haiz.. But still got chance de lah since we stay so close.. ^^ she is cute lor, this victoria.. My colleagues all see liao ask me go jio her.. =.=" See how lah ^^

Things had gotten much better for my shop neighbour and me.. =D Last sunday, Joan looked so bored sia. It's her shift last wk to work on a sunday. I can see that Michelle and Eric not around. Instead, lady boss and her elder daughter(quite cute, better looking and sounds sweeter than the young lad) are around.. Early in the morning i initiate the chat with her liao.. So unlikely of me. =.=" But her Icy look still there lah though there are still smiles on her bored face. =P Then on monday, i was chatting with Michelle regarding the clubbing on friday then i started teasing her that becoz she din go, mike also din go. Then out of the blue i spout out "aiya all becoz of Joanne lah, Mike dun wanna go becoz she din go!". Wahahaha.. Then she turn and look at me with that icy look and smile. lolx. Then today, all three of us kind of tok alot sia coz today not much customers and all of us are bored.. See i so good, entertain them.. lol.. Then Edmund lagi funny. He got Michelle's num and often sms her and had chatted with her on the fone but they never seems to tok face to face. Then today when he come jio me go smoke, as we step out of the shop i call out to michelle and ask if she wanna go toilet(me and her usual disturbing each other), can go together. Edmund was like stunned at my actions. Coz i am an introvert. Aiya he's juz being jealous. =P Anyway, he want, he take lor. I got no prob de. Gals only mah. ^^ Even though taken liao, still friends ah. Still can disturb de. =) I'm so mischief.. hehe

Shan had been having so much problems with her lovelife.. Haiz.. *sings Avril Lagvine's Complicated* Well, some things are inevitable. No choice de. If water were to flow surely to the sea, then there wun be wars and chaos liao.. Anyway, as long as she's happy can le. Being able to do wat she wan without any restrictions is a FU.. Looking at her and looking back at mysterious gal, hai.. Shan is still more fortunate.. Maybe.. I'm not disclosing wat's going on as there's no point in racking up the past. What's past had past, shall let it be buried. Anyway, i'm always available for her as a friend. =) No need scared gastric de, i can order bread and milo anytime. No need to scared cold, my winder breaker is always at my shop unless i bring it home to wash. Well, whatever u do, i'm forever backing u up. No need to scared not to tell me anything, for i would not reveal it unless i sense that u wanted me to. I maybe not be a good counsellor but i can be a normal listening and pinching-bag(sob! pain!). I maybe be a bad guy but i'm not an evil guy. Btw, i'm sorry that i will not allow u to come my house as my dog eats strangers..

I'm a real weird guy. Ppl say i'm 'guai pi', and yes i'm a bit. Depending on how, when, where, what and why. I can get pissed easily by gu-niangs. I can get pissed easily by gay-like when they disturb me. I can get excited and happy easily when friends come find me at sim lim sq. I can fall in love easily if things get comfortable without saying anything mushy at all. I can get turned off easily by small little stupid things(i.e. Joanne ignore me that time..). I can be easily satisfied with small little things. Well, i can be hard to get to know but i can be easily understood and seen thru. =.=" Men are more complex as long you came across those in your life. Women are more simple and yet complicated(ok complicated is becoz we guys think it that way..). Well, at least there are some i can somehow understand but to the extend of fully understood. Jason is rite. We can make gals think that we understand them well but in fact we merely let them believe that we did understand them so as to let us further our actions. =.=" Well, it's a fact, or shld i say it's a tactic/technique. He says it's time that i be a real bad guy and gain experiences from them.. I beg to differ as i oredi more or less gotten a bit even though i din really be a bad guy..

Now, Jason is real bored and i can see his evil horns protruding outta his head liao.. Gonna see how he fare in snatching gals from other guys. ^o^ That gonna be an eye-opener for me. It's good to be bad. Last time i wasn't very close to him, thus i dunno exactly wat's going on. I only know his ultimate is, "Woo --> Break-off with bf --> together liao --> Shoo --> despair". I can't find this ultimate technique from anyone of my friends de. Gonna see how he aim and launch at his 1st target. The MIC(Made in China) from the shop at 4th floor, the one whom i disturb that time. She's together with one of my colleague now for like a wk or so liao and she even went his place liao. Well, Jason gave my colleague his warnings liao. Hehe.. This gonna be fun. =) I wonder how that gal 'ben kuei'. =D Hmmm.. Hope i wun be lead to astray by him.. He oredi leading my mindset slowly liao.. Luckily i did not fall for his 1st trap which he seen as a potential target for me.. Indeed a very potential target which i never mentioned but i dun wan. =P Afterall, i'm a 'guai4 pi4'. =P

Shag..

Format my comp can be so tedious.. =.=" It's not becoz it's hard to do but troublesome due to backing up all applications/installers/documents/pictures/musics etc.. So much to backup and download and configure.. I'm juz so lazy but in the end, everything still sui sui.. ^o^

Ok now here i'm, blogging when i'm bored.. Actually i'm very bz with my game.. But nvm lah.. ^^ Erm.. I forgot what i wanted to blog abt.. Oh ya, my angelfire account had been suspensed.. Cannot host music in the meantime.. shacks.. >_< Oh well, let's get personal..

I've been reviewing my life lately.. I found that i'm one weird type.. Nowadays i wun go approach a gal and ask, for the relationship to start.. Well, ever since the last incident, i realised that somethings need not be said.. Let actions do the talking instead.. Well, maybe body-language plays a part.. Maybe not.. watever.. How did we started out that time..? Hmmm, juz like that lor.. I din ask for it, nor did she ask for it.. It juz happened naturally? Think so.. So, we are that mo qi! =P Well, i admit, there's no shortage of fancy, funny sms.. Some mischief too.. =P But still i'm very guai one hor.. Erm, she also very guai one.. Guai bring along a little huai. =D

Well, i'm indeed a very anything guy but appears to be choosy most of the time.. Can't help it, that's me. My colleagues see me as hard-to-get, but i'm not. My colleagues see me as playboy, but i'm not. My colleagues see me as shui bian, but i'm not. Well, i leave it to my friends to judge. Anyway, yes or no i still live my life.. Needless for me to say anything as there's no facts to back it up my words.. Hmm, anyone can get as close to me as possible but dun freak me out.. Juz like someone else.. There.. That one lor.. Aiya, think u ppl know who that one is.. haiz.. Seeing this, i started to feel and think how it is like to be treated how i'm gonna treat that person.. Thus, i will never zhi zhuo.. No point and will scare away ppl.. =.=" Juz like how she scareded me. Sometimes I can get hot-tempered if i'm scareded.. Now i dun even wan to be a friend.. Scary lor.. I've forced myself to hate her but hopefully i doesn't burst out.. But anyway, she is juz being immatured. Bah, let's change topic.

Tomorrow is the day liao.. Comfirm will be going clubbing. With quite a few ppl. ^o^ Really looking forward to it.. Hope it turns out well.. I'm a bad organiser anyway.. >_<

Here's my plan:
Immediately after work gonna meet up with my shan 1st. Oops! I mean shan. Then we go have our dinner nearby. Few of my colleagues will be going but i think let them go eat 1st before all of us meet up at the destination.. Thus, gotta coordinate 3 groups.. Maybe 4 groups.. Another group might be that Michelle opposite my shop. She might be going with her friends as she never went there before. Well, the percentage is low though.. Guess she might think that the whole gang is all guys.. =.=" There'll be at least 3 gals i supposed.. Coz for Carisa side, i still dunno who going but i think angeline will be going with her or maybe her sis, Jenny. Anyway, we all juz wanna have fun in there.. It's gonna be hard to juggle in there.. Haiz. that time that Erica lah.. So anti-social.. Makes me abandone the group and accompany her.. Walao, wat's there to paiseh sia.. At 1st i went with Carisa's group, mainly all gals and i dunno most of them well lor.. And the worst thing is i'm an introvert.. Well, maybe those vodka did their job and let me relax and comfortable.. ^o^ Normally, ppl who are introvert will be very quiet when drunk.. And for hot-tempered ppl, they will be violent.. Mike used to be like that.. I hope i can control him if he were to get drunk tml.. Well, ken will be there to help anyway.. hehe.. I'm juz scared that i will be too bz to accompany everyone if all cannot merged into one.. Haiz.. Very sian one lor.. such situations.. >_< I keep my fingers crossed..

Juz a short blog for today as i'm rushing for boss killing later in my guild.. Almost time liao.. =P I'm post somemore nx time.. Maybe this sunday.. TC all. ^^

零

从来不相信我的世界可以有多完美
痛苦寂寞还有一些疲惫
不允许他人随意进入我的零度空间
宁愿孤独懒的再去想谁
俩个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住我的无力双臂

怎么会哭
(谁错谁对为谁抱歉)
不会再哭
(谁错谁对为谁憔悴)

走入零度空间等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险我们一起面对

来不及的防备没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会多了爱的明天

走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔

放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天

新的明天

俩个人一起是否只是得到一种安慰
挣脱过去然后忘记一切
没想过有天我的结局忽然全部改变
谁会抓住我的无力双臂

怎么会哭
(谁错谁对为谁抱歉)
不会再哭
(谁错谁对为谁憔悴)

走入零度空间等到一切分裂
就算爱的危险我们一起面对

来不及的防备没听过的誓言
要我怎么学会多了爱的明天

走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔

放下所有防备一切都无所谓
逃出黑暗世界开始新的明天

新的明天

走出零度空间终于一切分裂
就算爱的很累我却不会后悔

放下所有防备一切都无所谓
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Hmmm, 1st time hear this song and i like it liao. But it's hard to sing. High and low, fast and slow. Very unique and also powerful in its lyrics.. Kind of shag after listening to it.. Sigh.. But anyway, it's real nice. ^^

Jason's gf had broke off with him last wk. But they are still together. For the time being. Tml, thursday will gonna be the decision-making day. Jason is off tml and he will be going to Selena's place and help them do re-painting. This is his 1st time meeting her parents and grandparents.. Their fate lies here.. Selena's giving him a chance by letting her peers do the decision for them.. Well, though we all see jason as an easy-going guy but 2yrs of relationships not possible to say no feeling de lor.. But anyway, now i can feel that he sian liao though a bit not bear.. Even if Selena wan him, he might not even want her anymore.. Such situation, if it were to be me, i might do the same as jason.. So what, she is very pretty. Many of my friends seen her before, gals say she very chio, guys all almost drop all their teeth.

The hidden truth might be that she had a thing for another guy. And jason taught me this before. If u can get a gal who is attached(be it for awhile or ages), that gal cannot be wanted. Becoz if she can do this to her ex, she can do that to u next time. well, it's a very simple fact.. AT LEAST there's no 100% assurance that she will not. Thus, i said, wat's the point of getting serious? There's no point in that. I stand by this rule firmly, till i break the rule. But not possible. Like what some said, i always treat all gals so good, there's no focus even though i got a gf. Well, not having one to give it all i have, why not juz distribute it out among all? Even though juz friends, can't i treat juz anyone super good as if she is my gf? Well, i ain't any Wei Xiao Bao, i'm juz Weixing. Did i gave the mysterious gal my best, even though i did treat some others good? Yes i did. Out of all, she gained at least 70%. As for what she gained, i'm not telling. Only she and me will know it. I leave it to our own.. For the rest to guess. Whatever you all wanna think, go ahead..

Regarding how come i'm kind of change liao as of what shan said.. Well, in fact i haven't changed a bit. I'm still Weixing. =) Most impt, dun read me like a book. If u think, you will know more abt me thru reading, so be it. I leave it to you, i dun intend to change ppl thinkings. =D I'm a bad guy remember? I keep it as that. =) Juz a kind note, some things are mentioned too exegerated. Well, afterall, this is juz a blog. I wish to rack abt anything, it's all my wish. =) What are true what are exegerated, i leave those to u ppl. If you really knows me well, you shld be able to tell. Dun forget i'm not a book. =)

That day meet shan, when she ask me some stuffs, i can oredi felt something's amiss liao.. Well, the truth is reveal when i saw her blog juz now. As expected.. That's wat i knew abt her. =) Dun get me wrong, i dun see her as a playgal or wat. 16yrs-old nothing much to be surprised abt anything like that.. Juz like Mike and Small One(his gf who is also 16 this yr), Jason also says he see it as puppy-love. That one is very sticky lor, and strict also.. Early in the morning she would go to mike's place and wake him up and pull him to sim lim early to eat breakfast.. Oh i forgot to mention she also working in sim lim same company as us.. Then she is strict becoz, she dun even allow mike to tok to the gal opposite my shop.. =.=" Not to even mentioned call or msg other gals.. Now, even wan to chiong also cannot.. Super tight-down.. Then Jason says "aiya let her be lor, after a while she will be sian liao then will find another guy liao." That meant to be a joke though. But how true issit? I do not know. I leave that to them. =)

Think it's time i go find a gf as a stand-in liao. That gal who is bothering is getting impatience and had been pestering me more. I shall find a stand-in to shoo her off. It's hard to find 'the truth'.. When i'm ready, i always got turn-off.. sigh.. Suan le, no fate means no fate.. If i treat her as 'the truth', later it's me myself who got hurt in the end. =.=" Bah, juz find one to play sua lah.. Ok i gtg play game liao. Bye all.

Wat a surprise.. =X

Shan actually came down to sim lim today as she got nothing to do. juz to see see my shop.. =.=" No lah, and also for filling up some forms as she's applying for a place in my company.. She quit her Cabana job liao, saying the management is super duper ultra cropped up. Then very funny, she forgot how Jason looks like and Jason forgot how she looks like.. Then in the end, they are like asking me, "erm, who is she/he ah?".. lolx. Both RO players seen each other before but forgot.. =P Well, to err is human. =) Then those guys ah.. Kept crapping when shan is filling up the form. =.= Walao, made her paiseh.. Then in the end i got pinched.. >_<

We went Bugis Street walk walk then she go and buy a spec(without degree). She wanna make herself more toot.. =.=" That zhutou.. Oops! =X Well, nothing much though. After that go eat Mos Burger then i send her to her destination then headed back home.

Hmmm, like wat shan says. "ren wang wang zai shi qu de shi hou, cai hui dong de zhen xi.." How true is that.. Sigh.. But wat to do, most of the ppl are like this. That's why it's always good to treat everyday like the last day of life. Rmb i said if i'm able to live until age of 30 i would be glad? It's to make me live better. Well i'm left with 6 years and 2 mths. It's not long, nor issit short.. Well, life's bored if everyday also unhappy.. But, not everyday sunday lah.. Bound to have ups and downs.. Well, nothing is perfect in this world. For me, i'm glad with wat i have and who i am. Though single but i'm happy(as compared to the tortures mike is experiencing now... =P). A mate is not a muz but a bonus. Have one or not, it's not important at all.

When a person is without the desire to own, he/she can perform better communication with the opposite gender. Well, better communication as in more comfortable chatting with the other party. Well, this is one of the tactic in one of my spam mail. It's a good pick and skill. =) I'm trying to drill this into yuxiang though.. Need to get him to turn bad then pull him outta bad again.. Xiong sia.. But ok lah. =)

That Irene come sms me again asking if we can become so good like last time or not.. Well, she oredi got on my nerve, there's no turning back. Maybe i shld do the cruel way. haiz.. so sian. That's the reason i dun like immature gals. =.= SianZzZzZzZzZ.. Though she taught me something. Never push ur luck too far in relationships. The more u pester, the more hatred u get. The more u fan him/her, the more he/she would wan to ask u to go away and stop being a bother.

That Joan opposite my shop had gotten on my nerves too. That day when she walk past our shop, mike was teasing her so i join in the fun but got ignored. =.=" The flame was ignited at that instant. I was like "wakao, who the hell u think u are? My foot is nicer than u. wuss off." Then actually last friday wanted to go clubbing together with the gals opposite de. Mike ask me to ask Joan whether still on or not and i replied "Me and her very close meh? If she's going, i'm out.". Attitude sia but that's me when my tail is stepped on. I'm being friendly ain't i? Casual jokes are harmless lor. Since she bochap, i show her how bochap i am. When Michelle came into my shop to borrow broom, i still can joke and disturb her. But when Joan came in with Eric, i dun even wan to entertain her. I'm not worthy to be her friend lah. So be it. I wun lose a meat anyway. Hmmm, or shld i say "she's not worthy to be my friend"? That's harsh but i like using "fan diao" sometimes. That wun hurt that much if learnt. =) Darn i'm still so soft on her for wat...? =.=" Bah, watever.

Lately, my friendster friendlist is getting more and more ppl.. ^^ Though i din go get much numbers yet.. =.=" Aiya, so troublesome.. They wan they will give one lah. Asking too much will make myself got detest only.. =P Ok lah i wan go eat dinner liao.. Hungry sia.. Bye all, nite. ^^

Happy~~ =D

I've got a new toy~~ ^^ Long time no 'chong' myself liao.. ^^


There it is~ A Palm-top. A temporary stand-in before i get my O2 mini. ^^ Not so good but not too bad. ^^ MP3, 1.2m Camera, Contact storage, Schedules, Notes, etc. ^^ It's called Palm Zire 72. =D

Yesterday nite after shopping at Bugis Village(now known as Bugis Street) with Jason & Mike, when reach home, whole nite playing my new toy until 3am.. lolx.. Still trying to try-out whatever it can do. Still not done yet though.. =.= Well, at least now i can surf the net even when my sis took over my comp for a long long time. ^^ At Bugis, Jason bought 2 cute handbags for his gf, trying to please her out. Haha.. Kinda a bit too late though.. But, nothing is impossible. =) Though gals are really an easy catch but cultivating one is tough. At least his current one had been cultivated for 2yrs liao. Somemore, pretty leh. ^^ Mike bought 3 t-shirts and a small handbag for his gf but in the end his gf dun like the brand(luckily it's only $5.. ^^). As for me, i bought a black sling bag for myself and a pinky-purple bag for shan. My bag looks nicer and cheaper though.. =P But hers is not bad lah, stussy de. ^^ But scared she no like it. Anyway, for bringing to work nia.. Shld be fine lah.. hehe.. At most nx time bring her go see and buy her one that she likes lor. hehe =P

I thought i can get my off liao.. >_<>_< More than 2mths no off! sob! Total will be almost 6mths no off! Excluding the mc that day. T.T Bah, so be it. My very 1st off day, i'm oredi thinking how am i gonna spend it.. Too long no off liao, thus, dunno how shld i spend it.. Slacking at home playing game would be too wasted liao. Find ppl go out would have to crack my brain very hard to see who can i ask out on monday. =.=" Or maybe i shld go meet up anyone who is free, one by one.. lolx.. I pity my translink card. =P But, who cares abt that. =) Friends more impt mah. ^^ Lucky no gf, if not surely got occupied by her! =P But anyway, i got all the time i want to plan. =) With my new PDA. ^^

My colleague, Anthony, got a gf in China. Though me and mike kept on 'see china gals, guess how much, then say "Oh, it's a MIC(made in china)" and laugh', he did not say anything but smile. Suddenly one day he said something and woke me up..

"Sg gals mostly go for 5 Cs lah, wat crap lah, good looking or not lah, etc. Though MICs seem shui bian but they are contented with watever sg guys gave them. Got rice eat rice, wouldn't ask for sashimi. Got water drink water, wouldn't ask for Brandy."

How true is that? Well, i agree. Not to mention those cheapo MICs as advertised by singapore government. Those are naturally no diff from those condemned singaporeans. But i've seen alot of good MICs. =) Well, MIMs aren't that bad either. ^^

Now i knew 2 Erica.. =.= The 1st one is the violent one. =X 2nd one is a supplier from Abadi Computers. That day she came to my shop and ask if there's anything i wanna order, then after ordering some stuffs from her, she asked for my number and say that anything she will get back to me. =.=" I tell her that can call my office to find me de but she insist. =.=" Watever.. Opposite my shop that Joan also funny. =.=" Wan buy cigarettes but ask mike help her and not me. In the end also me who help her order. =.=" I got so scary meh? =P

That Angela(opposite my shop) also got disturb by me. Yesterday she tied up her hair then i told her "When u tied up ur hair, then u do look like u are 18. =P) Then i teased her by calling her 'auntie'.. lolx.. She ask me normally she look like wat age and i tell her '27'.. Haha.. She almost dropped upon hearing that.. haha.. =P Maybe going chiong with them this friday. Angela jio de.. Still dunno wan to go or not.. =.=

Shag..

Tired sia.. The few days been chiong-ing.. >_<>_<>

Wah today i hit it off with one the pen-tablet promoter sia.. Disturb her until she blush.. lolx.. Cute sia. Then one of the gals in my company got disturb by me. Not those two in my previous post de. We got 3 female staffs mah. In that pic only got 2, KR & JJ. The one i disturb is called Dionne. She used to be at a shop named Video P. When i was at Top Uni(my previous company), i used to beo her every now and then.. lolx.. But i shy mah, so no approach at all. =X But then she is attached. =.= How come so many attached? Sian.. Oh KR is not! But no thx.. =D Later see her tattoo liao i also wan put. hehe.. Anyway, her tattoo is at a place not easily visible... Oops! =X That Dionne ah. Today at there i'm lilke, whenever she says something, i suan her back. Lolx.. See her cute pissed off face makes me wanna pinch her chubby cheeks sia.. Haha.. But she's not fat at all. =) But quite cute. If got chance i post let u all see. Hehe.. See lah, i seriously need my O2 mini.. >_<

Then today Serene came, as i called her to come down. Again she wore low cut.. My nose almost bleed lor.. =X White short-sleeved blouse with cyan long skirt and slight make-up. One word, CHIO! lolx. I bring her go Jeffrey there to intro to them her products as Jeffrey's shop is the only one selling cases, cables, cradles, silicon cases, crystal cases for all sorts of PDAs including PDA-fone like TREO, TUNGSTEN, PALM & XDA. I knew they will not order from Serene if both Serene and Jerome approach them juz like that.. Thus, i made a plan. I bring some of my Ipod Nano silicon cases to them and let them sell. Then i gave them a list of Serene's products. (Wah i machiam working for Serene sia.. =.=) Then i ask Serene to come down today with the leather cases to show them. And when at their shop, i took the chance and pull Jerome for a little while Serene entertain them. As u know, pretty gal's tok definitely interest guys more. Another guy to be there would simply turn them off. =D i'm so clever. hehe.. In the end, they ordered some stuffs from Serene. She happy sia.. Haha.. Then after that we go smoke. On the way there, few of my colleagues disturb us sia but to vain of coz. =P Guess tml she's coming down again. great ^^ If not by next mth no chance ask her smoke liao coz she's quitting. =) Good for her. Anyway, she will definitely come my shop chat with me de whenever she is in Sim Lim. ^o^

These two days i only used 30sec to make my hair in the morning lor.. =.= Coz i din put anything on. No Moouse, no gel, no clay. Simply nerdy look. lolx. It's been a long time since i like that sia.. 40 over ppl in SLS, all see me they stunned. lolx.. It's been a long time i look like that. Then all my colleagues wanna touch my hair.. =.= Esspecially Yong An sia. He knn kept on playing with my hair saying they are soft. =.= They thought i juz dyed my hair but the fact is i did it long ago.. lolx.. There are good and bad lah.. Got ppl say i machiam jap style, some say i look weird, some say i look nerdy, some says i look like i haven't wake up. =.= Actually i intended to go cut hair, thus i cannot put any clay on it mah.. I dun wanna shampoo my hair before cutting de. Somemore i finish work late.. =.= If go home wash up, by the time the shop close liao.. Actually i'm thinking of not wanting to put on any clay anymore liao.. Can't think of a style unless i go Chapter 2 and let Nana cut. Nana is the Creative Hair-stylist there.. But i can't bear to go there leh.. If not, then i have to find a new style that requires no clay nor gel.. Most of the style needs though coz my my wavey hair. Though now short and not too wavey yet, and it's smooth and soft lah.. But eventually will need de lor.. Haiz.. Headache.. >_<>

Hmmm, shan wan me to tui siao her wor.. Oops! i mean, say her good points.. Hehe.. My previous post already say liao mah.. It's the biggest compliment for her liao. And the best thing abt her if she dun zhi zhuo. =) Juz like me. Muahahaha! =P Rmb that few hundreds of 'handmade chocolates'? Hehe, every since i pass u those, u see me when in game i wun even hiu u.. =P That time TPL still jealous sia.. Say i give u so many and i only gave her one. lolx.. But anyway, wat's gone is gone. Let it be a memory. =) As for the chalet ah, wan me to go for the BBQ nite ah? Why leh? U wan BBQ for me ah..? Dun wan lah, later ur bf jealous.. =X Later i cannot return home sia.. =D But anyway i see how 1st. See when my friends they all playing the overnight majong, so that i can schedule for the week. Dun forget i no off de hor.. >_< x ="P">

That gal sms me again.. Though i wanna stay neutral to her but she too sensitive liao. Still with a kid's thinking. I hate immature gals. Simply hate them. Seriously hate them. Now shoo and dun ever come near me. I am not worth being ur friend. Now go.

The thing went like this.

"Hello, how are u lately?"

"Normal lor."

"How come we are like strangers?"

"We are strangers mah."

This is part of it. Ok wat's wrong with short and sharp? Okok my fault my fault. I shld be more gentle and polite. My foot. I do not wan to take any risks and have her come fan me again. Later i cannot take it, and my words will make her jump off the building. Dun forget my words can be piercing and hurtful. Being cautious is better than taking any risks. Not even the slightest risk. Hope she read this. But anyway, not like i care. Muahahahaha! This gonna scare all gals away. Good good. Being friends will do. =)

"Friendships are forever, relationships are not. At least that's what i believe in."

i'm bad. ^_^

I influenced my friend on how to look upon gals.. Taught him how to see gals as dirt. Taught him how to think differently instead of being traditional. Taught how to look at life at a more relax pace and perspective.

He is a real stubborn guy who do not listen at all when he's agitated or angry. Just like how he was at primary school. Oh well, my nagging do works though but i might seriously lead him astray. I'm refering to ways of thinking not really 'bad things'. But i kinda feel weird myself. After talking senses into him and turn his despair into nothing, next comes 'gals are nothing but rubbish'. All these are taught by my friends as well as through research and also through friends' experiences.

Shan is one example. I'm not saying she's bad. To me, she is a person who can take it up and put it down easily. Was she not serious at all at BGR? Well, i'm sure she IS serious. So how can she just easily got hitch after few days break-up with ex bf? Well, a new one can heal one's wound. Happiness will cover the sadness. No matter how deep is the sadness, happiness definitely can cover it. But conservative people do not think that way. Simply dwell on it and cried buckets over spilled bean. Well, you can cry buckets over it but after that just get it over and clear the mess lah. It's not as if crying for years and the mess would be cleared automatically. Clearing the mess refers to your thoughts on how to handle it.

Well, so what did i told him exactly? Hmmm i not too sure as i was drunk too. Thus, my words are pretty aggressive on changing his thinking. For example, "break? break lor. Gals only what. So what? I've been single for 4 years ever since Karen and how come i'm still here happy-go-lucky? The pain is not gone, for it is forever there. But nothing's gonna changed even if i were to still be in that sad state. I don't need a gf to survive. Ask them save it up and don't come waste my time." This is how aggressive i'm on emphasising how gals shld be treated when heart-broken. Well, it's not the end of the world but the start of a new begining.

Come to think about what i had said. Am i really like that? Well, i don't know. I leave it to my friends to judge. Anyway, i can't just change anyone's point of view on me, neither would i really care. Might change a bit of my life but not much. =) Coz most ppl know how bad i'm liao. MUAHAHAHAHAAHA~~ =D

Oh well, i had gastric i think.. Constant gastric is no good.. I dun wanna see the doctor leh.. >_< Wait i got time then go pay him a visit.. At least for now, it's minor. Dun worry, i said i'll be glad if i'm able to live until age of 30. Should be able to tahan till then. =)

Hmmm, the shop that is opposite my shop is not moving liao.. Thus, if i were to take control of the accessories shop beside them, i might be changing my job soon. When i wan to think positively, no negative can get to me. When i wan to think negatively, no positive can get to me. But i'm afraid i can't bear to leave.. Sigh.. I hate life sometimes.. Reality bites..


Cubbing at Double-O with Ken(Left) and Mike(Right)


Logitech Promoter at one of our outlet. She is fierce one lor... >.<


My two colleagues at the other branch. JingJing and Kristina. Both also fierce de...


My colleague Kevin. He is also my camp-mate in School of Signals. I dun have his self pic and i promise not to anyhow show ppl this pic thus i had to cut.. ^o^


I dunno who is this. =.= But cute rite? ^o^

Okie lah, enuff of bo liao. I'm intending to get a digital camera.. A slim one rather than a good quality one. Kevin advise me to get Canon FX-series but i see Canon S80 chio leh.. Aiya when i go see i will know which to get. Still awaiting my bonus.. ^^ It's been a long time since i last received a bonus. First time and last time was from my 1st computer company before i went army.. sad.. Who want yang wo~~? lolx. =P Ok then i go play my game liao. bubye~~

Weeee~~

Here i am again, here to post again~~ lolx. i'm crazy, dun care me. =P Yesterday wanted to post but kinda tired thus i didn't. Anyway, lemme start with updates of these few days.

Yesterday morning i tio di siao.. >_< By Angela, the gal opp my shop de. Early in the morning 1st thing that i did is to check my ink cartridges and see if there's any need to top-up from my main branch.. All my ink cartridges are placed near the entrance of my shop. As i was walking over i saw Angela standing near her shop entrance outside the counter leaning her butt by the side against the glass table chatting with Eric who was inside the counter. She was facing our shop. =.= Ok i admit, i took a glance of them. When i was checking my Canon inks, suddenly she told Eric, "Wah, ta zhen de hen shou leh. Bu guo hai hao lah..". She was obviously saying me.. =.= The whole stretch of shops, i'm still the only skinny one. =.= When she passed that remarks, i did not even care to look out to them but i endure trying not to smile.. Simply bo chap.. =P But then, not very comfortable lor.. Really feel like stopping watever i'm doing and walk over to them and say, "Wah, ni zhen de hen da zhi.." Well, she IS big size mah, for a 18-yr-old gal with a 25-yr-old figure and built.. =X Upon thinking this, my mind is full of thoughts of how she gonna react.. Lolx.. Feel like laughing but can't lor.. lolx.. Later she thought otherwise.. haha.. Dun care better.. =P Then today got a guy went into their shop and got her num. Teehee.. Afterall she's a popular one with so many guys eyeing her body. =X

I told mike my planning for the next dbl-o outing and he was scareded.. lolx.. That time that waterfall at dbl-o had made him fall sick(with stomach flu i think) for almost a wk lor.. But this time if we go we each shall ordered a dozen of shots(Neat Tequila i prefered. ^o^) and 3 jugs of different vodka. I presummed there are total of 3 person going, thus, 36 shots and 3 jugs. ^o^ Then after that we play 5-10(hands guessing game which will made one drink fast coz loser will drink one shots). Everyone muz finish their own dozen of shots and if anyone finish shall drink those jugs of vodka, sip by sip with 10 straws of coz! Muahahaha~! Scarli my idea got myself drunk 1st.. =.= But anyway, that will be very fun coz EVERYONE will be drunk very soon. Then the happy-clubbing will start. =) I do not know why but when everyone is drunk, the fun then will start. Of coz with me starting the ball rolling. =P I can't wait till then! >_< But might change the plan to half a dozen coz ken dun really know how to drink neat. Later he got raped then i'm gonna be answerable for it(though he will not lose out if the partner is a gal.. ^o^). Anyway, since the 3 of us not having any gf, it's time for a little wild fun. Somemore without any gals around us would make things easier.. =P But it's true. =) However, if can choose i would still wanted a gf beside me. ^_^ Anyway, not long liao.. hehehe.. *Fingers crossed* =P

The shop CYMAX had been renovated and in a few days time, grand opening is starting. The deco is no diff as eSquare lor.. Crap.. Still say wan a change.. =.= Today, a lot of our printers and LCDs are inside the new shop liao.. The table for displaying Notebooks had been setup and ready to use liao.. I'm so excited yet scared. Coz till now i still do not know wat's the actual planning.. At 1st, they said the planning for 5th floor is, they will be taking up 5 shops and join them up to one(as in breaking the 'walls' or rather partition) and opposite the big shop are 2 shops(also join together). Last but not least, one more shop beside the big shop(1 shop away from the big shop) and will be still linked to the big shop as the back can be broken and link-up.. I show u the floor-plan..



See the big square boxes? The 'new shop' and the shop between 'new shop' and 'my shop' is currently occupied by Laser. HWH is my previous company before i went army. Broken lines indicate to be broken down. 'Laser' and 'new shop' are oredi 2 shops combined into one.. Thus when combined all the grey would be combining 6 shops.. Oppsite us would be combined too.. Grey shop will be selling Notebooks, LCDs, Networks, DIY computers, Softwares and Games(the shop above HWH is a gameshop owned by us), etc. Oppsite will be selling computer accessories like my current shop.. Now the thing is, i dunno would i be placed at grey or orange.. If grey, it would be stressful and exciting. If orange, it gonna be boring.. The previously planning is i would be at grey but i heard that i might be at orange or will be running both.. >_< I'm a human lor.. Everything also wan me to tahan meh? Tahan so much but salary din go up lor.. Somemore might not have off again.. Walao.. But still, working in this company is fun and challenging.. ^_^ Anyway, even if i were to leave, they will not close down lor and anytime i can get approach for other jobs.. Afterall, i had been working in Sim Lim for 5yrs(including the 2yrs before i went army) liao.. =)

Jasmine suddenly called me today and ask me go pei her eat dinner tomorrow nite.. As she wanted to go shopping at Bugis Parco and her bf not free to accompany her.. =.= Spare tire.. lolx.. No lah, yuxiang and jinlun might be coming too. Another childhood gathering dinner. ^o^

I really dun understand why shan said that in my tag lor.. Did i say her? o.O No leh.. I dote on her so much, how would i bear to say her? I would only say her for her own good but not on smoking as i myself is a smoker so i will not say her de.. sigh.. Sad.. sob! But anyway, no matter wat i still will dote on her. Juz like how i dote on 'her'.. Toking abt shan, that time i went to see her at her working place that day. I missed my last bus.. Waited at the bus-stop till abt 1.15am.. Been thinking of lotsa things.. Then suddenly i felt the urge to walk home.. Yes, walk home from Marine Parade to Chinatown. HO EH! Good one lor. But really, i did. i reach home at 4am and the next day i still climb up and go work.. Though with my legs aching lah.. Too long no exercise liao.. hehe.. That walk seriously helped me think things thru.. That's how i'm able to post those words for the mysterious gal which touched her(she told me so..). With the theme song and the power of my words, well, any gals shld be moved.. Anyway, dun think she did moved to tears but anyway, i'm somehow glad when she smsed me and told me that comments.. That indeed bring a smile to my face and my life.. Waiting or not waiting is no longer important. Both of us had matured somehow in a way or another. Wat's meant to be will be. Wat's meant not to be, there's no point having the both of us in suffering. If only all of us can be like shan who can stand up so easily from fallen battles. I'm not one as i'm only putting on a tough front(as wat celena said and she really know me well. a hug for ya *hug* =P). But still, time will tell and heal everything but most impt is still on self.

Anyway, i wan go play my game liao. Nite all. Good luck to those who still studying. ^^ Gambatte ne! Oyasumninasai, minna san~

hmmmm..

Dunno how long ago i came across one of my friend's blog and i saw this



How come i post this out of the blue? Well, recently i've got a friend who told me that if he were to flinch with the same gal always, shld be safer than going around plucking all the roses. Well, how true is this? Upon recalling the advert above, i dun see it as any safe. Nothing is safe. There's always a price to pay. You stick to one, doesn't mean he/she will stick to one. Please pay attention. I did mentioned FLINCH. Not relationships. Well, it's the same to me though... I'm not being introvert even though sometimes i'm one. I'm open as most guys but i do know the risks in whatever things i do. But anyway, that's my personal, private.

Going back a few posts, rmb those 3 gals i mentioned opposite my shop? Joanne, Michelle and Michelle's sis? Yea, the sis is 27 this yr, name i still dunno. And the Michelle is not called Michelle, she is Angela. My colleague, mike, got her num liao. ^^ Though he's more interested in Joanne. He juz confessed today. =P Great minds think alike. lolx. But anyway, i suddenly lost interest totally on both due to the war their boss trying to wage on us. And my boss retaliated.. I'm being crushed in between.. =.= I knew one of their staff named Eric. Dun really wan to spoilt it due to the war of the two bosses... Haiz.. But that's life. I guess i gonna be more aggressive soon on the way i work to make my boss more happy. =.= Afterall, i've got the idea and creative and customer-catching ideas. But that's gonna make me and the opposite more sour than before. But anway i couldn't care less. Becoz sooner or later, their shop will be ours. Due to this war, my attitude had changed towards the gals. I wun even glanced at them as i usually would. Even if i see them straight in the eye, it would be nothng but a cold stare. No more friendly looks from me to them except for Eric. Well, i used to look friendly and approachable. Now, Angela wun even dare to talk to me, let say borrow my broom(she did once shyly and slowly and even tease me asking me to help them sweep =.=). So be it, let it be. Anyway, it's not as if i needed them or something.

My new supplier, Serene, is real cute. She showed me her Ipod Nano Silicon Case. Upon seeing that i ordered 10pcs each of the 5 different colours. She happy sia. =.= Then she learnt that i'm from ATF, she kinda shocked. Coz her company had longed to do business with us.. However, in getting sales with ATF is hard. Let's see how she fare. But anyway, i called her office-hp regarding the change of destination of delivery of goods then the next day she called me back using her personal hp. =.= We even smsed a while on personal stuffs. She's 23 this yr, attached, medium-length slight brown hair, face ok rather decent with a bit of rabbit's tooth(Jason like it best for a certain purpose.. =X), figure normal expected to be a B-cup due to the low-cut everything she wore. =.= She doesn't go clubbing anymore(even if her bf ask her to go) and she's a casual smoker(i dun like gals who smoke but ok lor i also dun mind Erica & shan mah). Asked her a few times go clubbing but were turned down flat.. =( However, she ask me out for lunch but too bad i lunch-in. What a pity.. Sigh.. Then she also did ask me go for dinner but my dinner time is forever so late.. >_< In the end, we decided that everytime she comes SLS she would jio me go smoke. ^o^ At last, got a gal to smoke with at work. Not to mention Erica, she only comes once in a blue moon. As for Serene, she came at least once a wk. =P But anyway, we are juz friends. I'm not used to breaking up couples. =)

Wah today i got good-hair-day. Happy! =D It's been a long time liao.. >_<>_<>_< But anyway, i had yet to learn how to make the back part of my hair... Wah lao i seriously need to go Chapter 2 for my shade, 2-toned-colour-dye, cut and advice. Dunno next mth can go or not.. =.=

Jason is getting shaky. Not him but his relationship with his super chio gf.. Things doesn't look good lately. Though he show a dun-care-but-care-a-bit-attitude, afterall, she had stayed in his place for 2yrs+ liao. His mum oredi look her upon her daughter-in-law liao.. Juz like mike who had broke off with his 5yrs-relationship gf.. Life is so full of surprises. But anyway, i keep my fingers crossed and prepare a bit more money.. Coz if jason and his gf broke off, he definitely ask me and mike go chiong de.. Then can see the old him liao. Few gf a wk.. Soon, every single gals in SLS also his ex.. =P But not possible lah, most of them not his taste. But the two gal opp my shop he's interested. He's wanting for them to get hitched 1st though then he strike. That's the fun of it. =P When no one is interested in something, it seems boring. When someone owned it, there's a challenge. That's wat he taught me. =) Though i haven't used it but used it as a lesson learnt in life. =D

Okay that's all for today. i try to post again. =)

>_<

I'm so not used to staying at home doing nothing.. I'm on mc today. Early in the morning fever, temp shot up to 38.4 degree.. =.=" Whole body become weak sia, no strength at all.. Plus my head seems heavier than before due to headache.. Felt a whiole lump of phlem in my throat but no matter how i cough and sneeze, it wun come out.. My voice turn coarse also.. >_< Actually still thinking of going work de but i give it a pass coz i knew, tons of ppl gonna come nag and scream at me for that.. hehe.. I shall take a rest today.

Juz visited the doc and he gave me 2 days mc for today and tomorrow but i tell him i only need one day.. I say liao i'm not used to not working.. It's not abt workaholic but i juz can't abandon my responsibility of taking care of the job.. It's juz like how Carisa had to work OT almost the entire mth juz becoz she wan to commit. Or rather bo bian? Juz like shan who need to work until late night juz becoz of those paperwork had to be done before she can knock off at 3am..

Everyone's job and way of working are different from one another.. If a person doesn't came across that situation, he/she will not be able to picture that.. But anyway, doesn't really matters much.. =)

I've got quite a few things i wanna say but i dunno why i juz can't spell it or say it out.. Juz like how i unable to say from the bottom of my heart even though i really wan to.. This is juz like the 1st incident which i was 'Kai Bu Liao Kou' to her years ago.. Now another appeared.. Shld i really stick to my principle and mindset and belief..? That "Friendship last a lifetime, RS doesn't. At least that's what i believe.." Sigh.. Anyway, she wun get to know abt that.. =) Dun come ask me who was it lor.. I really dun wanna make that move. Let me dangling there in mid-air doing nothing.. Time will tell everything de. I always tell everyone this though.. Coz it's a fact. hehe..

Ok i'm getting sleepy liao due to the med... I wan go koon le.. Maybe tonite blog again if i'm not tired... Cya all..

i'm sorry . . . .

I'm sorry, gal. i never meant to hurt you this way. Please forgive my stupidity and insensitivity.. I merely care abt my mind, not sparing a thought for you at all. Sincerely i've regretted what i've done, said and mentioned.. It's my bad. I'm a bad guy. I'm even worth to be called a Friend to you.. =( I'm a nobody who only knows how to talk and write nonsenses.. I dare not ask you to forgive me entirely. I'm sorry.

It was me who got the wishful thinking. It's all wat i think but not the actual thing. How did i get all these? In case you do not know. That time at Devil's Bar u saw me and Carisa seems so close and i learnt from Jenny that u are kind of unhappy abt that. Well, seriously do not know wat's got into u that time coz there's nothing going on between me and her.. That gave me the thoughts abt u. Okay, it's my bad coz i did not follow-up on wat's going on.. I'm sorry.

You enjoyed my company, and seriously me too when we go club. It's my bad that i gotten the wrong idea. It's all my fault. I'm sorry.

I felt utterly uncomfortable when i was told that you are kind of hurt. I promise, i will never do it again. Never ever again. If i can't do that, i would be struck by lightning. I swear. I'm sorry.

Again, gal. I Weixing sincerely apologised to you for all that i've did to you. I'm sorry.

It's been a long time. ^o^

Firstly, i apologise for lesser and lesser postings.. I've got lotsa things to post always.. I need to get a PDA fone.. I'm targetting O2 Mini. MP3 player, Phone, Organiser, Notepad(for immediate thoughts for blogging..), msn messenger(even if i'm playing game i can still logon all the while..), etc.. Need it badly.. sigh..

Anyway, brought to you a new skin which i love it myself.. And also a new song, Hu Yan Bing - Waiting for you.. Dunno why, when i heard this song 1st time at Cabana that day when i go find nicole, i find it nice..

Too many things to be blog.. Well, this gonna be another long blog...

Updates
Work - As u ppl know. I'm working 7 days a week. Not for the money but for the commitments to the company and my job. Working hrs are long and stressful too abt sales.. However, i've got wonderful colleagues. New clubbing kakis.. ^_^ New gaming kakis.. ^_^ New gals for me to tease.. ^o^

Self - I'm still single, not looking but beo-ing.. =P My shop is at 5th floor of SLS and opp my shop there's a shop selling inks. There are total of 3 gals in there. One malaysian and rest singaporeans. The malaysian is 22-yr-old, height abt 1.6m, not too skinny not too plump(though can see a little tire.. =P), figure is normal(estimated to be a A-cup by me =P), face not bad quite cute, black hair tied up neatly into a little pony-tail when let down it's slightly behind shoulder(when she let down her hair she looks very nice ^^). Name is Joanne, i think.. =P The younger singaporean is 18-yr-old(she doesn't look like she's 18 lor, machiam 24 or so..), height abt 1.7m, not too skinny not too plump but her tire is very clear lor, face is average, her figure is good(estimated to be a C-cup claimed by my colleague, michael & edmund), Long hair let down with natural wave and slight gold stripes, voice is coarse... =.= very coarse.. Name is Michelle, i think.. The older singaporean is dunno wat age, looks like sister of the younger singaporean, height abt 1.7m, slightly plump, face is below average, figure is normal, medium black slightly curly hair. Name is... I dunno... =P

Game - I'm playing RF rite now. Also known as Fantasy & Romance. I also dunno why it's called RF instead of FR. =P Anyway, it's an online RPG. Almost the same as A3 but it more like Lineage II. At times there are still lags in game but the graphics are very nice.. The server is based in Taiwan, thus, everyone is speaking chinese. Only a few is speaking in english. I'm in a clan/guild which is made by many of my colleagues.. A good thing is everyday also got ppl to tok to. At least no KIDS in there. They are very helpful to me too even if i'm a new player.. We juz had a major update to version 5 giga. This game consist of 18 giga i think.. It's gonna be a long game.. Every mth i paid S$20 for the credit. Quite ok lah, at least i will everyday guai guai go home play game. Save money instead of going clubbing more often.. =P

Regarding to my comments on BI on celly's blog, well, i seriously do believe that gals are really much better than guys.. At least i've came across a lot who are even better than me in treating gals rite.. Well, good guys nowadays are hard to come by.. Ke yu bu ke qiu.. I've seen too many bad guys.. I myself is a classic example. =) How bad am i? Too many bad things to mention liao.. sigh.. Toying with a gal's feeling is bad but it's fun.. Really fun.. How long have i not been fooling around liao..? Hmm.. Ever since Karen.. Watever it is, it's all in the past. Did i mentioned abt an email teaching how to woo gals? Well, in it there's a lot of info.. Example is "How to let a gal call you instead of you calling her for a chat or invitation to go on a date". Lotsa of things to learn in there but i've lost the webby liao. Anyway, playing pyschology game is the fun thing. My colleague, jason, call it FISHING. When you doing fishing, you had to reel-in and let loose. Same applies to hooking gals. Well, it's hard to describe without actions and i also dunno how to get the picture into words.. Anyway, i see Celly as a little fish struggling for her suivival.. sigh.. Watever it is, everyone have to make his/her own decision based on their heart, their mind and their soul.. A third person saying something can be dangerous.. =.= Thus, thou shall say no more..

That day i went to see shan, learning her situation, i really dunno wat to tell her.. Can't possibly tell her to break off with her bf directly. To me or to her, seems nothing but it's actually a big different to others. People see it as me trying to sink the ship so that i can board it.. =( That's human nature, i leave it at that.. She said she wanted to know wat would i do if i'm her.. This naughty gal learn real fast from me... She is a bright gal who can make her own decision and see for herself.. Though i've said it, i still wanna say it again, "Tian ta xia lai hai you wo zai.." =) Who ask me dote on u so much. hehe =P Actually i wanted to give u use my new starhub line de but you wanted to buy a new hp.. haiz.. =P Michelle had become one of my closest sms pal sia.. She even comes to me asking for advices when she encounter some prob.. I'm glad that she did though.. Coz i love being approached, it shows that at least i'm still got some use when i'm still alive... Erm.. btw, this michelle is not that michelle opp my shop one.. =) I'm kinda a bit worried abt her hp bill though.. She's still studying mah, later she cannot handle.. =/ I know she wun blame me but i'm.. haiz.. =(

Xuehui had been hu len hu re to me.. Makes me so turn off.. But anyway, it doesn't really matters much.. Less a person to care makes no diff to me.. Dun get me wrong, there's absolutely nothing going on between me and her. Even though i gave her 2 tickets to Xue Lang Hu(not very exp, though i'm broke) by Jacky.. That time i was asked to bring her go to the concert, treating it as a bday gift to her.. That time i wasn't working yet, still having my holidays from work.. Thus, i promised her.. In the end, things got worse on my side.. I was unable to take even half day leave on the sat for the concert thus i ask her to drag her sis go.. Was kinda reproached for me not having the time to go.. haiz.. So be it.. Anyway, she happy can le...

Ruyou last wk bought a MP3 player, so happy until she went Bugis with her friends and asked me to meet them coz she wanted to show me her new toy.. =P Siao char bo.. hehe.. When i saw the player, i told her i knew the distributor for that product and she was kind of sad as well as agitated plus a bit excited.. =P Coz my price shld be lower.. At least i can get special price direct mah.. hehe =P Anyway, she looks a bit diff. Think she go do her hair.. Looks more womanly liao.. teehee.. But then, i also gotten my 'hiao-ness' from her so i can't talk much abt her 'hiao-ness'.. keke =D Yesterday chatted with her a little on sms. Suddenly she said that i got chance.. =.= Dun suddenly drop my heart lor.. Scary de leh.. Later i cannot take it.. lolx. =P Ever since the gal from SLS gave me that bad incidence, i'm kind of scared of such liao.. >_< For Ruyou, it's juz that i dun feel that i deserved any chance or stuff. I'm oredi contented that i've a friend like her rather than that Danlin who dunno disappear to where liao.. oops! =X Dun worry, i wun run away. I'll still try my best to organise majong sessions for u if time permits for all. You are not scary at all lor. hehe =P Still, even i organise liao u still gotta emerge into the mood with my friends.. If not, everyone will feel awkward.. Anyway u so talkative and cute, can one lah. =P

Long time no see Erica liao.. That day she suddenly come drop by my shop with her cute friend, Val. =D Muz be went to see her bf who is working at 1st floor of SLS then shun bian come see me and jio me go smoke.. =P But anyway, i'm glad that actually there are still ppl who come drop by juz to say hi.. =) I thought i was forgotten liao ever since she got hitched.. =P Anyway, she still look the same as before. =) except that not so violent anymore.. Muz be my friend's taming skill. =P

Last sat i super not free sia.. Went Momo Bay and DBL-O in a night. =.=" But no choice lah.. have to go Momo.. I still gotta rush to dbl-o thus i left them early at abt 12.40am.. I oredi promised Ken & Mike that i'll be there and ken is super bored there coz mike dun have the mood to dance.. He kept msging me and asking me to quick go find them.. haha.. I was oredi quite high when i left Momo due to drinking too fast only those powerful drinks, somemore i'm drinking glass by glass and not sip by sip.. When i met up with the guys, haven't even started drinking i'm oredi dancing and leading them on my moves and making them happy by teasing those gals around us.. =P I'm so daring that day.. I haven't seen myself so daring before.. That finishing up the jug of Vodka Lime, we proceed to the dancefloor immediately.. I even asked them if they wanna do a little 'fishing'.. lolx.. But too bad, there wasn't any 'standard' gals around us at the dancefloor.. hehe =P But me and ken definitely had fun pushing mike to gals who squeeze pass him.. teehee.. =D Ken really enjoyed himself very much that nite. =)

Going such places really not suitable to bring partners.. Jason is rite abt this. Reason is becoz we wun enjoy as much if we bring gf/bf.. But if i can choose i still prefer having a gf to dance with me.. =) Well, let it be. I'm asking for much. I got clubbing kakis and can have fun together can le... Have or dun have gf doesn't really matters to me.. It's been a long long time ever since i last got hitched..

Though that mysterious gal did bring me back a little feeling.. Happy moments are short but forever etched in the heart to keep.. Those were the days that i can feel that i can give up everything.. Game, clubbing or even smoking.. I thought of smoking is becoz i dun like to be near to her after smoking coz i know it doesn't smell nice at all. I'm a smoker afterall.. When i go out with her, i dun really want to smoke even though she said she doesn't mind at all(she's such a considerate person..) but i still dun wan to even though the craving is there.. Coz if i dun smoke, i feel more comfortable staying close to her.. Real close.. Ah.. My memories back again... Oh well, nothing to be sad about.. =) At least i once had her in my heart to be the most impt person on earth and vice versa.. For that, i'm oredi glad with it.. =) Though my heart is still having a little feel like that of my theme song.. Ke yu bu ke qiu, shun qi zi ran bah.. However, i'm a stupid insensitive guy in such.. I wun know even though she wanted to hint me that i can start wooing her.. sigh.. Then somemore she's like "if u can find a gal u like, go ahead for it. dun have to worry abt me.." >_< When a person is too good, sometimes also cannot take it.. But watever lah, time will tell everything.. Maybe you yuan wu fen bah.. Ren zai jiang hu, shen bu you ji, dan ren wang wang bu you zi ji... "Waiting for you, i'm waiting for you, waiting for you, come into my dreams(life).." Taking it up and putting it down is part of life.. Watever it is, i let it be.. If i really find another gal who can really touch my heart, i'll go for it.. I know i will have ur blessing whole-heartedly even though it would mean pressing ur heart.. Remember that we are of a kind. So, that will be the same for me to you.. I know you will read this.. =) Let's move on with life instead of stranded in the same spot.. I'll hold ur hand and move on, be it as a friend or not.. =) Cheers.

Everyone in heart had a song that leads me to him/her.. For example, whenever i heard Tong Hua, memories of shan came to me.. Whenever i heard Ai Heng Jian Dan, memories of Winjean came to me.. Whenever i heard Kai Bu Liao Kou, memories of a mysterious gal(this one is not the recent one, she's a long ago one whom i dun even wan to let her know that i've fallen for her..) came to me.. Whenever i heard Zhang Huimei's Happy Birthday i recall Siti, coz she really sing very well for that song(even though she's a half malay half chinese but her chinese is good. might be even better than me.. =P).. Whenever i heard An Jing, memories of Karen came to me.. Got quite a few i can't recall now.. For the mysterious gal, i guess it would be Dao Dai sung by Jay Chou(not jolin)..

Okie i shall stop here.. Pretty tired.. My sweet dreams are waiting for me.. lolx =P Oh ya, shan might be leaving for Thailand as her company is opening an outlet there.. She might be going though.. But anyway, it's gonna be her decision coz it's gonna be her future.. No friends there in a foreign place is indeed scary, somemore got language barrier.. But i believe she can cope well if she intend to go. I'll gladly welcome her when she comes back for holidays once a while. I'll definitely take off to go out with her.. Even though in sg if she request, i would still do the same. =) Gtg liao. take care all. ^o^

Fantastic!!

Juz finsihed watching Final Fantasy VII – Advent Children… SHIOK!! Damn if this show is coming to Singapore, I’ll definitely wan to watch it again with full effects and quality in cinema!! It’s so touching.. Bringing me back to those days when I’m playing Final Fantasy VII. It’s like a series to that game.. If I didn’t play that game at all, I would not have understand and not being able to feel the show.. No matter wat, I simply love Final Fantasy VII among all… This show is definitely the BEST CG animation I’ve ever watched in my life, even the previous Final Fantasy Unlimited can’t fight the power of attraction of this show..

Cloud Strife is the best-looking guy in the show. Main lead is always main lead.. So cool and his smiles will definitely melt any gals’ heart if he’s real..

Tifa Lockhart is the cutest gal in the show. She’s so real, so beautiful..

Aeris is the most beautiful and pure gal in the show.. She’s so holy, so angelic.. Even after losing her life to the dark, she is still inside the planet protecting everyone living on it juz like a mother to all..

Yuffie Kisaragi is the most hyper gal in the show. Forever so active, and cute too.

Vincent Valentine is the most mysterious guy in the show. Cool and doesn’t want to talk much. He’s one of my fave char in game too..

Danzel is the cutest little boy in the show. Not too sure abt his relationship with Cloud or Tifa.. In the show, Barret ask him to take care of his mom(meaning Tifa).. Is he Tifa’s son? Whose the dad? Cloud? All is mystery coz this guy is not in game..

I can’t find individual pics from the web.. I will host them once I gotten them.. Oh man, really feel like watching it once again.. Though I juz finished it abt 15min ago.. Now I’m at the main website of Final Fantasy VII – Advent Children, thus it’s playing the background music right now.. >_< href="http://www.square-enix.co.jp/dvd/ff7ac/">http://www.square-enix.co.jp/dvd/ff7ac/

Hmmm, shan called me yesterday nite at abt 4am and she was crying real badly.. Wat the hell was going on…? I dunno a thing.. She said her bf beat her and she is in great pain and bleeding too.. The next thing I asked her where is she now, she immediately replied that she is with a friend now.. Then she hang up in a while.. After she hang up, I totally can’t get myself to slp.. Think I took at least at hour before I went back to my slump and woke up at 6am, 7am, 8am and finally 9am… Whole day at work I totally lost my mood to work.. When I got no customers for me to serve, I’m totally look as if I’m so depressed. Can’t even smile a bit even though there are 2 cute gals at opp my shop.. Worried sick but I guess I juz have to endure a bit more.. Coz tml, I mean today, after work I’ll be going to ECP to look for her and wait for her to off work.. Since she’s not working on Wed, we can chat till late or even till 1st light the next day.. Even though I still need to go for work, I also wan to learn the truth.. If not I really can’t slp and eat well.. Haiz..

Come to think of this, I suddenly had a question.. “Why do guys kept going back to their ex-gf?” My colleague, Jason, gave me a great insight.. When courting a gal, have to put in a lot efforts to get her. When courting an ex, dun have to put so much effort and it’s as easy as ABC. Ok, that is for him only. Coz no matter which ex-gf(well he got tons of them, he himself lost count) of his, simply a word from him, they will definitely nod in agreement. Easy catch for him, juz a fone call will do the trick. Easy to catch means cheap? No need to be so expensive? That I do not know. Well 70% of guys are only after one thing, which is sex. Ok this is my theory and estimation. Well I do not know exactly but friends around me, 90% are in the 70% category.. I’m not normal compared to them, coz I dun wan to, not I’m scared.. 30 minutes of pleasure leads to 10 months of pain leads to Wedding leads to Suffering. =.=

Bah I’m going back to my game to do something then I’m gonna go slp liao.. Tml is gonna be a long long day and nite for me.. Nite all..

Moody, Cloudy yet Calm.

Put my fave song into my blog again.. Haha.. That time Karen suddenly ask me in msn, "Oh after been so long, u still listening to this song ah?" Yeah, it's kinda old and long time ever since dunno when.. Haha..

Maybe it's time that i reveal a bit of insights.. I never mention this to anyone before.. It's abt inside me, my mind and my soul before things turn sour between me and the mysterious gal and before i go back reservist...

That night we went out together for a show and after that we were going to another place to meet up with her friend before we proceed to our destination.. Our relation is already pretty close then, but we were not attached.. Even though that day it had been quite sometime ago, it still lingered in my brain and i sensed it as if it's juz yesterday, so vividly in my mind.. The feeling is so real, so close yet so far.. Her hands are so smoothing, her hair smells so good and soft, her fragrance is so charming, her looks is so sweet.. However, who knows, that very day was the start of change of me.. The desire, the jealousy, the uncertainty...

The Uncertainty - I do not know how long can we be like this till the day we can be officially.. What made these drive into me? I'm not the kind who would rush.. It's all becoz of another person.. She touches my heart and moved me all out of a sudden..

The Jealousy - Someone whom i do not know, came close to her as what i seems to see.. He juz came, claiming he dropped by juz to see his friends. Hmm, though that doesn't seems normal to me, coz i would do the same thing giving the same reason.. Juz sitting at 1st floor all the way till all of us leaving the place.

The Desire - Basically my uncertainty add on to my jealousy which implant me with the desire..

This is bad, coz i'm like a changed person towards her.. Though as usual she wun say a single thing abt it, the more she behaves this way, the more worst i becoming.. Sigh, in the end, that's it for the two of us. It's a One-Way-Ticket-With-No-Return. I jeopardized my own future with my own hands..

Give-and-take is easy said than done. Giving too much; taking too little, is no good. Taking too much; give too little, is no good.

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I gotten these from my inbox.. lolx.. interesting.. =P


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You will never succeed by looking for approval. Women actually get ANNOYED at men who seek their approval.
Doubt me? Just ask any attractive woman if Wussy guys who chase her around and want her approval annoy her...

MISTAKE #4: Trying To Buy Her Affection With Food And Gifts
How many times have you taken a woman out to a nice dinner, bought her gifts and flowers, and had her REJECT you for someone who didn't treat her even HALF as well as you did?
If you're like me, then you've had it happen a LOT.
Well guess what?
It's only NATURAL when this happens...
That's right, I said NATURAL.
When you do these things, you send a clear message:
"I don't think you'll like me for who I am, so I'm going to try to buy your attention and affection". Your good intentions usually come across to women as over-compensation for insecurity, and weak attempts at manipulation. That's right, I said that women see this as MANIPULATION.

MISTAKE #5: SharingHow You Feel Too Early InThe Relationship With Her
Another huge and unfortunate mistake that most men make with women is sharing how they "feel" too early on.
Attractive women are rare.
And they get a LOT of attention from men.
Most men don't realize this, but attractive women are being approached in one way or another ALL THE TIME.
An attractive woman is often approached several times a DAY by men who are interested. This translate into dozens of times per week, and often HUNDREDS of times per month.
And guess what?
Attractive women have usually dated a LOT of men.
That's right. They have EXPERIENCE.
They know what to expect.
And one thing that turns an attractive women off and sends her running away faster than just about anything is a guy who starts saying "You know, I really, REALLY like you" after one or two dates.
This signals to the woman that you're just like all the other guys who fall for her too fast... and can't control themselves.
Don't do it. Lean back. Relax.
There's a much better way...

MISTAKE #6: Not Getting How Attraction Works For Women
Women are VERY different from men when it comes to ATTRACTION.
You need to accept this fact, and deal with it.
When a man sees a beautiful, young, sexy woman, he INSTANTLY feels a sexual attraction.
But does the same apply for women?
Do women feel sexual attraction to men based mostly on looks? Or is something else going on?
Well, after studying this topic for over five full years now, I can tell you that women usually have their "attraction mechanisms" triggered by things OTHER than looks.
Have you ever noticed that you see a lot more average and unattractive men with beautiful women than the other way around?
Think about it.
Women are more attracted to certain qualities in men... and they're attracted to the way a man makes them FEEL than they are to looks alone.
If you know how to use your body language and communication correctly, you can make women feel the same kind of powerful sexual attraction to you that YOU feel when you see a hot, sexy young woman.
But it's not an accident. You have to LEARN how to do this.
And ANY guy can learn how...

MISTAKE #7: Thinking That ItTakes Money And Looks
One of the most common mistakes that guys make is giving up before they've even gotten started... because they think that attractive women are only interested in men who have looks and money... or guys who are a certain height... or guys who are a certain age.
And sure, there are some women who are only interested in these things.
But MOST women are far more interested in a man's personality than his wallet or his looks.
There are personality traits that attract women like a magnet...
And if you learn what they are and how to use them, YOU can be one of these guys.
YOU DO NOT have to "settle" for a woman just because you aren't rich, tall, or handsome.
Let me say this again: If you know how to use your body language and communication correctly, you can make women feel the same kind of powerful sexual attraction to you that YOU feel when you see a hot, sexy young woman.

MISTAKE #8: Giving AwayAll Of Your Power To Women
Earlier I mentioned that it's a mistake to look to a woman for approval or permission.
Well, another similar tactic that a lot of guys use is GIVING AWAY THEIR POWER to women.
Said differently, guys try to get women to like them by doing whatever the woman wants.
Another bad idea...
Women are NEVER attracted to men that they can walk all over... Women aren't attracted to Wussies!

MISTAKE #9: Not Knowing EXACTLY What To Do In EachType Of Situation With Women
Now I'm going to blow your mind...
A woman ALWAYS knows what you're thinking.
Women are approximately TEN TIMES better than men at reading body language. That's ten TIMES.
I know, it might be hard to believe. But for example, if you're out on a date with a woman, and you want to kiss her, she knows it.
And if you don't know exactly what to do and exactly HOW to kiss her, and you just sit there looking at her and getting nervous, she won't help!
And this goes for ALL aspects of women and dating...
Approaching a woman, getting her number, asking her out, kissing her, getting physical... everything.
If you don't know what to do in each situation, you will probably screw it up... and LOSE EVERYTHING.
And you KNOW it.
It is VITALLY important that you know EXACTLY how to go from one step to the next with a woman... from the first meeting, all the way to the bedroom.

MISTAKE #10: Not Getting HELP
This is the biggest mistake of all.
This is the mistake that keeps most men from EVER having the kind of success with women that they truly want.
I know, guys don't like to make themselves look weak or helpless. We don't like to ask for help.
Hey, I've been there myself.
Let me tell you a little about me and how I figured out how to be successful with women...
About five years ago I became fed up with the fact that I didn't know how to approach, meet, and get dates with women that I was attracted to.
It frustrated the hell out of me.
One night I was out with a friend, and I saw a woman I wanted to ask out, but I just couldn't get up the nerve to do it. I can still remember that night... right on the spot I made the decision to do whatever it took to learn how to be successful with women and dating.
Well, after a lot of hard work and trying all kinds of crazy things, I finally figured it all out.
I can now approach just about any woman and get her number almost instantly. I've dated models, I've dated actresses, and I've dated nice, normal, regular girls as well.
It has been a very rewarding experience. I no longer feel that sick, insecure feeling... like I don't know how to meet women... and I might wind up alone.
I know that anytime, anywhere, I can go out and meet attractive women.
I've written a book on the topic, and I've done seminars on both coasts of the United States... and taught tens of thousands of men all around the world.


Oh well, rather crappy yet interesting. haha.. At least something noted. =) Anyway, it doesn't really matter at all to me. Coz i dun have time for one. So, dun waste my time. =P Okie, back to my gaming, cya peeps. =)

PS: Any comments on the post? I welcome any. lolx =P