Dun think Ling knows who is Ching.. Or maybe she got the idea that she did had a younger sister.. When Ching was born, Ling was only 2yrs old.. Xing had thought of looking for his long-lost sis.. But he had no clue where to look for.. Victor doesn’t says a thing.. Neither Tee mention.. It’s a small world but it’s not really that small when such thing occurs..

Most of the time, Xing is living with his grandparents coz Victor & Tee could hardly survive with carrying Ling around.. So, whenever there’s chance of going to stay with them, even though it’s for a little while, Xing would still wanna go.. Despite his grandparents treating him very good.. Buy him everything that he wanted.. When he wanted a new box of crayons for K1 opening, his granny will just buy for him.. When he wanted a new bag and pencil case, his granny will just buy for him.. He just dun appreciated all that’s given.. It’s as if they owe him.. Life’s like that.. Only when it’s gone or abt to be gone then a person will start to appreciate.. By the time it’s too late..

Xing’s thoughts: I will always treasure and cherish what i have. By treating everyday as if it’s the last day, as if it’s Armageddon.. Kept reminding myself that.. Do what i want to do with no regrets.. You will never know when it’ll ends. Coz life’s unpredictable..

Due to heavily in debts, Victor is afraid to go work, becoz if those people were to see him, he’s gonna be dead meat.. Therefore, Tee started working as a part-time waitress for banquet dinner.. She work just to make ends meet.. It must be tough on her.. Well, Victor doesn’t purposely got in debts.. He’s a high-paying worker but it’s an odd job that he’s doing.. If there’s no ships coming in, it will mean no work.. You can’t have the best of both worlds.. That’s the way of life.. By taking loans, he can easily clear it off by pay day.. However, it’s an unpredictable job he’s doing.. And the interest is high.. Sigh.. Anyway, he did it partially for the family.. Can’t blame him for that.. He’s really a nice person..

Victor finally found a flat at ABC market, near the current Queensway IKEA.. Xing started studying at Alexandra Hill Primary School.. There’ll be a bus taking him to and fro. Sometimes he would return home after school since it’s so near his sch.. There was once there’s a bookfair at school and Victor gave Xing $5.00 for him to buy books he like. And Xing’s auntie gave him $10.00 also for him to buy books.. At the fair he bought a few books and left with $5.00 but when he reached home he was questioned by his auntie on why he did not said he was already given $5.00. It was a small issue.. Xing reach for his pocket to take out the green colour $5.00 note to explain that even though he did not said anything, he did not anyhow spent.. But, Xing can’t find it in his pocket.. Everyone says Xing is lying.. Gotten whacked to seek the truth outta him but still, Xing repeat himself but nothing seems to get into their head… Absolutely none believed him.. Even his granny.. Even his parents.. It was a Friday..

Xing’s thoughts: I’m telling the truth and yet no one believes me.. Why would there be a need to tell a lie for such small issue..? I was taught that by telling the truth of the things I did wrong will not caused my life. But with the fact that no one understands me.. It’s as good as being dead.. 1^st time ever thought of living the world, 1^st time feeling that no point living on when there’s no one to believe me.. And somemore it’s my closest people around me who doubted me..

A week had passed since that incident and life’s goes on for Xing.. He had changed a little more introvert ever since then.. No point saying things since no one will believe a word anyway.. Then on Friday after school, as usual Xing returns home punctually.. When he change into his home wear, the $5.00 note drop out from his sch shorts and his granny saw it.. Xing din say much nor bother to explain much.. He’s just hate of being wrongly accused.. This incident forever etched deep inside him and no one knows abt it..

Xing is indeed quite a bright boy.. That yr in primary one he came in position 7 in class and felt quite satisfied with his performance.. He expected to welcome praises when he break the news.. However, no one did.. Victor said he is useless, only gotten 7^th place. Uncles and Aunties did say anything either..

Xing’s thoughts: I thought I did my best just to get a little recognition, some praises, little bit of appreciations, little bit of love.. Just a little would do.. But nothing.. Am I seriously that useless and worthless…? I just need a little bit, is that too much to ask of..? I doesn’t felt loved at all.. Maybe I shouldn’t come into this world in the 1^st place..

That was not the only painful memory for primary 1.. As all of us know, wat to be expected from a 7yr-old kid.. Well, Xing loves fun. Sitting on the sch bus at the backseat is the most fun experience.. Becoz whenever there’s humps, he will go up, bouncing up.. How fun.. Haha.. However, the people always seized the seats and told Xing to go away.. He can only sit alone and enjoy the fun alone when the rest had gotten down.. But he is still happy, at least he had a chance to try.. Even though he is alone…

Not only that, there was another incident. The sch field is big and there are buildings near the end of the field. Those buildings are deserted.. There’s a myth that ghosts lurk in there.. At night they would roam freely in there.. At the 1^st floor u can see a table in one of the unit and there’s a glass bottle in there.. Heard that if u knock over the bottle, the ghosts will be furious and will haunt u down.. Xing dun believe in such things so he is up to some mischief again.. He took a rock and threw it into the house and hit the bottle down… When he is on his way back home in the sch bus, ppl kept telling him to go home and pray hard.. Then they started telling him scary things.. He wasn’t supposed to be afraid until at night.. There’s a knock on the door and he opened it but see no one.. Granny says there’s no knocks at all.. Now, he’s afraid and he’s crying.. Granny took him to see some sensei and finally calm him down.. Till date it still gave him the chills.. Even after request for a transfer of sch..

Upon graduation, Xing is being transferred to Keng Seng Primary School and the 1^st friend he made is Jinlun aka JL, who stays at blk 137 while Xing’s staying with granny at blk 136 at Alexandra Road. When Xing’s at previous sch, he had no friends at all.. This is his 1^st friend..

Synopsis: Upcoming childhood life of Xing..

PS: Sorry abt previous synopsis. It was a bad one.. Anyway, just stay tuned. All these are based on true stories, some never told, some never mentioned. It’s gonna be complete collection of Xing’s memory. Got asked why do I blog.. Well, I might not have the chance to. Life’s unpredictable.. Anyway, there’s a lot of unspoken truths.. Xing is not that simple neither complicated as he can be.. More yet to come, 25yrs ain’t living for nothing.. If Xing’s life were to be a movie, it would be an interesting one. Haha..