A fruitful day

Wat a long day today.. Early morning went buy stocks then delivery to west coast then boss went lunch haven't sign cheque yet thus proceed to tua for another delivery then back again for cheque..

Report timely even got time to clean car a bit.. Lolx.. Dropped my nokia and now cannot "talk".. =.=

After work pick up dawn from vivo then go golden cafe to eat.. Headed to whale to support cindy a little.. Quite a normal place but why so many waitress sia..

Before sending dawn home, met up celine for a smoke.. Reached home ard 5.30am and realised i'm so damn hungry.. Maggied then now blog a little ba.. Haha.. Tired..

In fact, thought of sending celine home also as she work till 6am and no need to slp liao coz have to go work almost immediately... But she said she can handle.. Silly.. I working 4pm lor....

While at golden cafe seeing xiao ling from afar, her new style really made her look like her... Can't help kept looking at her while she talking to cust at outside... Sigh.. Missing piece.. Nothing but a memory..

Quite stun by cindy also.. Think she's a bit drunk liao..

So that's the place... Last time sassy bar... Memories.. Haiz.. So familiar yet so unfamiliar.. Mixed feelings..

Shit lah its the beer effect... Sorry it's not that i wanna emo de.. Today too much memories like adrenline rush.. Okok if u dun emo i will not emo ok.. =)

She's like last time karen, strive so hard becoz of a future.. =) I'm always a pillar support for independent.. I'm looking towards 2012 ok? A little break and i'll try to make it fulfilling to mark ur day ok? =)

Heard this song 我的回忆不是回忆。。。I think so bah.. Will try host it when i wakey.. =)

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礼物

I damn like that song. Freak. So darn emo. Or rather it's more of comforting of giving up than emo-ing.. Somehow or rather, connected.. =.= ironic..

Has it started? Different views already?Dun think it's the paranormal effect.. Hmm.. Anyway, doesn't really matters anymore. New lease. Time to let go.. =) anyway, it's juz another footprint. Lolx

Shocked by her today.. =.= Despite that, the smile is there.. =) Not once but twice... Haha.. Looking forward to the day. If really take leave ah, i die die also will take even if its gonna be a wkend.. =D

Wings are no longer needed. Perhaps another direction bah.. Nabeiz this is so Aion. Lolx kinda addictive haha..

Sometimes telling the truth is so fake, telling the fake is so true.

Therefore,
The truth has to be fake.
The fake has to be true.


Ya, i love you. =)

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刘力扬 - 礼物

终于可以在今天划上句点

一整夜翻阅过去画面

快想不起我们为何会诀别

只看到那双你送的鞋

走一步又一步

我才发现绕了个圈

走了好几年

又回到原点

你送的礼物会不会太特别

毫不避讳那不安的传言

但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉

难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴

陪我回忆把过往走一遍

穿了这些年难免会有污点

就像每段爱总会有终点

世上最残酷的恐怕是时间

困住人一切却还向前

干涸的眼再挤不出一点咸

爱到如此可悲的境界

走一步又一步

却跟不上你的脚步

你满意了

为什么我却只想要哭

你送的礼物会不会太特别

毫不避讳那不安的传言

但渐行渐远习惯到没感觉

难道你早想要我走远

你送的礼物在此刻好体贴

陪我回忆把过往走一遍

穿了这些年难免会有污点

就像每段爱总会有终点

你说做自己吧

我们都做回自己

不要再为爱受委屈

你送的礼物原来是一场劫

终于分别夙命一样准确

可笑到想要你赔给我时间

爱情有时廉价得可怜

光著脚我一路奔跑

鲜血泪水一路狂飙

收起我的骄傲

承认曾经备受煎熬

鞋上那记号

只有你能明了

过了这一夜

我就全忘掉

Simply love this song.. Juz dunno why.. Love means love, there's no why.. How the hell do i know why i love..

migraine

Early in the morning wanna go fetch dawn for work.. Woke up 9.30am and its mission impossible for her not to be late.. Hence, she "pronten" from work.. =.=

Today's sales sucky only managed to close 2 sets plus 1 external set.. =.= wan to jump liao like that..

Picked dawn up from boatquay then we went katojian for curry rice.. Thereafter, sent her back and we had a drink downstairs her place till abt 3am before i walked her upstairs.. Then i reached home around 3.30.. The pain doesn't go off.. Nabeiz... Head damn pain..

We can be as close as whoever can imagine but there's nothing between us juz like how i would with any gals.. =.= Juz like how i can fetch jocelyn up from rebel sent her home to woodlands and let her slp in my car till 5.30am and accompany her up to her doorsteps before heading home despite working morning..

In the meantime i juz do not wan anything to do with relationships. For i do not have the time for it.. Hands are like so full and schedules unpredictable... I can be like a part-time temp bf/fling to anyone juz to fill emptiness but not yet to fully commit.. And i'm not even a fling to anyone yet. Somehow or rather juz an acting bf feeling, or maybe i need some gf feelings sometimes..

Juz like how 2 person came back.. How warming though those are juz memories... Talking abt the past.. Sweet.. Yea but i'm not juz that capable to every..

I can be still be as close to u as before but u gotta know me.. I like the feeling of ppl knowing me without me telling yet hitting the "g-spot".. I'm cunning enuff to send so much fakes and yet if u able to catch the real me, the better i'm gonna treasure friendship.. And not always by assuming.. I may seems complicated but well in complications there bound to be truth.. Get to know a person is not by reading and seeing. It's the feel.. As if however good i'm treating my gals i'm not gonna treat u that way.. That's not true.. I care for every single soul even as a passerby. The amount is determine by that person not me. Actions, words, everything means something.. Not juz calling sweetie will means i'll have to go all out to treat u like a princess.. Gotta earn that credit and respect.. Well, tat's me.

Only her can still make me comfortable even after like so many yrs not much in contact... Even after marriage, we can be like so close. I feel i can tell her everything that can takes up to few yrs to finish talking.. I love to talk in nature but gals always love to talk more which always no chance to talk more.. Otherwise will be so many comments.. I juz need ppl to listen not comment or debate..

I'm tired liao.. More and more pain already my head..

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PSPs

29 sets of PSP 2006. All ready and charged. =)

Another 4 sets being ordered by same client yest. =.= Rush like mad, racing with time. Haha..

Anyone got suggestions for xmas special and valentine special?


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Tiring yet fruitful night.

Reported work early so that i can go off early to settle my stuffs.. Early in the morning trying to get the season parking but failed coz i do not have the logcard for the car to prove i'm the owner, well, i'm not. =.=" It's under my aunt's, cheaper insurance.. Lolx.. So they charged me $140 for parking then offered me $90 for another place for parking. Damn far. =.=" Damn dulan so headed work immediately.

Bad day but luckily still managed to close 3 sets before i went off to serangoon. Do all the way till 1am then settle everything. =.=" Shag out.. Surprisingly they had trust in me. Though it's no big deal of goods worth close to $8k lah.. But, hell i'm amused. That makes me wanna contribute more and do my part better.

Tml will be a long day.. Need to settle for my bike then need to go bendemeer then maybe bugis. After that meeting partner to deliver the goods in my car as well as taking some stocks from bukit batok and fortune then have to put the new goods back to my partner's house. Kelvin jio at night go Lavender siam diu, to see my ex thai gal. Well, i dun really interested to see. lolx.. Arbo long ago when i learnt she's back i would have chiong go see her liao.. Aiyo business more impt lah.. =.="

Thus, lately i kept discriminating love and r/s. Knn waste time and money only. It's not the time yet to say much now coz i'm not yet officially in the listing but a few of my colleagues and friends already knew. Everything starts from small. No way for one foot up heaven. Therefore, when jessie ask me to go ngee an work, i'm unwillingly so. 1st, it's not becoz of anyone. 2nd, hp/compaq no longer a 'house brand' for this giant company. 3rd, pay is miserable and i only use it to cover my monthly stuffs. My perspective goal is not that small even if to give me a SUPER A STORE i also dun need. Will only make me busy nia. Not as if they gonna give me $5k for that. $5k comm would mean at least $500k worth of sales and i'm like getting 1%. =.=" I'm aiming $250k for my company, at least i can see the fruits for even better prospect in expanding even more till auto-run. That's the ultimate goal for the 4 of us.

Anyway, reveal a bit lah not as if i would jeopadise my job. Anyone who's looking for games and/or consoles can look for me. Even blackberry high capacity batteries at great price compared to a regular batt sold in store. We've got 2500mAH. Light-weight somemore. =.=" Made in USA and warranty still stands officially by us. Games and consoles prices may be steep but FREE delivery to doorstep. We accept COD & paypal. Already got alot of pre-orders for the two hottest titles, Dragon Age & L4D2. This mth sales damn good.. Lolx. And would be pretty busy out of my working hours.. For more info, www.dexcube.com or on pricing and availabilty can email/text/msn/call me direct. My GM got the pricing listing direct from distributors. More services coming in also in the coming year. National Library sat event starting on 14th Nov, we are one of the co-partners. =) Next year, many interesting events upcoming also. Sneak hint, the 'new' building beside cineleisure, we might be involve as well. Exciting events..

Heard of a bad news as well.. My friend from sim lim square juz passed away.. If u guys read the news, Newlywed groom found dead at hotel driveway.. Jackie, big boss and co-founder of his company, Renova.. Sad.. The company is big and well-known. Boss is happily married. Tragedy happened.. Unexpectedly.. Sad...

Today was on msn with karen almost the whole day thru-out work.. She's my ex gf when we are in poly till i enlisted in army.. We really chat like bosom friends.. Abt her bf, her ex bf, my ex gf, our work, our trips, etc. She's so fave of aussie and her ex is aussie, sydney i believe or maybe brisbane. She din mentioned. Anyway, she love travelling.. Been to so many of the European countries.. >.< Greece, Italy, Australia, etc. Many many more untold.. But i've been to Melbourne and she's not, only to Sydney, Brisbane and Gold Coast.. =.=" Then she actually mentioned that i'm sweet.. Lolx.. Juz becoz i helping her ex bf to look for a multimedia harddisk player. Lolx.. She mentioned twice not one, on two occasions. =.=" Then she want me to promise her that i will NEVER go back to my ex even though she were to come back to me.. Well, sweetie. Among so many so many gals, u are the 2nd longest known gal who is close to me and it's kinda sad that u do not know that i will never turn my head to eat the grass behind me.. Even if i were to bite my lips to bleed and walk away in pain, i would never return.. So, don't worry ya? =)

Weihong seems weird juz now on msn.. =.=" He's been T-ing me up when i'm juz nothing really.. Bro, i'm juz like you and in fact far worst. I'm on downhill, at least u are on even ground.. My mindset is not what i wanted but is what i desired. Career and future are to work smart for, not work hard for.. Some things can never be taught, can only be influenced. Like how i always pull ppl up by infuencing and not teaching.. Give a man a fish and he lives for a day, teach a man to fish and he can live much longer even till old..

If ppl around u are gamblers, u might go into gambling.
If ppl around u are slackers, u might go into slacking.
If ppl around u are rich, u might go into building wealth.
If ppl around u are playful, u might go into childish.

Fit in and blend into the right environment, let environment influence u to become better. However, really 'strong' ppl would change themselves to adapt to the environment and make full use of the environment to their own advantages. Juz like "So what i siam all the netbooks and nab all the nabsters? I still have the last laugh despite ppl behind scolding LaSap." Wah i realised i machiam toking abt myself... LOLX! Well fark, his pay is way FEW TIMES higher than mine. Though he still got nothing but he is still strong. Got the resource and system to make that money so why not. Juz like 1427 worth $70, i will also chiong like mad till everyone is a foe. Juz like if A600 worth $100, i will also do that. My company sux and they will never release such incentives. Cheapo. Even Gateway can earn more.

So how is ngee an better than cwp? =.=" Even vivo. So what sia. Still peanuts to me. Lolx.. I rather have great friends and colleagues, and earn my survivable pay. Afterall, one year odd liao.. When i focus, rarely i would divert..

How the hell she knows abt lullaby? Nabeiz.. I dun rmb mentioning it here lor.. Even if i did, that was eons ago. =.=" So not only she does read my blog, she read my facebook as well! Think she got my account.. Surprisingly, she does login FB when she dun have a FB acc. =.=" Points are hard to redemn.. Try harder.. I'm allergic to players. =)

Don't 'fall down', i will not entertain much.. If u gonna be opposite my block drinking beer alone emo-ing and wan me to cross over to accompany u, high chances i will not go.. Not everyone got the ability to get me spread my wings.. Unfortunately, yes i'm that eccentric.. Gan x2 doesn't work on me. Lolx..

When i'm with loose gals, ppl feel gao wei.
When i'm with attached/married gals, ppl feel i'm foul.
When i'm alone, ppl wants me to get hitched.

So if i wanna hit-and-run, ppl comment.
So if i wanna hit-and-dun-run, ppl comment.
So if i wanna dun-hit-and-run, ppl coment.
So if i wanna dun-hit-and-dun-run, ppl comment.

Come on, i know u ppl do care coz i'm a friend.. But please in an aggressive mode lah. So ppl think that i cannot go vivo juz becoz someone else would distract me, so be it. But i will stand firm that i dun wanna leave cwp. My mind ain't made up of love. Wtf. Can i juz get married next yr with an ordered bride juz to put at home so that everyone shut up? o.O Get to know a person by learning and asking. Not assuming and criticizing and sarcastic. I dun hold grudges so dun make me do. Juz like what desmond says. Friends nia mah, one gone another will come. The cycle goes on. Maybe i shld reorganise my "best friends" listings in my msn though in real life i only got two guys and a gal.. Yes a gal, named jasmine. Now, below 25 all out. =.=" At most is "close", wun be "best"..

Tired.. Maybe becoz tired lately thus spout so much nonsense. =.=" Blog is not me and i'm not a blog, i wun let anyone read me like a book. If u think u know me, think again. Agree, Manster? =)

BQ

Another day at BQ despite no one really wish to drink.. At least now cfm got 2 known stalkers. =.= One stalk blog, one stalk fb. Lolx..

I know there are silencers out there too.. "the one" i used to mention long time ago, also one of it.. =) But too bad, forever unable to reveal this 'scandal' or rather 'mysterious' since there's really nothing going on between us.. Juz like how close i am to all my gals like cel, jessie, dawn, xuehui, jasmine, huiwen, connie, etc etc. Too many to mention all..

I mean, no matter how close i am to anyone, i always get frustrated when ppl trying to fix an 'item'. =.=

The more u know a person, the more u wun accept her.. O.o No? But u will love her when u can see her flaws as nothing. =.=

When i'm in a r/s, ppl ask me to break up. When i'm not in a r/s, ppl ask me to like machiam accept anything around me. Wat's the world becoming to?

I'm stubborn, when i'm in, i'm in. When i'm out, i'm out. I had said a million times that i would never get dawn to be the one. Never. So what, hold hands? Yes we did ever before. So what, kiss before or rather LC? Yes. So what, hug before? Yes ever. So what, slept before? Hell NO! Fark. I'm not a freaking gigglo. Wah every thai/viet i ever did any of the above will be gf? Then wun i be super busy sia. LOLX!

Wings refer to any gals, in general. Gals are meant to be protected, aren't they? Or to be played with? Like toys?

So, when i protect and u kept inviting troubles then watever for am i doing this? Snap and release, fell and burnt. End of story. If u can find another, go ahead and dun waste my time. I only have a pair, of hands. Even birds have a limit to how long they can fly..

Cold? Not really.. Need to breathe a bit.. By all means and be as secretive as u can, i'll pull out not pull back.

Since meet and can be so busy then ok lor, i need not be around at all. Becoz i say so. I beg to differ from ur thinking. Coz i can feel 'starhub' and when with me others no need to feel 'starhub'. That's splendid. Thanks.

Minus points always by 10%.
Increase points always by 1%.

There's nothing such as negative, 0 means zero.

Fark the love thingy. It's irritating. And ppl irritates me with their broken love life. Nabeiz. Nothing but spelt troubles.


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Weird..

I'm sure she's fine le.. I only scared no news coz there's no means in any forms of communications.. But from her blog i can see her updates in her board.. Juz that she's still back there haven't come back sg..

Think there isn't a need to let her know of my callings bah even though she's back.. Well, i dunno when back coz i had stopped calling long time ago ever since i saw her pics updates.. =)

Today again i ventured there unknowingly.. Haha.. Love is blind indeed.. No idea why i did that also.. Well, its dead already.. Felt nothing.. If now she were to ask me the same qn as at east coast whether would i accept my ex back, the ans will be a direct no in an instant. Haha..

Finally clubbed at Rebel last sat.. Wasn't really in the mood coz i had to drive.. Nabei.. Never liked drink driving.. And being controlled. Freak. Even my sis is there and reduced me to one glass of vodka... Foul leh..

Wkend jasmine going St James, Jocelyn also.. =.= Wondering.. Haha.. Not really aiming but kinda yearning for clubbings.. So long no freaking long queues that let me sweat before going in can liao. I hate that, that's y i ban zouk.. Dbl-o still okay.. Coz there are memories there, or rather devil's bar or newsroom.. Haha...

Clubbing is fun. Dun mentioned the "being grinded" lah.. That's unexpectedly unusual encounter.. =.= Surprised, hell yes i am.

Tml meeting, and i think i would be going back to work bah.. Damn i can't let my sales go down somemore.. Sometimes it's not becoz i'm weak in doing sales or lazy.. Sat and sun i'm extremely tired, despite that i'm so damn aggressive..

Coz i cannot concentrate well bah thus i use focus.. =.= If serve more than 10min i will be darn shagout so close fast and spot fast bah...

So tiring everyday.. Losing more and more points day after day.. I guess i do mind afterall but i would still doing my best to suppress bah.. New directions to fake away.. Need more of those.. But hell, i'm so surprised that the eye contact is so comforting.. And i 'dare' to look into her eyes.. Nabei..

Afterall i'm a shy guy leh.. I would only do that to my customers due to professionalism.. =.= Mainly gals around me i wun do that.. Another gal would be that one in whiskey last time, a customer that is..

When it starts kicking, i think will gonna be a better time manager bah.. If not then i'm not gonna be up to it bah.. Haiz.. Sacrifices are a must when it comes to biz.. Haiz.. Money more impt..

Nabeiz she still dun wanna wakey.. Ya still in my car boringly blogging. Tired, yes i am.. Haiz.. Some ppl finds it a sore eye when i'm being this good to certain ppl when i'm not like aftering or asking for something in return like bedding. o.O Ya i'm stupid, show me the light like DTB? Wtf =.=

Duh.. Its a guys world. =.= Mindset all similar bah.. Except for a few i known would be like me myself and i.. Haha.. Hard to find such though..


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O.o

It's how amazing u can score points from an impossible 3-pointer. =.= And i never even say anything neither hint, and u 'chop'. In it goes. =.="

How do i let go? I mean i'm juz tired.. Forgotten how to emo, how to enjoy, how to happy, how to sad. Numbness got me. "emotionless" she said. That's bad, utter suffering..

Staying focus is wat i wanted now... Not in my job, not in love, not in family. Well then, guess it already..? Sometimes its not i dun share but no point to.. It will not affect others so why not bottled it up? This way, no one else will get infectious by the troubled virus.. Anyway i dun need help nor do i seek help.. So be it..

I never needed love, juz maybe there's someone there beside. Dun even have to talk, dun even have to touch me.. Serenity is wat i love best. At somewhere quiet all by myself or maybe with another, enjoy the quietness and calmness when midnight falls..

All i need is simplicity though i shown complications to confuse and yet acting blur like a bloody bastard.

Yet to find that feeling back..


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o.O

Nabei the feeling of feel like getting drunk is back again.. ccb.. So pissed with this feel coz it juz came out of the blue knn.. No emo-ing somemore can get this urge to get drunk. Nabeiz..

Juz came back from malaysia with dawn and weihong. He 1st time eating lok lok and like so happy and fascinated like that.. Juz like leon that time.. -.-" Well, i'm not worried abt this guy DTB thus i can trust him. In fact not only i dun trust gals, i dun trust guys as well.. But somehow or rather, i feel i can trust him. =.=" But die die i wun trust that dawn.

A week before i mentioned i would take thurs off then can go sentosa with her and juz now she's happily arranging for programmes on thurs. "silence".. Well, i shall meet up dessy then...

Too many situations too many points lost will deteriorate the in-between... Well, points are easy to lose but hard to gain..

That night at the chalet was msn-ing celine for few hrs i think.. Then mentioned that despite she slept for only 2 hrs and still wanna go chalet with me.. =.=" Juz wanna find things to do and stick to me only.. And she said, "That's so sweet of her.." Well, that do shaken a little.. Nabeiz... Heng i did not fall down right in sia.. =.= Despite me saying i will not accept any sg, that's afterall juz a strong front.. Nabeiz.. Nabeiz.. Nabeiz.. No matter what i will find one hundred and one reasons to suppress that! Though she always tickle by saying it only needs one reason to... Nabeiz. No way.

Stopped all the unnecessary words and actions, or rather i can only lessen.. I dun wanna invite unwanted stupid things. All i wan is only for the plan to be executed and worked.. That's my main source of life not love. Fark, like hell i would die without it. But i juz dun understand majority would die for it. Thus, i shall get married soon.. LOLX ironic..? Not really, coz i juz need one to buy a flat. =.=" The government says so.

"Sg gals are so material. Wan more money, wan be taitai, dun wan simple life, dun wan get married, dun wan babies."

Well, many foreigners would comply otherwise. Now i know why so many guys go outsource.. It isn't a bad thing afterall..

New lease

Shocking news from rebecca. =.=" She said everyone also know and she's the last to know, then if she's the last then i will be the last last. =.=" Lolx.. Jokes aside on that day, dun take it seriously ah, manster. =x

Late night went over to kovan to meet up the guys and chat all the way till almost 2am.. =.=" In fact, it's very brief and overall of everything.. The plans, the kicks-in, the resolutions, the problems, the activities, the foreseen upcomings, etc..

Things gonna get busy... The passion is on, the blood is boiling like an adrenline rush.. I hope i'm not too positive till they are scared of me.. =.=" When one objective is clear, one will work towards the objective no matter what are the hurdles ahead. Slacking off is not a question, i'm only scared nothing to do.. I dun mind everything caught me till i got not enuff slp every now and then or till my both hands are so full.. I only scared i got nothing to do.. All i'm left is time and time is not enuff, it's short.. If wanna strive, i wanna strive high. Arbo pull down. I dun like to waste time and effort doing fruitless thing. Believe in it and strike. Now or never, we had all came halfway of lifetime.

A lot of brain cells burnt.. Scared gonna no time to do my own things and for friends.. But if fruits are what i wanted, sacrifices are must-do. I love gaming, i give up. I love pool and drink, i give up. I love relaxing, i give up. Mind must be in a state 24/7 thinking how to get the 200 grands. Nabeiz.. Even if the rest hack care and nua, i would also wanna carry on and head to that goal..

Quote from her again..

"To love someone who will never love you back is like trying to get a perfect score in a non-recorded exam."

Nabeiz... Isn't it like u would live in fairytale and live happily ever after..? =.="


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Back from supper

Mum went CWP to find me.. =.=" She went out with her friends so drop by cwp.

Supposed to send her home 1st before meeting dawn and her friend to geylang to eat supper.. Asked mum if she wanna go and she said she's fine with it so we went lor..

Ordered fu kin min and yee min.. AKA hokkien mee and yee mee. Wtf afterall i'm a cantonese kia ok! I juz dun feel like speaking in cantonese.. And i juz sang a bit chen xiao chun song wo bu shi wei ren two days back in martin.. Long time no sing liao..

After food, dawn's friend walk back home as he stays nearby then i send her home before heading home with my mum.. indeed whole day like no mood like that.. Well, i really not emo-ing lah nor am i sad.. Dessy asked me in msn why i sound so sad like that, as in thru words he could actually 'feel' it! Nabei... No wonder he got so many gals friends... Oops! =x Well, actually i also not less but much lesser than him and i mean much much lesser than him.. Lolx..

In fact, after my these two ex, i had drift away from a lot of gals liao.... When i'm attached, there's no point in having so many close gals to me what.. No fair to partner.. And yet, things can happen despite a little commitment.. =.=" I cannot promise that i will not anyhow eat but i can guarantee i will not anyhow eat.. Promises are meant to be broken.. At least, that's wat i believed..

Time is running out and there's no ways and also no point to draw in more gals into my circle.. Tired.. Shag.. So dead..

Next wk i supposed, everything will be up and running.. The plan will be put into action and execute.. Time will never be enuff.. Pls make it fruitful.. Even though it may not turn out fruitful, i dun wan to regret.. Living in regrets..

I'm so into her words/phrases.. It's been a long time since i last felt someone who can really catch my attention in her mind rather than look.. The undisclosed "the one" was the one whom i admire her chinese phrases.. Lately gotten back in contact with her liao but that feeling no more le.. =.=" A shadow is what that's left..

I think when we two really comes into contact, there might be lots to share between life and experiences.. It's been long time since i can find someone whom i can comfortably talk to.. Usually i merely talks a little.. No one really break my ice and let me speak my mind freely without the barrier being the devil.. Like what celena did? o.O But that feeling is long gone.. Sorry sweetie, not that i dun wanna find u.. =( I miss the esplanade days...

Tired sia.. Seems like always not enuff slp..

If u wan me to close my wings, i'm afraid they might not open anymore.. Every single little thing can close the wings by certain percentage.. The max is 100%.. Every single little thing can open the wings by certain percentage too.. Closing is easier than opening... I'll leave it to fate and ur own doings.. It's not every single gals i'll do that for her..

Ever since last wk, i realised that she never deleted my sms.. =.=" If not how come my singtel keep on beeping instead of my m1? o.O Or was it becoz i mentioned only dawn msg me on my singtel that's y i was being beep on that fone also? Lolx.. Shi wo xiang tai duo.. Ni zhong zhe yang shuo... Lolx.. Time to slp. =.="

A broken vase can never be perfect again no matter how hard u tried to fix it back.. All that's left are memories for us to keep. There's no turning back nor a need to turn back..

My principle as usual.. No matter the pain, i shall embrace it with a smile, not tears.

I'm glad u still keep my tweety bird.. I've lived my life for you, now i shall live on for myself..

Loved ya, XL. =)

Alcohol and beer are no longer my best friends. =)

Clarification: I'm not only into MIT or MIV or MIM or watever u could think of. I'm a simple guy who NEEDS a simple life with anyone, though life itself is not simple as it can be.. Juz that, pure sorrows that brought no confi in the future..

Every step could mean something.. I dun juz drift for no reason.. Instincts are sharpen so naturally that i could feel as if i'm a mimosa.. Someone said that's the so-called "walls".. Nevertheless, i believe 'it' will stay strong and long-lasting enuff as a protective layer..

Wu hua bu ying feng. No flower doesn't attracts bees. I said to her before in my chinese blog and she knew the hint.. Wu feng bu tou mi, she countered. =.=" I'm not juz the typical mammal or beast or animal..

I've felt it again.. The non turning on of msn.. The 'starhub effect'.. It's all becoz of certain situations or maybe someone or maybe some ppl.. I'm sensitive to little changes in reactions.. Falling back is not a choice but an alternative reality. Yup, the truth is ugly though it doesn't concern me at all.. When i spread my wings, that doesn't mean will spread for eternity.. There's no such thing as forever..

Twilight is afterall a fairytale, it's reality that we are living in and facing against..

It's been more than 24hrs since i last slept in.. Tired and shag out...

Drinking nite

Juz reached martin after mr lin zehuan cedric wedding dinner at Swissotel The Stamford.. Half a glass of beer and half a glass of red wine at there...

Adam came with me to Martin... Hmmm dunno if i can post this here lolx.. Anyway he only come a while to relax..

Dawn's at Zouk now.. =.= She said she coming over later. Dun feel like getting drunk nor did she..

Roadshow at cwp starts mon. Need to reach 888 at 9am for breakfast.. 9.30am to be at cwp to do setup..

As predicted, booth is expected to be late again... The last roadshow was late for one and half day... =.=

Dun think will be drunk tonight.. Sense something unusual today... Hope i'm wrong.. I dun wan anything..

Saw her 'blog' few days back.. It was posted on the 10th this mth.. I long time no go there liao.. Anyway she's fine at there.. Holidays with her husband.. =)

So, it wasn't love afterall anymore.. 'worry' is not love, someone told me..

Time to let go fully.. Memories are all that's gonna left inside... =)


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Shag out

Super tired sia.... Now still at toh guan road... She's happily sleeping in my car.. And i can't slp coz its dangerous. =.=

Now its like almost 10am and the sunlight is so bright and the weather so hot and she can still slp so soundly.. =.=


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stupid iphone

Nabeiz lah all contacts gone.. Sibei tulan.. Shitty iphone can i smash u?

Since the day i said i will not accept u for u are so much like her, the agreement had been verified..

But why does it still bothers me when i am the one who said that and swore on that..?

Contradicting as usual...

Juz like how 10yrs ago how i rejected the gal that i like yet i denied the fact so firmly juz becoz i felt i'm not good enuff for her despite her not even minding anything...

Status is juz a material fact, if not how the hell would i have had accept a wife as my gf.. Initial still thot it's juz a game, afterall it's all my fault that i dunno how to hit-and-run... Always hit and dun run... That's why i'm afraid of these games and wun even dare to play with fire and remain cold-blooded..

Everyone are talking abt her and me.. Well, really nothing between us... I really treat every single as my own and i dun see any wrong in those.. If such meant something, wouldn't every single gal are my targets? Then wouldn't i have been super duper busy?

Maybe i'm not juz cut-out to be the typical guy-next-door or guy-sure-like-that or guy-only-want-one-thing. I'm juz an abnormal guy. So naturally will be outcast bah..

Aquarius, the air of mystery. Why the heck i fall onto that. =.=" Maybe it's juz me..

Sick..

Sick.. Having flu and bad cough.. Dunno wats wrong.. So suddenly..

Feeling emo outta sudden tonite.. Wth.. So its not sick but really love sick? lolx..

Yup i really miss her.. =( Miss her voice, her smell and her touch.. Haiz... World apart.. I thot death shall do us apart.. Guess not..

Going in real soon.. Was it gonna be chalet or hell..? Afterall its ATEC this yr... Seems like its genting trip again.. I would prefer bkk though.. Really wan me to fly alone meh.... Haiz haiz..

Long time no drink liao.. Really headache.. Need to concuss le..

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A so warm voice that warm the heart..

Today called her all the way and we like chatted for around 15min.. So happy to hear her voice.. Straight away tell her "Kit Teng Mak Mak"... Haha.. Asked me abt my sales, well, it was rather bad... Then she said it's becoz she's not by my side that's why got no luck.. Lolx.. I told her i agreed that's why i love her.. Lolx.. Melt her a little i guess. =D Really can't wait to go all the way to bkk to find her and relax my days.. =( The feeling of yearning is back.. Haiz.. Dawn said marry her lor so that she can stay in sg.. Well, the point is not that but rather she dun wanna come sg.. Lolx.. So even though i do really had that thought also no use mah.. It takes two hands to clap. =) Afterall, i only left with 1yr 6mths..

Been real hectic lately.. Like so busy and tired and no time to slp.. Gotta packed my baggy for genting and army together.. FULL SHIFTS all the way till reservist starts sia coz when come back from genting gotta go PCSHOW then after PCSHOW gotta go reservist liao... Haiz..