All good things come to an end. Bliss doesn’t lasts.. That’s always the case.. The good guys always died earlier than the bad guys, as always shown in tv, as well as in reality. Life sux.
Xing is not a filial child.. Not deserved to be loved.. That time his grandpa as admitted to the hospital, he was seriously ill and yet Xing was out with his friends for some fun, think house-warming or something.. He’s being told many times to go home straight but he simply reluctantly to do so until later.. His grandpa was at his deathbed dying and yet Xing still can enjoyed.. Well, he wasn’t told in the 1st place.. Was only told to go home immediately.. Rebellious as he can be.. He delayed going home early.. When he reached home at Alexandra, his auntie immediately brought him down to take a cab to the hospital.. At the hospital when grandpa’s brother-in-law saw Xing, he gave Xing a one tight slap on his face till he almost fell down.. Xing was stunned not knowing wat’s the actual reason being slapped.. Upon entering the ward, Xing’s grandpa was so happy to see him.. When Xing saw grandpa, he just cried.. Grandpa asked, “Wat’s wrong…? Why are u crying…?” Xing just shook his head while grandpa patted on Xing’s head and said, “You have to be guai ah.. Have to be more sensible from now on, I might not be around to take care of you anymore.. You must learn to take care of yourself ah..” Those words made Xing cried even harder.. Making him recalling all the things that he had done wrong.. Irreversible wrongs.. There are so many things Xing wanna said to Grandpa but no more chances le.. The untold remains untold..
Xing’s thoughts: I’m sorry grandpa, last time I was so foolish and naughty and mischievous.. After all that I’ve done to u all these years.. I’m not worth u loving me anymore and yet at
Still remember in primary 6, Xing went on teletext chat and put his home tel in there.. In the end, past midnights there are always a lot of prank calls.. Lolx.. All are out to disturb except one. This gal is a yr older than Xing and her name is
Ever since the BK thingy, Victor & Tee were afraid that Xing might do it again.. Thus, Tee took Xing to work with her. Working as a waiter at banquets. Xing is a skinny boy so Tee always help him in serving the heavy dishes like Shark Fin Soup, Steam Fish, etc. Slowly by slowly, bit by bit, Xing learns as he move on.. Stronger and stronger each day, as time passes. More and more familiar he gets with the procedures. Though working as part-timer and the pay is peanut, but somehow Xing feels good earning and spending his own money. So, most of his wk-ends are spent working away.. Think he needs to get a life.. Lolx.. Yup, life’s tough but the going is on..
During the secondary sch days, Xing never studies at all. At home there’s always nothing to do other than watching tv. Xing is not a homely person at all, it will only drive him crazy. Lolx.. Thus, he is always either at Gordon’s place or at ZG’s place. If not would be playing basketballs with the guys. Toking abt that, Xing also got play basketball with JL and YX, mainly at the CC opposite their district. That’s a bad place to play coz there’s too many ants.. Ants that can fly.. =.=” Ya they dun attack ppl but Xing was being attacked by one once. That time at night he was waiting for his friends to come at the CC so he was standing near the basketball court. Suddenly a blind flying ant hit straight into one of his eye. When the thing hit his eye, instantly he shut his eye and the ant was trapped inside. Pain could be felt in that eye, neither closed nor opened could take away the pain.. Xing rushed upstairs to the toilet immediately and tried to wash it off. However, the more he rubbed his eye, the more pain he felt.. It just doesn’t want to come out or rather it can’t get out at all.. After several min of struggles, finally it was removed.. However, Xing’s eye had gone all red.. In the end there’s no basketball for him.. He’s in no condition to play..
During sec 2 there was this interesting incident.. Xing saw a gal from NPCC and he asked Benedict(who was in the NPCC as well), “Who’s that cute gal over there? New student from sec 1 ah?” Ben told Amy abt this thing.. I think the news of ‘Xing like this gal’ got spread around.. =.=” Well, no feeling lor. =.= Can’t even ask.. Sigh.. Well, actually Xing dun have any confident at all.. To him, he finds himself ugly and wun even think of anything else. Still remember in primary sch, kids love to talk abt position in who is the most handsome and who is the prettiest, Xing always avoid such things.. Coz he knows he would be labeled as the ugliest in the whole world.. Anyway back to topic, few wks later Ben came to me and said “Hey!! This is so surprising!!! That gal actually like u!! Haha!! U lucky man!!” By the time Ben finished his sentence, Xing felt that his heart had dropped to the bottom.. He can feel that it’s heavy, a sudden shock. However, no further actions taken. He dun even knows her name. Life still goes on as per normal and the two still remains as strangers, rarely a smile as a greeting. When Xing graduated that, that gal got a transfer. So, maybe they are not fated to be in the 1st place.
Sec 3 was the worst yr in Xing’s life. Early in the year, Xing starts to sense that something is wrong with ZG.. Though Xing bochap and simply tag along with the gang, but somehow he had the feeling of a little being left out.. His instinct told him that the problem lies on ZG.. Sure enuff, ZG is ignoring Xing. Xing tries to seek for the reason but he failed.. No one seems to know what’s going on.. Even Gordon had no idea but his relation with ZG is as per normal. ZG doesn’t seems to tell anyone wat’s going on, as in why is he ignoring Xing and treating him as if he is an enemy to him.. So suddenly it happened, without a clue.. They never quarrel, never fight, never argue. Xing is always the one who backed out from all these when it comes. Tui Yi Bu Hai Kuo Tian Kong. No point arguing or quarreling when it’s gonna leads to more and more.. That’s why whenever Xing is angry or upset, he always keep everything to himself..
From strangers to friends, from friends to close friends, from close friends to enemies, from enemies to strangers.. Shag lor.. All good things eventually will come to an end.. When there’s a start, there’s always an end; when there’s an end, there’s always a new start.. That’s the nature of life, cycle of life.. What comes around will goes around.. But Xing is unable to digest at all.. Meaning, when there’s an untied knot, unable to get the truth, the soul never rest.. Xing hate being untold of something, something that is not explained, even if it meant to be hurting.. Xing only seeks the light. Without the light, the soul NEVER stay calm.. He is not like any ordinary guys who can forget all abt it when unable to get any answer.. Though he always seems bo chap but he is always hinting and leading the light to be reveal... But he always got into wild imaginations easily, that’s his ultimate weakness. Just like this case, there are ppl telling him that it’s becoz he stole ZG’s limelight so ZG made him an enemy. Some say it’s becoz he’s trying to seize all the advantages of ZG so he is being treated this way. Yup, Xing is a light-listener, he listens to others and believes easily. So, he is really easy to get manipulated though he is easy to calm/bluff as well. Tell him something and he will believe it easily. But once got bitten, u gonna lose all his trust in u.. It’s gonna be hard to regain that trust.. Becoz his mind is made up this way.. Even though u would tell him the truth, he will not believe it entirely.. Even though he dun believe it, he also will not tell.. But there’ll be signs of disbelief.. Sigh.. Xing is hard to please, so pls stay away from him.. He’s not worth it anyway.. Just like how ZG abandoned him, just do it..
Indeed ever since ZG and Xing never tok to each other, Xing’s popularity had dropped.. It’s like a karma.. Oh yes.. It’s payback time.. Muahahaha.. Sigh.. No more ppl gonna challenge him in scoring high for tests and exams. No more ppl gonna jio him go play King of Fighters. No more ppl gonna jio him go play basketball.. Basketball will only reminds him of the incident.. Well, Xing is a very forgiving person but he will never forgets.. He is not being petty, that’s just his nature. Some says he is sentimental. Well, maybe..
Xing’s thoughts: Only if memories can be erased or edited, please. Cut away my bad moments, remove them forever. Painful is not as painful as bad memories that are unable to be forgotten.. So tired being jailed in memories.. One is consider too much to handle, yet more and more bad memories being created.. Maybe it shld be labeled as nightmares instead.. The unwanted memories.. Only death can take it away.. Life sux..
Well, it’s merely just a beginning.. There’s no end to shits. Like someone always said, shits happen, just hope it wun happen that often. Anyway, shits are part and parcel of life.. Ppl can’t live without shitting ah.. Shitting is the purpose of removing waste food and toxics from the body.. Anyway just continue the story.
Xing’s 2nd uncle had bought a flat at Jurong, somewhere at near Chinese Garden MRT. He told granny to sell the current flat and keep the money. Then he asked Xing if he wanna come over to stay with them.. It’s a 5-room flat, 3 rooms. Master bedroom for the owner and his wife, another room for granny and a spare room vacant. He said when he was young he yearn for a room of his own but it was impossible so saying that he can understand Xing’s feeling as Xing’s family is way below average.. Xing was overjoyed.. But he forgot the word, Cherish.
Going back home from sch is tedious.. Gotta take bus 32 to commonwealth then transfer to bus 198. The whole journey took more than an hr plus waiting time.. It was boring traveling home alone daily and had to wakey early to go sch.. As time passes, he got used to it and gotten few mates traveling together.. Gordon had moved to
Ben’s family is quite well-to-do so he is often shopping at Queensway. There’s once he asked Xing along when he wanted to go there buy something as well as for a game or two on King of Fighters, Xing went. At that time, Xing’s mind is still being jailed on the ZG’s thing.. Ben is a smoker and he always hide at the staircase and smoke. That time Xing accompany him. Ben only left with 2 sticks of Marlboro Mentol Lights so he’s thinking of finishing it so that he dun have to bring home at all since he can’t smoke at home.. Lighted one and he asked Xing to help him hold while he gonna light another. Xing just took over the cigarettes and immediately put it to his mouth and inhaled. Ben was stunned and asked, “Hey! I din know u smoked! Lolx! Shocking!” Xing looked at him without saying a word and carry on smoking.. That’s how Xing resumed smoking in sec 3..
Francis repeats his sec 3 so he is in the same class as us. He is under probation at the moment due to fighting. Everyday he had to reach home in time waiting for the officer to call to check on him. Well, despite his records, he is really a nice guy. Brotherly enough, knows how to take care of ppl. He used to be from HK(a gang) but no longer stick with them ever since he gana the probation.. Turning a new life eh.. It’s hard to be a good guy.
Gordon’s dad business isn’t doing very good so they had to move down to a smaller flat leaving their condo vacant to be rented, earning a little cash.. But doesn’t seems to be able to find any..
Xing is indeed not a homely person at all. Sometimes he would either go to Ben’s place or Francis’s place or Gordon’s place to stay.. Sometimes also come back to his own home. Ben’s place got computer so they would go play irc. Francis’s place got playstation so they would play games. Gordon’s place is his fave, got computer & playstation. Xing stayed at Gordon’s place the most. Playing irc challenging see who can get most number within a time limit. Playing playstation challenging on the soccers as well as some other games. Playing the latest pc games like Heroes of Might & Magic. Another place is worth mentioning. Gordon’s vacant condo. Lolx! That’s the best place for Gordon, Francis and Xing. No idea why Ben dun like it. Anyway, there’s computer, swimming pool, gym, rollerblades and most important….. No government!!! Muahahahahaha!!! A pity that Francis cannot stay overnight.. Thus, we would go there on Saturdays morning meeting around 6.30am and move out at 7am(coz Francis can only leave house at 7am) to
In class there’s this gal called
Xing had never been in love. He came to know this net friend named Sherry. Her voice is not bad, quite sweet. Without seeing each other, they came together and communicate through pagers. Lolx.. Yup, ‘wtf’ some said. Anyway, it doesn’t work out at all. Complete crap. It’s not even love.
Synopsis: More shits to come. Turning life.
