Yup xing is a lousy and bad bf.. Anyway, he's clear of the plans for the near future, her bday.. The present would crippled his finance but he still wanna buy it.. 1st-hand without contract.. He never reveal anything of sort to her.

He managed to get her address with the promise that he will not go find her no matter what unless permitted by her.. He needed the address so that he could send the parcel to her and yet without breaking the promise. The day came and the present was being delivered, she was overjoyed.. But problem still remained unchanged.. On the day xing entered army, he thought that she would come.. Sadly, nothing of sort happened.. During his POP, again not there.. On v-day, he bought a rice pendant for her, personal delivery to the mailbox.. Again rejected all the requests.. Xing's getting restless..

Xing's thought: Erm.. Am I still considered attached or wat? Totally doesn't seems like I am.. She wants to forever stay like this or the time is not ripe yet.. No idea, for she never says..

Xing's colleague, jeffrey, jio him to go batam for holiday.. And he went.. After he came back, the more he wanted to meet her.. It's not a game and it ain't fun at all.. He just wanted a normal relationship instead of fantasy.

Outta fury, he said these cruel words to her.. "Always ask to meet and u kept giving excuses. I can't live on just like that. It's ok, we dun have to meet anymore, u dun have to contact me anymore. I wun reply ur sms, I wun ans ur calls, I wun be online. Take care. Goodbye." Immediately less than a min, the phone rings. Xing din pick up.. Again it rings, he din ans it again.. Instead, he deleted her numbers and blocked her msn.

Few days past.. Few wks had past.. Everyday, every night, xing had been doing deep thoughts.. Was it the right thing to do or wrong..? Seems like he had hurt her deep real deep.. He tried to contact her again but in vain.. She seems to vanish just like that.. Xing went to her place downstairs and stoned.. Hoping to see her.. Unsuccessful.. As usual, he din want to break his promise so he din go up..

In the end what can he do..? Crying over spilled milk in bunk every night.. Living aimlessly everyday.. Thinking abt this and that.. Gals outside dun interest him anymore.. He had totally given up on himself.. Total isolation except for the mask he had to put on daily..

Xing's thoughts: It's all my fault.. Why am I doing all these to hurt her.. It's the end.. I'm not gonna step into a rs anymore.. I'm not fit to be a bf to anyone.. Coz i'm not a good bf.. So stay away from me.. That's nothing good abt me, there are many other guys out there, so just leave me alone..

With that, xing seal his heart not willing to open up at all.. Totally changed himself.. But he's still have a heart. Some article strucked him.. "Why do women cry more easily than men?" Xing ponder and ponder.. That article is on ladies' side.. Telling men not to bully ladies. A man's mum is also lady.. Ladies are there for us to dote nor to hurt, for us to protect not to bully.. Upon reading these from an article, he decided to treat all gals good on behalf of guys.. And yet refraining from falling in love with any.. Thus, he kept saying he can live without a woman..

Xing had got a good friend in army. But seems like it’s not a very good friend that he seems to be.. Well, he do take good care of Xing though when he is in army.. Frankly, no one wants to make friends with him.. Seeing him like that being outcast, Xing pity him.. Born in 1978 and yet dunno how to think.. He said that all M1, Singtel and Starhub he got owned and unable to sign anymore lines but needed the line to contact ppl. At that time Xing using two numbers, one M1 and the other Starhub. Thus, he requested one line from xing, the starhub line that xing is not using.. Said that he would pay for it every mth, without fail. Everything went well till 2mths after ORD.. Ever since then, he wun pay for it, he wun ans calls, he wun reply sms or rather reply will payback asap.. Ever since he finished NS, he never go work but kept saying by gambling and betting soccer he can no need to work.. In the end, everyone shld know what happened..

Xing’s thoughts: I hate it when ppl dun ans my calls. I hate it when ppl dun reply my msg. I hate it when ppl dun ans to my questions. I hate all these becoz of him. He made me learn this way. Yup I still hate him.

Despite all these, another bunkmate named James. James actually wanted to intro his godsis, Xuehui, to Xing but Xing rejected him flatly by saying gals are nothing but troubles so no thanks. Then he went to that guy and asked if he wanted.. A university student, very cute and guai gal. When Xing learn abt that, he immediately approached James and get her number. Not becoz he heard that she’s cute but rather, how come u would want to intro a gal to such kind of person.. It’s dangerous..

That’s how XH and Xing got to know each other.. Well, nothing much though.. Xing’s just a comic supplier, or rather a anime supplier.. Sigh.. Anyway, Xing is glad she is not fallen onto the wrong hands.. Coz she is really a very guai gal.. Imagine the whole of Bedok Library is almost being finished up by her.. That’s a bit too exaggerating though.. but she seems to be it lor.. A bookworm almost eat up all the books.. lolx.. =P No hard feelings k.. It’s over anyway.. ^_^

Synopsis: What’s life after army..? The key.. The gate.. The time.. An angel bestows..? Or izzit just an illusion..?