Things had been running around in my head.. It's not this nor that.. Helping this is wrong, helping that is wrong. Everything is so wrong.. Human juz can't make their own choices.. It takes two hands to clap.. There's no such thing as nothing for something or something for nothing.. There's no such thing as the best of both worlds.. There's no satisfaction but rather reality and it's cruel reality.. To face it or not to face it.
Men are easy creatures. They seek the truth and might even accept it. If u afraid that by telling the truth might lose him, then u will lose him eventually coz paper are unable to cover fire.. If u think u can have everything, in the end u might end up with nothing.. If u think it's a new beginning, it might be a beginning of a new end.. It all lies in one thing, self. Self-reproaching is useless when things had happened. Delusional as one can be, facts are not to be distorted.. The worth is losing. Maybe u shld buck up if u really dun wanna lose him.. Be truthful and sincere, tell him what's on ur mind. U dun have to make up stories to cover up the facts already.. If u know what i mean.. I dun side with anyone no matter who, i will side with reasons.
I guess he would rather u stab him directly into his heart. It seems more painful that way but it's lesser painful actually compared to long pain. That's what i did to one of my ex.. I guess she's long forgotten the pain leaving the pain in me by hurting her real hard.. Anyway, i know she's happy with her life now coz she wun have to see me since she's not in singapore..
U never really wanted to care abt the surrondings, aren't you? Trying to care but in fact wrong aspects, wrong ways.. Meaning? For example, if a person u love is sick due to not taking care of himself and watch wat he eats/does, wat would u do the 1st thing u learned abt this? Singaporeans naturally would scold him. See lah! Told u not to eat so much chocolates! Dun listen lah and now u fall sick already! Hmpf! Well, if u think that by scolding works the best then u better not fall sick urself, what comes around goes around. Rather, show more concern and care and take care of the person rather than raising my voice or scold.. Wait till the person got better than said ur piece of mind in a better tone. Ain't this gonna save the day rather than spoiling the day for both? Juz think abt it.
That's why i pretty like singapore movies. It reflects on the ugly sides of singaporeans and makes u reflect on ur past self.. But i dun understand why so many dare not face it. Afraid, scared, inferior. Tremor upon seeing the ugly self. To err is human, not to learn from err is natural but will never learn never improve on self-cultivation.. Escaping is not the only solution out. Facing it might not be as scary as it seems.. Facing it will not kills u and maybe u will learn much from it.
I know being attached is blissful, sweet and wonderful. Did u forgot? Along with those it also brings with it sorrow, anger, hate, doubt, uncertain, fear, pain, despair.. One negative is uncomparable to 10 positives. Yes, replacement is the best medicine but it will be never ending. So, i've already told u. Guys dun need gals to survive so why get so serious..? Is there really a need to starve urself and sacrifice urself so much juz for that someone when u are not really entirely being appreciated..? I can understand how u feel coz that's what i felt mths ago. So, i've said it many many times and i will still said it, there's no need to get serious.
Technologies are everywhere and common. Juz order one over and that one will be place at home and do ur bidding. They wun get unfaithful nor naughty due to fear of being sent home. They will accept what they are given coz they will not ask for much and will appreciate whatever it is coz at home they might not even have the chance. Well, i know this is not ur character at all.. It's ur choice. For me i dun really care coz i dun need one to survive. Yes i might have to remove both rings in the future. But i'm sure there will a new ring to seal it up again. Gals are untrustable, none of their words are reliable. Sorry that i discriminate. None can prove me wrong yet.
