你問我為何如此的安靜..? 你問我為何有種如此難過悲傷的感覺..? 我還是如此的安靜... 並不是什麼都不說, 而是有說不出的悲傷.. 你說的一切讓我覺得你已經麻木了.. 我本已為我也是一樣的心情可是我錯了... 當我自己一個人的時候, 它來了... 慢慢的, 那些美好的回憶回來了.. 我自己一個在那傻笑.. 忽然之間, 眼睛莫名其妙的濕了.. 想起了當時的畫面.. 兩人傻傻的在那坐到天亮.. 慢慢的又想起了更多的美好回憶.. 回憶都是美好的.. 真的濕了, 我也無法抵抗了, 無法應藏了, 無法忍住了.. 就讓它流吧, 希望它會幫我帶走我的所有的一切.. 痛, 就讓它痛吧.. 已經無所謂了.. 算了..

When learning ur story between u and him that time, no matter how everyone asked u to leave him, u juz dun wanna.. That time no matter how they bully u when he is not around when he is inside, u still dun wanna leave.. The you that i saw and understand, is what i'm looking for and i'm willingly to wait..

That time u called and said u wanted to go to the beach and wanted a drink as well.. I went and accompany u.. Gotten two cans of beer and went to sit on the beach.. With a little music from Cabana.. Nice.. The breeze is cooling and the sea sounds peaceful.. 'yi shan yi shan liang jing jing, mang tian dou shi xiao wei xing..' Haha.. "I heard a rumor, when two person at the beach at night and if it rains, fate will bring the duo together.." And it did rain a little that time...

Suddenly got a call from u early morning and u were crying and saying u were feeling cold.. Went down to look for u to see u shivering in that drenched clothings.. Sat down beside u and litted my cigerattes.. Asked u what happened but u juz kept quiet.. Then spur out, "很冷..." Without a second thought, i pull u close.. "不要, 我很濕.." I din really care coz the concern was u were cold..

I told u that my heart is already given to someone else le, despite that u still continue to call me chat for a few more days.. That time i was uncertain with her becoz of ur words to me.. Yes i was shaken.. But still, i carry on to be it that way without showing.. Well, u did stole a little of me that time..

When we started, everytime u see me your face is showing the happiness all over.. Each and every moment u juz wanna to hear my voice, see me, feel me.. Well, me too though i was appearing bo-chap all the while.. Every single moment i wish the time will just stop..

When i took u to the studio for ur long-wanted event, i can see and feel ur nervous.. But u are happy and glad too..

On ur bday when i surprised u with a necklace, u were so happy.. Grining here and there.. Everyone was like, "What's that so sparkling?" and u were like 'hehe..'

When we are going down the escalator at suntec i was one step lower and u from the back hug me real tight.. It was the 1st time i felt that, I was smiling..

At the ktv room, u can just put ur legs on the sofa and over my legs.. So afraid that i would be bored coz i dun wanna sing much.. In fact, i wun get bored coz u were there..

During the visits, u were so shy that u kept hanging on to me..
During the outings, u tried your best to make friends with all my friends..
During the stays, u tried your best to make me feel comfortable as if i'm at home..

On our anniversary, when i showed u the bag that thought to have been sold out, and u were overjoyed that u finally got it.. That's what i wanted to see on your face..

We went blading together hand-in-hand, laughing and smiling every now and then.. Well, though i'm not really into it but i enjoyed it coz i'm with you..

Thanks for all these memories.. They will not be forgotten.. Forever etched inside me and stay there till the day for me to leave this world...

What's there in the future..? More memories or more sorrows..? I guess i can only give u more sorrows than happiness.. 你想要的我却不能够给你我全部, 我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的.. I guess I'm not someone who can give u happiness.. So, why not make it stay there as memories..? Maybe it's best that way.. I've lost all bad memories so the next time i see you maybe i can still smile..

This post is specially for you only.. I'll grant u a few more days to prepare.. I'll contact u soon.. In the meantime just let us both be alone... The time will come soon..