Yes fireflies are beautiful yet fragile.. Very short life span but yet they can brighten up one's life.. Still can remember when i was in Pulau Tekkong during the 1st 5-days outfield. It was around 8pm and darkness falls so everything was pitch-black. Cannot light up any fire coz gotta be inconspicious.. Thus, everything had to be done in the dark.. Unable to get to sleep in the tent with another guy therefore went out for a walk and smoke nearby.. Sat down and lean against a slope, not even caring if there's ants or watever.. Yeah once a person in army uniform, he wun mind being dirty.. Leaning against the slope enjoying the serenity with slight breeze.. Noticed there are fireflies.. Though quite faint but still visible in complete darkness.. It was like kinda paradise... Looking up in the sky, it was clear and the stars were smiling.. I always wanted a getaway ever since i finished my army but now whenever i thought of a getaway, nightmares were piercing my heart... Damn i hate that feeling.. Why all these were happening to me..? Shits happened.. Argh.. Shouldn't had mentioned this, wasted space on my blog.. But wat to do..? Affairs of the heart are the hardest to manage..
That time when i mentioned abt going batam for shopping and holiday, u actually mentioned that if u are not working u sure accompany me go. Quite shocking to hear that though.. On the other hand, some things were being reminded.. Sigh.. The only birthday present i gotten is from Jason, a $50 voucher for Parco Bugis. That time i was feeling my worst. The worst days of my life..
I ever mentioned, i see a splitting image but deep down i know it's my illusion, my hallucination.. Coz u are of different categories.. No one can understand u, ppl who knows u will like u.. Life's a bitch. Unable to face the reality to share yet under certain circumstances dun really mind to share.. How are u different..? Truth and sincerity. You not gonna be a great gf but definitely u gonna be a great friend as well as close friend.. Darn why am i spouting nonsense, or rather facts..? Haiz.. Complicated. I guess i really need more to settle it.. But i think i got cursed already like u said.. lolx.. Dunno why but i've got the feeling already.. But i dun wanna believe in fate but self. =) So dun worry too much, i think i can handle it still.. So, let's live life as normal.
During the class 2B pract, was rather surprising to got jio for going for another pract together.. She was quite cute though but really pity her for kept falling off the bike.. As small size as me but for a lady, strength will definitely lesser than a guy.. Walau doesn't mean if i can put the bike on main stand without any help in one try and u also can lor.. I got learn before from SSDC de leh.. Haha.. It's not abt the strength but the technique handling.. Quite interesting gal..
Her conversation with another student when we three took the same train.
"I juz went out with my bf for 2weeks then i realised he got another gf for 9yrs already..."
"Omg.. Then u still with him now..?"
"Yup, anyway i also got another bf.. Haha.."
Me: "hmmmm.."
Well it seems pretty normal to the world but foreign to me. =.= Wait a min, before u start scolding ppl a bitch, think abt ur own acts. Use a mirror if needed. So, i dun have the rights to say it.. Lolx.. Coz i was like that before.. Be it cheating or being a third party. Well, life's like that. It's juz a game. Nothing more than that. It's not as if it's gonna be end of world if such things happened ah..
That day got stopped by an insurance advisor at Bugis. Prudential again. =.=" Amateur gal younger than me by 1yr. When being asked if i had got a gf, immediately spurred out NO despite i'm still with her.. However, she mentioned abt the rings saying if no gf then how come got rings..? Luckily i was in a good mood though not in the mood to disturb an ugly gal.. Wasting of time only.. Ya i no longer having charisma. It wun bring me food nor money so why bother.. There's no free lunch in the world so if u want a piece of me, there's gonna have a price to pay..
Oh yes when i thought of "U reminded me of her.. how come u taste like her?", the pain came.. It's not becoz of the taste but rather what happened after that later.. It's ok, what's past had past.. I dun hold grudges coz u had been truthful all along.. Let it be hidden.. Where words are not necessary nor essential..
